Ch. 2 Fire

"Set your life on fire. Seek those who fan your flames"

― Rumi

Matthew kept telling me not to worry, that we were going to divorce, but after my moment of realization I didn't see anything the way I did before. The first thing that was different after I left all that sorrow behind, was him. I looked at him with other eyes. I told him that I didn't want to divorce him, that we should try it and we could talk about divorce later. It was the best decision ever. He had helped me heal. He was kind, supportive and everything anyone could ever dream. I was the luckiest. It didn't took me long to realize it was the easiest thing in the world to love him in every possible way.

A month passed and another and we didn't talk about divorce again. But then I was afraid he was gonna mention it when I told him I wanted to go to train some surgeons in the warzone for a month. He supported me. It was tough for me to leave them. Jackson took care of Harriet while I was gone. When I returned Matthew was waiting for me. Then it was my time to support him when he told me he wanted to be a firefighter. It was one of his dreams that he was afraid of doing while he was a single parent. Knowing I was there for Ruby made it easier for him to chase his dreams.

He was so happy when he got the job. He worked in the same station than Ben. I was happy he was with a friendly face. It turned out great; the station welcomed him and me as their family. It was so different than the Hospital workplace. We were there for everyone and everyone was there for us. It's so strong what happens between coworkers when their lives depends on everyone's job. It reminded me of my time at the army; friendship seems stronger in such situations. Miranda and I became more connected. We still are.

With Jackson everything was better for me. I felt more genuine around him, like I used to when we were just friends. We talked about everything, not just Harriet. We regained what we used to have.

At GSM things became complicated when Jackson took Teddy's side in a fight she was having with Maggie. It became like a civil war and that's not how anyone's work environment should be like. Catherine sided with Maggie, so did Meredith. Miranda sided with Jackson and Teddy. Richard didn't take any side, he tried to be Switzerland. It was worse than what happened because of the custody fight for Sofia. Jo took the minimally-invasive surgery fellowship that MassGen offered her. She and Alex were living in Boston. I was so glad I wasn't there anymore to see them fight each other, I couldn't even imagine what the place was like anymore.

Finally, Miranda, Jackson and Teddy left GSM. Catherine took Jackson's place at the board and Meredith was the new Chief of Surgery. Bailey had so much money and as she wasn't doing anything with it, she used it to buy Seattle Presbyterian Hospital. She took it as a project to rise it to be one of the best Hospitals in the country, so that no one had to be treated the way she had been treated there. She took Teddy and Jackson with her, Teddy as her Head of Cardiothoracic Surgery and Jackson as the Chief of Surgery. She also offered me to be Head of Trauma Surgery. I couldn't say no to her. I missed my job so badly.

Arizona and Callie got back together in New York, but they decided to move back to Seattle where all their friends were. They finally moved when the Robbins Herman Center for Women's Health was finished. I got my friends back and Miranda did everything in her power to have the Ortho Goddess in her team as Head of Orthopedic Surgery. The name of the hospital was changed too. It reminded me a lot of the time Mercy West merged with Seattle Grace. We were the new ones again, but we had each other. It felt like everything was falling into the right place. Miranda got her dream team and she really changed the Hospital.

I got to work with the best team and my best friends. Jackson and Maggie weren't a thing anymore but he was in a great place. Growing professionally away from the protection of Catherine was something he really needed. He started to pass more time at home. Eventually, he and Matthew became close friends, which made it easier for everyone as a family.

Matthew was also in a happy place with his new job as a firefighter. His best friend at the station was Ben, who was no longer the rocky when Matthew joined them. Knowing Ben was working with Matthew eased my concerns. Every night we prayed for the firehouse family that we were now part of.

Miranda had more experience at being married with a firefighter. She was always there for me, sharing her experiences, reassuring me. With time I got used to it. I always hoped for the best.

For our first anniversary I found out I was pregnant. I got to deliver a healthy boy with Arizona as my doctor. I thought that was it for me, but here I'm, expecting another baby. I would never forget the moment Harriet and Ruby met Eli. I loved my family so much.

Our marriage was short but I had the happiest memories.

Being a trauma surgeon, I got to work with many of the people they rescued. And Jackson worked with me in a lot of those cases.

The hardest case for me, was Andy. It shocked me at first when I saw it was her. She was hurt at a warehouse fire. Luckily, we saved her.

After the surgery was done, I went to the waiting room, expecting to find Ben and Matthew, but they weren't there. That was the moment when everything changed.