When Your Heart Goes Missing

xXKyoandFangXx

Chapter Two: I Hate Myself For Losing You

Tohru's P.O.V.

I woke up, three days before graduation, bright and early. I was surprised that I was up so early… normally only Kyo-kun is up this early… I wonder if he left for his run yet…?

I pulled off my covers and quickly got dressed in my school uniform, and tied back my hair with the ribbons Yuki-kun had given me. I grabbed my bag and headed downstairs, pausing at Kyo-kun's closed bedroom door. He must've not left yet…

"Kyo-kun?" I called, knowing softly on his door.

There was no answer.

"Kyo-kun?" I called again, but still no answer, so I slowly pulled open the door. I saw he wasn't there. His window was open… is bed made… but his running clothes and hoes were discarded in a corner and his uniform hung up in his closet.

Where could he have gone? I thought, walking out of the room, and went downstairs to make breakfast before we set off for one of our last days in high school.

But, when I got downstairs, Kyo-kun wasn't there, either. I was confused, and starting to worry. Where could Kyo-kun be? I thought in dismay.

"Kyo-kun?" I called, walking out the front door and looking around. "Kyo-kun?" I called again. Huh… maybe the roof…? I hurried around the side of the house and up the ladder, only to discover he wasn't there either. Where is he? I was starting to panic.

I rushed back into the house – hearing Shigure-san calling my name.

"Sorry Shigure-san!" I said, bowing quickly. "I was just looking for Kyo-kun! Do you know where he could be?" I asked, and part of me already knew his answer.

"No. Sorry Tohru, I don't know." He said, confirming my suspicions. "He's not here you say?"

"No! And I'm really worried! Where could he have gone?" I said, really starting to panic now.

"What's wrong Miss Honda?" said Yuki-kun, coming into the kitchen, rubbing his eyes sleepily.

"It's Kyo-kun! He's missing! What do I do? Where could he be?"

"I'm sure he's around Miss Honda."

I quickly fixed breakfast, and we ate, but still, Kyo-kun didn't appear.

"Wha-what do we do? Should we go without him? AH!" I panicked.

"Tohru! Calm, please, my precious flower. I'll look for naughty little Kyo, Go ahead to school and I'll send him along after you when I find him." Said Shigure-san, patting my arm. "Now, don't worry!"

"O-ok-kay…" I said and followed Yuki-kun to school. When we arrived, Uo-chan and Hana-chan acquired on the absence of Kyo-kun.

"I-I don't know! He wasn't at the house! I called for him and – " I exclaimed, panicking all over again with a new wave of worry.

"Tohru. Calm down. I'm sure Orangetop is fine. But, I do wonder when he could have gone…" said Uo-chan, trying to comfort me.

We headed off to class at the signal of the bell; I couldn't concentrate at all - all day. I was too anxious to see if Kyo-kun came in. But as the clock signaled the end of the day, I was in full out panic mode.

Yuki-kun met me outside and we began to walk home, but as we got closer, I began to run, in anticipation and hope that Kyo-kun would be there.

"Kyo-kun?" I yelled, bursting through the front door, and looking around wildly. "Kyo-kun!" I yelled again, and rushed into the kitchen, then up the stairs to his room. But he wasn't there! I was freaking out.

"Tohru?" I heard Shigure-san call, his voice strained, and – it almost sounded upset. I ran – sprinted, really – downstairs and skidded to a stop before Shigure-san and Yuki-kun. Shigure-san's face was torn and upset.

"Shigur-" I began, my eyes wide, and realization hit my heart with a pang. I stopped speaking with the pain of it. I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"Tohru… Kyo's gone. He left. He went into his confinement early."

And all went black.

"Tohru! Tohru!"

"Miss Honda! Please wake up!"

There was a pause, and then Yuki-kun exclaimed,

"There's something wrong with her Shigure! Call Hatori! She's not waking up!"

I heard scuffling and the phone in the hallway pick up and Shigure-san speaking urgently into the phone.

I was fighting to open my eyes… without much success. They were so heavy… so I fell back under the darkness.

I heard two more voices join Shigure-san's and Yuki-kun's and I tried again to resurface.

"Tohru!" Momiji-kun cried, and shook me. "Please! Be alright! Tohru!"

"How long has she been unconscious?" asked Hatori-san.

"I-I'm not sure! Half an hour? What's wrong with her?" Shigure-san said.

"Can she hear us?" Yuki-kun asked.

"It's possible." Hatori-san said. "But, she won't come to, until she wants to." He paused. "What did you guys say – to make her pass out like this?"

"You two don't know?"

"Nuh-uh." Momiji-kun said.

"Kyo's gone. He left. He went into his confinement early."

"WHAT!? WHY!?"

"Akito didn't say."

"Akito!? Did he… force Kyo?" Momiji-kun exclaimed, outraged. "What do we do – how do we – "

"Momiji… Akito said Kyo came to him." Shigure-san said.

There was a loud sound, like something big breaking and Yuki-kun yelled,

"I'm going to kill that STUPID CAT!"

I was struggling with consciousness again, and my eyes fluttered open.

"Tohru!" Momiji-kun exclaimed, relieved.

"Miss Honda?" asked Yuki-kun, kneeling down next to me, his face, sad, angry and scared.

"Y-yuk-i-kun?" I gasped quietly, reaching up to hold my head, and tried to sit up, but I flopped back down as the room spun and my eyes wouldn't focus. Hatori was beside me next.

"Tohru?" he asked, lifting up my head, and putting a soft pillow under it.

"Yes?" I said quietly, closing my eyes.

"Kyo… didn't… harm you?"

My eyes flew open, and I put my hands to cover them, tears immediately overflowing.

"No! He never!" I sobbed. "Why – why – why!? Why didn't he tell me! Why did he have to go! Why!?" I cried, becoming hysterical. "I could've said something to make him not leave! Why Kyo-kun! Why did you leave me!?" I rolled over onto my side, and buried my face into the carpet, and just cried.

Oh, Kyo-kun… I hate myself for losing you…