Chapter 1: A Ruined Hope

I ran as far away as the wards allowed. When I reached the border I fell to my Knees and screamed. I screamed for me, I screamed for Nathan turning Dimitri, and ruining my life. We were going to make everything work out. Our lives wouldn't have been perfect, but content. Happy.

"snap out of it Rose". I told myself. " You are not going to live your life thinking about what ifs."

I felt Lissa calling me through the bond. She was at my room knocking on the door because a certain pain in the butt Russian told her to come and check on me. I sighed. Couldn't I even scream in peace? I made my way back to my room. Finding Lissa in the middle of yet again knocking on my door.

" Rose!" Lissa screamed and threw herself into my arms. " Rose I was so worried. I've never seen Dimitri cry except that one time when he was turned.

" What do you mean?" I asked. Guilt quickly growing making my stomach uneasy. " Dimitri was crying?"

" Yes" Lissa said. " He said I needed to find you. He said that you would need me more than he would." She paused and looked me over. " Though you seem fine to me. Well as fine as you can be in your current situation."

Not really hearing anything Lissa said as she confirmed that Dimitri actually was crying. I asked where he was.

" Are your sure Rose? I don't want you to upset him even more. After all he's been through he deserves some peace."

I looked at her like she was crazy. " You know what Liss?" I asked her my anger for her, and always taking Dimitri side finally boiling over. " He's not the only one that's hurting. Or have you just forgotten all about me? Your bestfriend. Im so sick of your and all your Dimitri crap alright."

" Rose I know your hurting to. I haven't forgotten." she said with tears in her eyes. Through the bond waves of self shame came off of her. She had forgotten about me. Way to go Rose. Your bestfriend cares more about your ex boyfriend that you gave up everything for just for it to get thrown back in your face.

I rolled my eyes. " Look so are you gonna tell me or not?" I asked really annoyed now.

" He's in my room". I felt my eyes go big and my temper flare.

" What?"

Sensing my discomfort and anger she quickly explained. " I let him stay there so nobody would bother him"

Checking the bond to see if this was true I eyed her for about a minute. Finally excepting thar she was telling the truth I made my way to her room. Hesitating before the door I thought about what could happen. What if he didn't want to see me? And was I really ready to see him again? Pushing all emotion aside before I could talk myself into leaving I opened the door. What I saw before me broke my heart.

Dimitri was laying down on the bed with Tasha straddling his lap. His hands on her thighs, and they were in the middle of a intense kiss. They both gasped when they saw me, and hurriedly broke apart. At all I registered was shock. Then the scene started yo seep in. Dimitri and Tasha were kissing, privates pressed together. What if I had just uninterrupted them from having sex? What if he had finally accepted her offer? Tears sprung in my eyes and all I wanted to do was break down and cry. Then like early with Lissa I felt a flash of with hot rage.

" What. The. Hell?" I grounded out from in between my teeth.

Dimitri looks at me pleadingly, like he was about to say something, but then the bitch spoke.

"Well hello Rose." Tasha said with a knowing smirk on her face. " We weren't expecting any company. You really should have knocked."

And there went my control. My vision clouded and I felt a burning need to punch something. Anything. Which just so happened to be Tasha's face. I lunged to her and punched her so hard she flew backwards. I swooped in and punched her again and again in the face, hearing a series of crunches as my fists connected. I felt strong arms grabbing me, and faintly heard Dimitri screaming for me to stop. He pulled me away and spun around to take a defensive stand in front of Tasha. I growled at me. How dare he defend her? Then it all made sense. That's why he didn't want me. I was just a quick fuck. Someone for him to play around with. As that realization hit my anger rose. I don't know what he saw on my face because he looked scared. "Good" I thought to my self. He should be.

"Rose." he whispered. My gaze flickered to his round brown eyes and the door. As if sensing my need to get away he tried to grab me. But I shove him hard against the wall and for the second time today I am running from Dimitri Belikov. Once again for even the shortest of seconds I had allowed myself to hope, without even giving myself permission to. Maybe this is just the story of my life. Always to be hurt by the ones you care about and have sacrificed some much for. Guess its just time to except it.

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