Hey everyone! I hope you've been waiting patiently cause here's the next chappy! not alot of excitment in this one but the next one will!

Disclaimer: You see Kurama and Hiei making out on the show? No then I don't own it.


Hiei let the blade rest onto his wrist. He knew it would take a little pressure and a flick of his wrist and it would be all over, but wasn't this a coward's way out of life?

But at the moment Hiei could careless about it. He just wanted to stop the pain.

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"What?" Said Kurama looking a Keiko with wide eyes, "Well you started dating last week and you haven't seen Hiei in about a week isn't that a little too coincidental?" She asked putting her hands on her hips.

Kurama blinked at her and mentally agreed with her. Hiei has been avoiding him whether in Ningenkai or on mission. The little hi-youkai didn't come close to him. Kurama was about to answer when the phone rang.

He walked over to it and picked up the receiver, "Moshi-moshi." He greeted and was surprised to hear Yukina at the other end, "Kurama-san." She said hesitantly, "Um…I know that this is sudden but could you and the others please come over to the temple? Genkai-sama asked that you and the others come over right away." She said.

Kurama raised an eyebrow, "I'm sure she knows that it's raining outside why does she want us to come over?" He asked, "I'm not sure. She asked for you to come over after Hiei went to take a shower." She answered.

Kurama let out a gasp catching the others attention, "Hiei's there?" He tried to ask calmly but came out strained, "We'll be right there." He said before hanging up.

"Who was that Kurama?" Asked Yusuke, "It was Yukina, Genkai wants us over at her temple. Now." He said causing Yusuke to groan and Kuwabara to brighten up at the thought of seeing Yukina. "She does know it's raining right?" Asked Yusuke, and Keiko glared at him, "Of course she knows Yusuke. So what are we waiting for let's go." She said grabbing her coat.

Kurama followed her example eager to see Hiei.

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Hiei flinched as blood ran down his arm. Then suddenly Hiei threw his sword away hearing it clang onto the floor. He was breathing hard, panting more like it, 'What…was I…doing?' He thought staring at his bleeding wrist, luckily it was a shallow cut so it should heal in fifteen minutes.

Hiei got up and turned off the shower before stepping out he got dressed in his clothes still wet then raised his temperature making steam puff up from his body. When Hiei was dry he walked over to his sword hesitating briefly before picking it up and sheathing it again. He opened the bathroom door and walked out. He looked around the vacant hallway before heading down to the den.

Hiei stood in the doorway looking at Yukina and Genkai. Genkai was sipping tea while Yukina was sewing something together. Hiei turned around intending to leave when a soft voice stopped him, "Oh Hiei-san you're done."

Hiei looked over his shoulder at her as she put down her project and was walking towards him, "Yes I'm done and now I'm leaving." He said making Yukina gasp.

"But you can't leave!" She exclaimed, "The storm has gotten even worse will you please stay the night?" She asked clasping her hands together. Hiei tried to say no but he didn't want that face to fall of that hopeful expression, the same one she always gives him when she asks if he found her brother yet.

He sighed, "Alright." He said making Yukina beam at him, "Great!" She said grabbing his hand and pulling him along to the spare bedrooms. Yukina let go of his hand and opened the door, "Here you go Hiei-san, I think you'll like this room its nice and dark." She said watching Hiei enter and look around the room.

"It will do…thank you." He said the last part hesitatingly, but Yukina didn't seem to mind she just smiled at him Yukina opened her mouth to say something but didn't get the chance as someone knocked on the door. Yukina looked disappointed, "I better go answer that." She said walking out of the door, "Please try to get some rest okay." She said before leaving shutting the door behind her.

Hiei looked around the room once more before stripping out of his cloak and top. He crawled into bed curling up under the sheets. It's been some time when he was last in a bed that didn't involve sex. He laid on his stomach burring his head into the pillow, he was so tired all of a sudden it wouldn't hurt he rested his eyes.

Hiei closed his eyes his hands on either side of his head as he succumbed to the darkness he knew he could never escape, but tried to defy.

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Yukina opened the door and was surprised at who she saw, she expected Yusuke, Kazuma, Kurama, and Keiko, but Botan and Shizuru were there as well. "Oh you all must be soaked! Please come in!" She exclaimed shooing them inside.

