He left. Just walked out of my house and left me here crying. I can't say i blame him cause i was kinda (kinda?) okay, a total things that i said were uncalled for, but they needed to be said. What happened between Eli and that skank Jenna last year really hurt me. I tried my hardest to pretend it never happened but, there were reminders everywhere.
I remember last October like it was yesterday. Eli was ready to take that next step in our relationship but i wasn't. We were cuddling in his bed watching a movie when he brought up the topic.
"Clare", he said after kissing me " I think its time we take our relationship to the next level." He looked at me with those big green eyes of his.
"What do you mean?" I said, sitting up and smiling at him.
"I think we should become closer, as in making love." If i wasn't looking in his eyes, I would've thought he was joking. All i could do was stare at him, speechless.
"Eli.. I'm not ready for the emotional effects of having sex yet. I'm a mess half of the time. I just don't want to regret our decisions if we actually do it. " He looked at me with this look. Like, it was anger mixed with sadness.
"Clare, we've been dating forever! Please? Do you know how long i've gone without sex?" As i stood up, he stood up too. He was siletntly pleading with his eyes.
"Well then. I'm so fucking sorry! You know i'd do anything for you, But i can't do this." I spat at him and he looked pretty upset.
"You know,"he said quite calmly," i could have any girl i want. any one of them. And, they would all give it up to me. We both know how easy jenna would give it up. Cause, she's not a fucking tease like you." Those words made it feel like he slapped me across the face. I looked at him and opened my mouth to say something but couldn't find the words. I ran down his stairs, away from him, out of his house. I got on my bike and rode home like nothing happened. We didn't talk for a week and a few days after that. He would try to confront me and i would pretend i didn't see or hear him.
On Halloween, Ali forced me to go to Jal's party. She told me i was moping around too much and i needed to get out. "Diane, (she used my middle name when she was trying to act motherly towards me) you need to get out of the house. Whatever happened between you and Eli couldn't have been so bad." So, i went. Ali chose a costume for me so, I went as a sexy nurse. I never showed that much cleavage in my life! When we got to the party, everybody was already late than never, as Ali would , I decided i was going to confront Eli on everything that happened between us. I saw Jenna and K.C (she was dressed as a butterfly and he was dressed like a football player. who wouldv'e guessed?) in the corner. They looked like they were arguing again. She slapped him pretty hard and stormed off. Once a whore, you're nothing more. Out the corner of my eye, i caught a glimpse of Eli. He looked amazing, as always. He quickly disappeared into the costume clad crowd. I started to loosen up and danced with a few people. I drank a little and tried to forget about a wierd feeling that crept over me. A few minutes later, i went to go find Eli. I walked around Jal's house and looked for him. When i went outside, I saw his car so he must still be here. I walked upstairs and saw jenna crying in one room and i silently shut the door. The other room was filled with couples making out and groping each other like wild animals. Back downstairs, i saw Ali dancing with drew. They were getting pretty intense so i decided to leave them be.
"Hey little miss Sunshine!" a voice yelled into my ear. I turned around to see Adam standing there wearing a hotdog costume. I couldn't help but to smile.
"Hey Adam!" I gave him a giant hug and let go. " How are you? I haven't seen you in a while!"
"i've been fine i guess. Eli seems like he can't get enought of me. He always want to hang out. I haven't seen you over his house or around him in a few days. Is everything okay?' I nodded my head and told him we just hit a bump in the road. We talked for a few more minutes until he said he'd talk to me later.
I went back upstairs and checked in the rooms again. I knocked on the door where Jenna was an hour ago and nobody responded. I quietly opened the door and there were two people in the room having sex on the bed. "Harder Eli, Harder" The girl screamed. It was Jenna. Why the hell was she screaming Eli's name? "Shut the fuck up Jenna, Somebody's gonna hear you!" I heard Eli's voice and felt myself whimper. I dropped my phone and they looked at me in surprise.
"Clare, What the hell are you doing in here? Like what you see, pervert?" Jenna's sneer made me stop breathing. Eli pushed her off of him and quickly went for his clothes. I heard him mumble "fuck" as he got dressed. I looked away from them as i hear jenna start to snicker in the background.
"Clare?" he tried to approach me. I backed off and looked between him and Jenna as the pain radiated from every inch of my body. "Don't fucking touch me, you sick bastard!" I screeched. I started hyperventilating as i ran out of the room. Eli's calls were soon drowned out by the sound of techo music as i rushed downstairs. I felt the tears pouring from my eyes as i went to find Ali. A few minutes later, I found her pressed against Drew in the corner. I tapped on her shoulder as she turned around to see who was interrupting her. She took one look at me and pulled me into the closet. I told her what happened and she took me home after saying goodbye to Drew first. Eli came over that night and tried to talk to me but Ali told him off and threatened to cut off his junk if he came near me again. After around 3 months, i could finally look at Eli without getting sick just by looking at him. 3 years of relationship crumbled after that night. I couldn't believe what happened between him and Jenna. I heard Jenna did it to make K.C jealous but she told me that she had a thing for Eli. He would tell her to leave me alone but, that didn't fix anything. They were both guilty in my eyes.
And the crazy part is, They took each others virginity. So, sue me if you think i'm overreacting about Jenna and Eli. There is definitely something fishy between them and i don't think its between Jenna's legs.