Chapter 2
I decided to start by telling Finn about the baby. The only problem was that I seemed to have lost my voice, on top of everything else. Finn offered to go to the doctor with me. I was so worried that the doctor would say that I could never sing again. However, the doctor said that I have tonsillitis. He actually suggested that I have them removed. After I refused, the doctor tried to give me antibiotics. I knew that I could not take certain medications while pregnant. I didn't want to tell Finn in a doctor's office, so I asked him to step out while I talked with the doctor.
" I was just wondering, is it safe to take this prescription while I am pregnant?"
" What?" replied the doctor, looking surprised.
" I'm pregnant"
" Have you been to the OBGYN?" asked the doctor.
" Not yet. I just found out on Friday, and this is Monday."
" But I do have an appointment for Thursday."
" Then I suggest waiting until Thursday, and letting that doctor prescribe you something if the swelling hasn't gone down by then" he said.
" Ok. Thank you" I replied with a half smile.
" I will let your friend know that he can come back in now" said the doctor.
When Finn came back in the room I could tell that he suspected something by the way he was looking at me.
"Why did you send me out of the room Rachel?" he asked in a serious way.
"I just needed to talk to the doctor alone for a minute" I said, trying to sound as innocent as possible.
"I just need to rest my voice for a week, and chug herbal tea" I said, trying to change the subject.
Finn took my hand and asked me seriously,
"Why can't we be together Rachel?"
"Because I'm with Jesse, Finn" I replied angrily.
"Well where is he now" Finn said with irritation in his voice.
"He's in San Diego on Spring Break with his friends from Vocal Adrenaline!!" I replied with exasperation.
"When are you going to realize that he's not into you like I am? Do you think he's going to stick around if you can't sing anymore? If your a vocal cripple?" he says, almost yelling.
"Look, I know you've always been jealous of Jesse. And we haven't spoken since the whole Run Joey Run debacle, but you need to understand something. I still care about him deeply." I said, trying not to hurt him more than I already was.
"Please try to understand" I begged him, as I walked behind the curtain to change back into my clothes.
After I changed, and we left the doctors office, I lost the nerve to tell him. I decided to wait until after Glee club. He offered to give me a ride home, and I figured that I could tell him at my house. After everything that he had just told me, I felt guilty. I knew that he was going to flip out when I told him. I was really getting nervous.
In Glee club this weeks assignment is to sing something that exposes your soul. I was surprised when Finn went first. He started to sing "Jessie's Girl" by Rick Sringfield. When he got to the line "and she's loving him with that body, I just know it" I could have cried. If he only knew the half of it. I definitely have feelings for Finn. Especially when he looks at me, and sings to me like this. Did I really ever get over him? I'm just so confused right now. And to make everything worse, as he's singing that song, Puck is watching us. He looks amused, like he's expecting me to have some sort of reaction. He wouldn't be like that if he knew the truth. That Quinn isn't the only pregnant woman in the room right now. All of a sudden I feel very ill. I jump out of my seat, and run for the bathroom. I barely made it into the stall before I vomit my entire days worth of food into the toilet. Oh great I think. This on top of tonsillitis. It's been a terrible day for me. I go to the sink and start rinsing out my mouth. I hear someone come in the bathroom, and I jump a little.
"What's going on Rach?" I hear Puck say
"What are you doing in here Noah? This is the ladies room."
He just lets out a little laugh and tells me that he volunteered to come and check on me. Well now is as good a time as any, I think. My day couldn't get any worse.
"I'm pregnant Noah" I say in a serious voice.
"What" he replies in a near whisper.
"Look, I am definately pregnant, and there is something else. You weren't the only one that I had sex with. I was also with Finn, and Jesse. I don't know which one of you is the father." I say in a rush.
It's a relief to get it out, but I think that Puck is in shock right now. He looks stunned in place. He just keeps shaking his head and repeating Oh My God.
"Noah, I am going to tell Finn today when he takes me home. And I'm going to tell Jesse when he calls me. Please say something Noah?"
"But we used protection" he says with a little more confidence in his voice.
"So did Finn, and Jesse" I reply
With that he just turns around and runs out of the bathroom like he's on fire. Well one down, two to go. And this definitely won't get any easier. When I get back to the choir room Finn and Puck are both starring at me. Quinn is even starring, and now I'm getting uncomfortable. I ask Mr. Shue if Finn and I can leave early because I am sick. He says it's fine, and tells me to get better. On the inside I'm thinking that it's nothing that won't be better in about nine months.
We pull up to my house and Finn parks in the driveway.
"Do you want to come in for some tea? My dads aren't home."
"Sure" he says with a smile.
"Just let me run upstairs and brush my teeth" I say, as I'm already headed up.