She handed each of them a towel after they hung up their raincoats, and lead them to the den where Genkai was. "So nice of you to come." She greeted and Yusuke glared at her, "Yeah though we had to walk through a hurricane just to get here!" He practically yelled throwing his arms up.

"Don't be so dramatic it's only water, and if you want to complain then think of it as training." She snapped at him. Yusuke glared harder at her, "What are we doing here?"

Genkai ignored him, "Yukina could you please fix the other guest rooms for our friends since they won't be able to leave tonight." She asked the Koorime. Yukina blinked then smiled, "Alright." She said rushing off.

Genkai intertwined her fingers together letting her elbows rest on the table she then rested her head on the fingers. "Hiei appeared not long before I called you here." She started but was stopped by Kuwabara, "The shrimp's here? Why is he here?" He asked thinking it was to seduce Yukina.

Genkai sent a glare his way and continued, "Something wasn't right. His aura was depressed and lonely." She said. "Do you know why?" Asked Keiko and Genkai shook her head, "I don't know why, but I have a---" She said but stopped as a bloodcurdling scream was heard.

Everyone rushed out of the room and almost bumped into Yukina. She looked at them her red eyes filled with worry, "That came from Hiei-san's room." She said making Kurama widen his eyes in realization. Hiei actually screamed.

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Hiei never dreamed. Never. All he had was his own memories haunting him every time he closes his eyes. This night was no different. It was always the same haunting memories, as he was weak being tortured, degraded, and raped repeatedly. He always woke up eyes snapping open with surprise and then clutching his head trying desperately shove them away to the back of his mind.

But tonight he woke up with a blood-curdling scream something that hasn't happen since he was much younger trying to adjust to his hate filled life getting used to the bloodshed and being used as a toy over and over again.

Hiei bolted upright in the bed and squeezed his eyes shut in pain and clutching his head. That was the trouble of having a perfect memory he can remember every pain, blood that has been split, and words that were said to him. All of it.

Hiei's head snapped up as the door to the room slammed open. "What the hell are you doing in here?" He asked deadly calm despite his scream earlier. Kurama was the first to enter looking at Hiei with worried eyes. He could tell underneath Hiei's cold stare of emotionless was fear.

"…Hiei-san?" Came Yukina's hesitant voice as she walked into the room, "Are you alright?" She asked and Hiei got up from the bed, "I'm fine." He said a little too harshly causing Yukina to look at him with confused/pain filled eyes.

Hiei mentally hit himself for hurting Yukina and pushed Shizure out of the doorway fully intent on leaving. That is until someone grabbed his sliced wrist in a firm grip. Hiei didn't have to see who it was he could tell by the aged skin that it was Genkai.

"Where are you going Hiei if I recall correctly its still raining." She said. Hiei didn't say anything but stiffened as Genkai's fingers pushed into the wound. The hi-youkai inwardly snarled at the old woman. She knew perfectly well that would not cry out or show any indications that he in pain.

Hiei's face remained emotionless as her skilled old fingers pushed deeper causing the wound to widen and blood leak from the cut and slid down to the tip of his middle finger. Soon it fell from his finger landing on the stone floor. That little drop of blood instantly caught Kurama's attention as he heard it collide with the floor and catching the scent.

He walked out of the room of shocked teens just as Genkai released her hold on Hiei's wrist, and Kurama gasped catching the others attention, "Hiei…what happened?" He asked rushing forward grabbing Hiei's hand and looking at the wound.

Hiei looked emotionlessly at the red-haired human before him trying not to shiver at the feeling of silky smooth fingers against his forearm. Hiei looked up when he heard a gasp and Yukina rushed over, "Oh Hiei-san when did you get that wound?" She questioned looking up at him with her big innocent crimson eyes.

Hiei jerked his wrist away from the soft hold and turned around to continue his to leave.

Kurama was really starting to worry now. Hiei never ignored his sister he always replied just to see her smile. "Hiei!" Shouted Yusuke and Hiei stopped, "Yusuke," Said Genkai, "You shouldn't try to stop him." She said and Yusuke gritted his teeth angrily together.

