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A/N: PLEASE, PLEASE read and review! I need to know where I should carry this story.

I know all my fellow Jacob lovers (me included) might not like my twist here but it was necessary and it gets better promise (:

Chapter 2

Jacob's POV

Wow, what a night I had. First Embry and Seth forced me to go to this stupid club where I didn't find an imprint. That sucked.

Then they both ran off with girls and left me to fend for myself. So I had one too many drinks, being alone on a Saturday night just made it worst.

I was sick and tired of feeling depressed and alone all the time. I was lonely, very lonely.

Ever since Bella left to go on her honeymoon with her leech, I never heard from her again. I use to wonder if she was still human or if she was a leech.

I still somehow think that I would never get over her. I knew that that was a stupid thought because I didn't imprint on her, I knew this.

I felt a little of what the imprinting felt like through the minds of my pack brothers. It seems to feel like your whole life depended on the other person's existence.

It was like they would die if they were to be separated from their mate. They could sense when something was bothering their imprint and it was just pure instinct to give them whatever they wanted, whether it was what they wanted or not. They couldn't resist, they felt pleasure in satisfying their every need. Oh and they would be whatever their imprint wanted them to be, best friend, brother or lover.

Yea it was that pathetic.

Sam had his imprint Emily, Quill has Claire, Jared has Kim and Brady has Kara. It was just Embry, Seth, Leah and I that didn't have that someone special, and I have to admit, I was happy that they hadn't imprinted yet. Misery loves company I guess.

I slowly got up off of my tiny bed and stretched my limbs trying to limber up. I walked out of my bedroom with nothing but my boxers on when I heard

"Geez Jake! For God's sake put some clothes on, you're making me want to puke" Leah exclaimed.

"Leah, it's my house remember. And what are you doing over here so early?" I asked as I went to the bathroom.

"Early Jake? Come on its three in the afternoon and we had a pack meeting at two but guess what... the mighty Alpha didn't turn up" Leah's voice was laced with sarcasm

"Oh shit! I forgot about that. God damn it Leah why didn't you come and wake me" I said angrily even though I knew it wasn't her fault. But she was my Beta and I expected her to be there for me.

"Don't get angry with me Alphy" Leah said with disdain.

I hated when she called me Alphy.

"It's not my fault that you went and got pissing drunk and when your Beta came in to wake you, you wouldn't budge!"

"Okay Leah! I get it okay" I said a little less angrily. I was happy she came and at least tried.

"You don't get it Jacob! Not because you are depressed means you can go off and do shit like that, you are the Alpha of this pack and you have a lot of people looking up to you" Leah sounded upset, really upset and even a little hurt.

"While you went off to have casual fucks with God knows who, I had to lead the pack last night and the meeting this afternoon"

"Leah! God I get it! You just don't understand how I'm feeling right now, I'm so lost and empty I feel like there's a piece of me that's just gone, I don't..." before I could finish what I was saying Leah crossed the room and came to where I was near the bathroom door.

"I don't know how you feel Jacob? I share your mind when we are in wolf form. I know exactly how you feel Jacob Black! More than you know!" Leah was staring right at me now and I could see something hidden beneath those eyes, I could see the same hurt that I was feeling in them.

"I know more than anyone how it feels to lose the one you love to someone else Jacob! I have to see him practically every day with her and I can get through it. But no not you, you don't even have deal with having to see them together daily and you are so depressed! It's sickening! Jacob you need to man up and stop being a pussy! She doesn't love you, she loves Edward and she NEVER will love you!"

I knew Leah was talking to me and telling me about Bella but all I could notice was now attractive Leah was. She was tall and had a perfectly tanned complexion, her hair was black and silky and her lips... before I even realised what I was doing I held Leah by her hand tightly, as she tried to walk away from me, pulling her back.

My eyes trailed slowly up from her wrist to her neck then to her lips... her gorgeous lips.

I have always thought Leah was attractive but I was feeling it even more so now. I wanted Leah and I wanted her now, I couldn't explain it, this need in me was almost uncontrollable.

"You want me to be a man Leah. You want me to be Alpha!" I shouted and with that I grabbed Leah by her waist, her small slender waist, and hoisted her up and pinned her to the wall. I was losing the battle of self control, letting the animal inside of me take over.

Leah gasped at my action. Leah was strong but I was the strongest wolf of the pack. She looked at me and said

"Yes Jacob I want you to be the fucking Alpha! And if you feel that hurting me or punishing me for saying what I just said is going to make you feel like the man, then do it you pussy!"

Leah's body was responding to me even though her words weren't, she had her legs wrapped around my waist and the buttons of her shirt had come lose.

Her perfect breasts were exposed, that was enough, I couldn't fight it anymore. I didn't want to. I needed her and needed her now.

"I'll show you who your Alpha is Leah" and with that statement I leaned in slowly and I heard Leah's heart speed up and her legs tightened her hold on me.

Her breathing became laboured as she tried to turn her head but I forced it back with my other hand.

She looked at me and I could tell that her animal instincts were taking over too. I took that opportunity to lick her neck slowly, tasting and enjoying her and she groaned with pleasure.

I turned my head and slowly leaned in again to taste her lips. When our lips met a fire in both of us exploded.

It was no longer Jacob and Leah but two wolves about to mate. The kiss left us breathless and I was hungry for more.

I took Leah's shirt in my mouth, never once letting her go from my grasp, and ripped it off of her with my teeth.

Exposing her breasts fully to me, I took her perfect breast in my mouth and sucked… God that felt good and all I heard was "Ja-cob, I want you now"that's all I needed to hear.