"I'll just wait in the kitchen" he says
As I get to my bedroom I throw off my shoes. I look at myself in the mirror as I'm brushing my teeth. I look terrible. I really need a long, hot shower right now. I yell down the stairs that I am jumping in the shower. I strip off my clothing, and get under the hot water. As I begin to wash my hair I suddenly feel another hand. It makes me jump. As I turn to face Finn, he is already naked, and beginning to wash my hair for me. He is so gentle, and I let him do this. He then rinses my hair. He puts his face so close to mine that I just lean forward and kiss him full on the mouth. He picks me up in his strong arms, wraps my legs around his waist, moves me against the wall, and almost instantly he is inside me. He is gentle at first, until I feel my climax coming and start yelling his name. He then moves faster, and faster until he releases inside me. We are both breathing heavily, and then he gently places me on the shower floor.
"Oh shit Rachel. Did I hurt you?" he says with such emotion.
"I forgot to use protection. I'm so so sorry."
"No Finn. You didn't hurt me. And I don't think that it matters if you used protection or not." I say with tears in my eyes.
"Why wouldn't that matter" he asks, looking confused.
"Because I'm already pregnant" I say with tears streaming down my face.
"Wow Rachel, really? We're going to have a baby?"
"I don't know" I say crying almost uncontrollably.
"There's more" I barely get out.
He looks confused now. I try to stop crying so that I can tell him the rest, but it's so hard. My emotions are all over the place right now. We both dry off, and get dressed. I sit on my bed, and he follows. He wraps me in his arms to comfort me, and I let him.
"It's going to be okay" he reassures me.
"No, it's not" I cry.
"I have to tell you what happened, and I pray that you won't hate me when I'm done."
"I could never hate you Rachel" he says with love in his voice.
"Okay, here goes" I say, swiping at the tears that are falling.
"When that stupid list came out, I was really humiliated to be at the bottom with a minus 5. I asked Puck to come to my house to help me with the Run Joey Run video. I was tired of being seen as that innocent, nieve girl. We had sex that day"
"You did what?" he yelled, standing up quickly.
"I'm so sorry Finn, please try to hear me out. Trust me, that's not the worst part" I say sobbing.
"Tell me Rachel, what could be worse than you telling me that you slept with Puck?" he says, grabbing my shoulders so that he can make me look him in the eyes.
"The fact that I also slept with you and Jesse while we were filming that video" I say, closing my eyes. I can't look him in the eyes right now.
When I open my eyes again, he looks shocked. He starts to pace the floor in my bedroom.
"I don't know which one of you is the father" I get out, suddenly feeling stronger.
"We used protection" he yells out.
"So did Noah, and Jesse"
"How could you do this to me Rachel? After what Quinn did. Knowing how much that hurt me. You are no better than she is" he yells out.
"Don't ever accuse me of being like Quinn" I yell out.
"She lied to you for months, and would have continued if I hadn't called her out on it. I would never lie to you. I would never come to you claiming that you are the only one who is the possible father, knowing that it is a lie. I made a mistake, and now I'm doing the right thing, and telling the truth. Not that I even lied to you in the first place. We were not dating when it happened. If anyone has a right to be angry, it's going to be Jesse. We were together when all this happened, and I did cheat on him. I will never forgive myself for that, but at least I am woman enough to admit what I did wrong, and take responsibility for it."
"Have you told anyone else yet?" He asks, looking heartbroken.
"I told Noah earlier today, when he was checking on me after I ran out of Glee club."
"Did you kiss him, and let him have sex with you again too?" he asks angrily.
"Of course I didn't. You are only saying that because you are so angry at me right now. I think that you know me better than that."
"Do I" he asks.
"Why did you let me have sex with you today? Was it a way of trying to get me to be less angry when you told me that their are three possible fathers of your baby, and that I'm one of them?"
"Of course not. I didn't plan on having sex with you today. You're the one that got naked, and came into my shower, remember? I don't know why I let you, and didn't just stop it. When you get near me I can't seem to say no. Only you. Not Puck, or Jesse." I say, sounding confused.
He looked like he was about to cry then. I got up from my bed, and walked toward him. When I tried to put my arms around his waist he moved them back to my sides.
"No Rachel" he said as the first tear fell.
"I need time to think, and to figure out what to do" he said dropping his head in defeat.
"My first OBGYN appointment is scheduled for Thursday. I really want you to be there." I said.
"Oh I will definitely be there, seeming as how this may be my baby too. But right now, I need to leave. And you need to get ahold of Jesse, and explain this to him too. I'm sure that he is going to have something to say about all of this. I just don't know what to say to you right now."
He walked over to the dresser, grabbed his keys, and left. Even though my heart felt like it was breaking, I knew that I needed to talk to one more person. Finn was right, I had to talk to Jesse.