I have never felt so awkward in my life. When I asked Maggie about condoms she looked at me before going into a detailed explanation on how to use them and the best ways to be safe. It was incredibly embarrassing and the fact that Merle was standing right there made it ten times worse. Especially when he started laughing and I didn't yet have the coordination to punch him yet so I just settled for kneeing him in the balls. It was super effective. Anyway we had hit the road again with me happily perched on my dads back. As we walked I scanned the area for any sight of this 'Alexandra' and was having no luck. I found myself quite bored as time passed nodding off every now and then simply for entertainment. I was incredibly relieved when we were finally able to stop. Dad gently layed me against a tree. "You feelin okay?" He asked.

I nodded "yeah," I studied his hands "why do you do that?" He froze "do what?" "Injure yourself," I said frowning "it won't change what happen," dad sighed "I know but I shoulda done somethin-" "don't start," I said rolling my eyes "there was nothing you could do the past is in the past you shouldn't dwell on what could of been but instead focus on the not so distant future." Dad gave me a small smile before ruffling my hair and walking off. I layed my head against the tree closing my eyes and I join the tranquility around me. I heard footsteps approach me and opened my eyes to see Carl standing there in front of me shuffling awkwardly "would you like to go for a walk?" He asked. I nodded and let him help me up "please I've been collecting dust over here," Carl went to help me walk but I pushed his hands away "I got it," he smiled "if you say so," we walked in silence. Well he walked mine was more of a steady limp. We held hands before he slowly let go.

I looked at him confusion as he strolled into the woods before crouching over something his hands moving in a rapid motion. I went to walk over but his voice called out "don't peak!" So I stayed put. "Okay," he mumbled before turning to face me "close your eyes." I grudgingly closed them and felt him aproach me and gently place something on my head. "Open them," he said and I did looking at him. He held up a small hand mirror and I saw that he had made a small flower crown. "All hail queen Adrian," he said giving a mock bow. I grinned before straightening my posture "arise faithful servant the queen wishes to be carried to her next destination," "yes my queen," Carl said before lifting me into a piggy back. If only I had a whip. We walked further me slapping Carl's head whenever he made horse noises until we came across a small cabin in the woods.

It looked nice apart from the two walkers standing guard. Carl put me down "wait here," I raised an eyebrow "do I have a choice?" He rolled his eyes playfully before walking towards the walkers clutching a knife. He jabbed the knife into the walkers skull and ripped it out causing it to fall. The second walker aproached him growling but Carl was ready for him taking a jab at its head. The second walked fell and he quickly scanned in the cabins window. Once deeming it safe he came back over to me "come on," he said helping me up "it's empty." We walked inside before sitting against the wall.

The subtly reached in my pocket and clutched the condom did I really want to risk it? Carl seemed to notice my unease "what's up?" I shook my head before smiling at him "it's nothing don't worry about it." Carl frowned "if it's bothering you than it must be something." I bit my lip awkwardly fiddling with the condom before making up my mind. "Hey Carl have you ever gotten...the talk?" I asked. Carl's face went red "well yeah but why do you ask?" I fiddled with my hands "well I figured were both old enough and as we saw at that hospital we could lose each over at any given moment so I thought-" Carl interrupted me by giving me a small kiss. He smiled at me nervously "I'm fine to do it but only if this is what you really want." I nodded before pulling out the condom. Carl looked at me in shock "where did you get that?" I blushed "long story." We glanced at each other nervously before pulling one another into a passionate kiss. This wasn't like other kisses it was a little more uncertain. Carl nervously slipped his tongue in my mouth. It was a new feeling and it felt a bit weird but I slowly got used to it as I felt Carl gently tug at my shirt.

"That was nice," I said putting my shirt back onto my sweat covered body. Carl nodded "yeah a little strange," "but sweet," I said kissing his cheek."To tell you the truth I feel like I just ran a marathon," Carl laughed pulling me into his chest. I winced slightly causing him to frown "did I hurt you?" he asked. To tell the truth it hurt like hell at first but it gradually got better. "No just a little sore," I said. He nodded lying back. "It almost feels like we're not in the apocalypse," he murmured. I nodded "yeah just seems like the world hasn't gone to shit," "swear," I heard him mutter. I looked at him oddly "did you just say swear?" He blushed "no," "I heard you!" His face turned red and I smiled teasingly at him. "Your such a dork," I teasingly muttered. "No I'm your dork," he corrected. I cuddled into his chest before closing my eyes before a thought came to me. "Carl," "yeah?" "My dad is going to kill you," "...shit," "swear~" "your not gonna let that one go are you?" "Never."