I backed away from the wall a bit and flipped her over so her back was against my chest and she growled with lust.

I took her jeans in my hand and ripped them off. I let my hand trace from her ass all the way up to her neck and then pushed her neck down so she was bending completely over and with a thrust I was inside her. We both moaned with pleasure.

I kept going roughly in and out. I took my hands off her neck and held her waist close to me as she stayed bent over.

I could feel her climax coming, she moaned and that sent a chill down my spine and I plunged harder and harder and then I felt it her walls contracting and she cried out with pleasure and with that I came to my own.

We both collapsed on the floor and I pulled out and sat beside her. We were both breathing so hard.

She looked at me and I looked at her and pain filled both of our eyes. We knew we didn't love each other and it was just a moment of weakness.

She took my hand and said "thank you" and I covered her hand with mine and said "It's me who should thank you Leah"

We sat there in silence for what seemed like hours, just holding on to each other, like if we had let go we would slip back into our depression over our rejection from our loves.

"Jacob…we both weren't thinking…we were just acting on instincts. We have been alone for so long that it was too much" Leah said breaking the silence.

I knew what she was saying was true but I couldn't help but feel rejected and hurt again. I sat up pulling away from Leah and said

"Leah we've tried the love thing and it doesn't seem to be for us! We even tried to imprint on people but that doesn't seem to be for us either!"

I turned to her fully "Why can't we just be together we're perfect for each other. You're the only female werewolf that I know and you're Beta in my pack and I'm Alpha, we're two of a kind, we're just meant to be, imprint or no imprint" I said in a huff.

I was angry I needed someone and Leah was the only girl that really truly cared for me and looked out for me. I could learn to love her like that later.

Leah took my face in her hands and said "Jacob Black, please don't get angry. You are the most amazing man I have ever met and I love you very much... but I'm not in love with you and you deserve true love and so do I because I know that you're not in love with me either. What we did here was just the wolf taking over in both of us and we deserve more"

Leah's words stung but even though I knew it was true I couldn't be rejected again "We could learn to love each other Leah. Why can't you just give this a try?" I knew deep down inside that it would not happen but I needed someone I was so lonely.

"Jacob, I love you but as I said we deserve better" And with that Leah picked herself up and gave me one hell of a kiss then went into my room and put on one of my shirts and shorts and came out.

"Jacob, since I did all the patrolling last night, it's your turn and please try not to think of this around the guys, I really don't want to have to kill my brothers" Leah said with a smile as she headed for the door.

How could she be so nonchalant about this? It was as if somehow deep down inside she was optimistic that true love would come her way.

I would never have put the words optimistic and Leah in the same sentence but today I saw Leah differently. She was one amazing girl and anyone who she imprinted on would be one lucky bastard.

"Sure thing Leah" I said as I got up off of the floor and headed to the bathroom. I turned the shower on and let the water soothe me.

I couldn't believe that I got rejected by Bella and Leah. When am I ever going to get the girl? I thought to myself.

I turned the water off and came out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist and headed back to my bedroom and threw on a fresh pair of boxers, some slacks and a T-Shirt and headed for the door it was my night to patrol so I didn't bother with shoes.

I ran as far as I could into the forest, then took off my T-Shirt and slacks and phased. It felt good to be in my wolf form. All my instincts took over I barely had any room for human emotions. That was one of the things I loved most about being a wolf.

It wasn't soon after that I heard the voices of my brothers "Hey Jake, someone is in a good mood...but wait why are you trying to block your thoughts" Seth said

I knew I had to do it, I never really liked to use my Alpha tone with anyone but I had to or Leah would kill everyone

"Why would Leah want to kill everyone" Seth asked worriedly

Then I heard Embry chime in "Since when does Leah need a reason to want to kill anyone...it's Leah she's always in a killing mood"Embry was laughing.

"Okay guys that's enough, no one is to pry as to why Leah would kill everyone you got that! and no one is to try and sift through my brain or Leah's to find out" I said in Alpha tone and

I heard the whimpers of my brothers in submission.

I hated doing that, but it was the only way to keep them from snooping.

After patrolling I crawled in my bedroom window, utterly exhausted and fell onto my bed.

I tried to sleep but I couldn't. That feeling like a part of me was missing was coming back, and coming back stronger than ever before. In a sense confirming what Leah was telling me I guess.

That there is a true love out there for me, I can almost feel it. This was so strange, almost as if I should go in search of her, like she was calling for me but I couldn't hear her but I could feel the longing.

God! What the hell Jacob! ...Was my imprint truly out there?

Was she really longing for... me? Shit! The mere thought of that was making me excited. I felt like I was getting butterflies in my stomach.

The more I began to ponder this new feeling another one came up. A scary one.

What if I never find her? Now that I think I can feel it or rather sense it, what if I never get to meet her?

I started to panic. My breathing got shorter and shorter like life itself was leaving me. Dear God no, no, no please, please let me find her. I can't breathe! What the hell!Calm down Jake,calm down...breathe,breathe… good that's it Jake…breathe.

What was happening to me? Dear God! The thought alone of never finding my love was breaking my heart into pieces.

What would happen if I did meet her?

Geez Jacob Black you are going mad! I told myself and rolled over and before I knew it I fell asleep.

A/N: So i'm going to beg again...I know...I know, its very sad but, here I go PLEASE, PLEASE Read and Review! I have more chapters but I want to know what you guys think before I post them. Please help me out guys!

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