Chapter 2: So confused ugh!
And italics are the thoughts…
Sam's POV
It's been 3 months since Freddie and I got married. I still have dreams of gorgeous Ryan with his hazel eyes and his oh so perfect dirty blonde hair. We still keep in touch; he's like my best friend, and lives in our neighborhood, just 3 blocks away. He's still single and happy that way…
"So Freddie how was your day at work?" I asked trying my best to smile. Freddie became a Director of a hit T.V show called Enemies (get it? Like the hit show "Friends") and I became a lawyer, because the pay is outrageous, and I get to help people out.
"It was wonderful Sam" he paused "So, is this the night?" He asked with hopefulness in his eyes. Freddie and I never had sex; we were both virgins still, why? Because I wasn't ready, but I knew he was…
"Uh uhm" I stuttered thinking about it "No" I said in a monotone like voice. I knew Freddie wanted children, he told me many times before, but we are 21, we are young, he could wait.
"Oh well alright baby" he says as he heads up the stairs to our king size bed room "Good night" he says yawning.
I grab my car keys and silently slip out the front door to my beige Mercedes. I hopped in my car, and started to drive to Ryan's house, it only took me at most 5 min.
"Ryan, Ryan!" I say as I knock obnoxiously on his glass door. "Sammy?" he says rubbing his sleepy eyes. "No duh" I say as I step inside his house.
"So, you finally came to your senses and broke it off with that gay ass Freddie Benson" He says in the most nonchalant voice. "Uh no" I say annoyed. He gave me a witty smirk that reminded me of Freddie. "Freddie and I are just great" I say trying to get myself to believe what I just said to.
"Oh, so why are you still a virgin" he said trying not to laugh. "W-What, how'd you know" I say confused. " I could see it in your eyes Sam babe, and I could also see your not happy" he says sitting there all shirtless and hot! Ugh I cant think like this! I'm married to Freddie. I'm Sam Benson now! No longer on the market.
Before I could even blink, Ryan was leaning in to kiss me, and I met him half way. Oh no! I'm kissing Ryan. Ryan Belder, my extremely hot ex. He ends the 11 second kiss and leads me to his bedroom, and the scary part is…I want to do this with him. I quickly take off my shirt and lay myself on his bed. He takes over and is gentle.
That night I lost my virginity.
3 hours later, its 11 p.m.
I walk through the door, slowly not making a sound. I slowly got into my bed and fell fast asleep, but I could feel Freddie snuggle up to me.
That night I dreamed of doing Ryan all over his house and then coming home to do Freddie….I felt no guilt….at that time.