The hi-youkai stood with his back facing them before he suddenly collapsed to his knees hands covering his ears. Everyone gasped and Kurama, and Yukina ran to his side. "Hiei-san! What's wrong?" She asked worriedly. Hiei didn't reply just continue to cover his ears and grit his teeth together trying to block out another memory.

"Forbidden child born out of lust and desire, a one night stand where you should have never been conceded."

Hiei squeezed his eyes shut, 'Shut up.' He thought trying to push the memory away.

"A mistake that we shall fix. We will send you to the world below so you will die where you belong." The voices sang.

Hiei gripped his head tighter, 'Shut up!'

"Shall you survive let your life be filled with pain and sorrow!" They sang with delighted laughter at the end.

"Farewell forbidden child shall the worst come from this fall! To the home of the demon you shall be and may your carcass be eaten away by the beasts there."

Hiei felt like he was wrapped up again in the wards feeling the wind whip past him and the freezing river water touching his body. With a gasp his eyes snapped open as he slowly uncovered his ears now that it stopped and was surprised to find his head resting against a chest with a familiar tunic covering the skin.

"You okay Hiei?" Said Kurama's voice. Hiei let his head rest against Kurama's chest, 'He feels…warm.' He thought letting himself melt in Kurama's embrace. Kurama blinked when he felt Hiei lean against him, "…Hiei?" He said hesitantly, 'Something's wrong Hiei's…cuddling with me?' He thought puzzled.

Hiei's eyes slipped closed as he turned his face to Kurama's chest. Oh how he wished he could stay in this embrace, something that felt so warm something he hasn't experienced for so long. He wanted to stay forever basking in this warmth, but knew that would never happen. He couldn't hide or deny who he was. Slowly Hiei pulled away from Kurama's strong arms his eyes shadowed by his bangs.

'I do not diverse that warmth, and kindness they show me. Why can't they be like the other and hate me, despise me for what I am. Why…why can't they hate me?' He thought. Hate he could deal with, but kindness, friendship even love he didn't know what to do. He grew up with everyone around hating him because he wasn't meant to exist. He's never been shown friendship before just sneer and looks of disgust. Why couldn't they do that look down at him like the weakling he was that was forbidden by nature?

Hiei was snapped out of his musings as he felt a small delicate hand touch his hand, "…Hiei-san? Are you okay?" Asked Yukina her voice filled with concern.

The hi-youkai didn't reply. He absolutely didn't diverse someone like Yukina. She was so pure and she should only get the best. She shouldn't have a brother that was a thief and murder; he wouldn't be surprise if she denied him as her own sibling saying her brother was good and kind.

Hiei stood up on shaky knees ignoring everyone. He didn't want to be here, he shouldn't be here. There was just no point. He started walking again and no one stopped him all too shocked by the normally emotionless demon displaying signs of weakness. Kurama and Yukina were the firsts to snap out of it and rush over and stop him.

"Hiei-san you can't leave!" She said running in front him blocking his path. Hiei's eyes met hers, which made her gasp loudly. His eyes were so blank, so…so lifeless like twin sheets of red glass with no light behind them. Kurama let a hand rest on the dark youkai's shoulder, "Hiei…" He muttered with the same shock as Yukina as he saw Hiei's eyes.

Hiei stared at them before his eyes fluttered shut and he collapsed again though this time into unconsciousness. Kurama caught the lithe body in his arms staring worriedly at him. Yukina gently pulled his sleeve causing him to look down at her. She met his gaze before heading back to the room Hiei was in keeping a light grip on his shirtsleeve.

Kurama clued in to what she was doing and walked past her to settle Hiei down on the bed gently. Yukina grabbed the sheet and pulled it over her unknown brother's body he not once stirring.

"Can you know see why I called you here?" Genkai asked, and everyone nodded. Kurama kneeled next to the unconscious youkai and gazed with sad eyes at Hiei's face remembering moments ago those dead crimson eyes stare at him with so much confusion. Kurama gently brushed Hiei's hair watching it fall back into place.

'Maybe when you wake up you can tell us what's wrong.' He thought silently.


That's all maybe next chapter I'll put Kurama's GF in it just for some drama.

Till next time!

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