If I only had you – chapter 2
It tooka few minutes for me to register what she had said. I could only slouch agenst the counter as I stared at her.
"He… was having sex with her?"The tone of my voice suggested disbelif, and I honestly didn't want to believe her. I kept waiting for her to say something along the lines of 'just kidding', but I knew that wasn't goning to happen.
After fully accepting the fact that Luke was cheating on her, something inside of me snapped. I felt like I was going to throw up, I got dizzy and my breathing became more rapid. I propped my elbow on the table and rested my head in my hand.
I suddenly got up and walked back to the kitchen. There was a jar of strawberries still out that I had yet to put up. I drew my hand back and knocked the jar to the floor, shattering the glass and splattering the raw strawberries.
"Chase stop! What do you think you're doing?!" Hikari yelled, running to the edge of the kitchen. She stopped before running to meet me because she was barefooted.
"How could that bastard do that to you!?" I yelled back, my body shaking.
"You don't deserve to be treated like that!" We stood there for a minute, her gaping at the mess I created and me shaking. I finally walked over the broken glass, and grabbed Hikari. I hugged her tight, as if I might lose her at any moment. She hesitated for half a second, and then hugged back.
Her petite yet muscular arms wrapped around my waist, my face buried into the crease of her neck and shoulder. I could feel her warm breath on my chest, her steady breathing matching up with mine.
"I'm sorry Hikari. It's just… I can't believe he would do something like that. Such an amazing girl like you shouldn't have to go through something like that." I said, my voice muffled by her shoulder.
"Thank you Chase…" She said, her warm voice echoing through my head. After another minute or so, I pulled away and looked her into her eyes with my hands now resting on her shoulders. Her honey brown eyes were so beautiful; I never wanted to stop gazing into them.
I wanted to kiss her. Oh god how I wanted to kiss her, to feel her soft lips pressing against mine. To have our tongues dance erotically, to have her just melt into me and I her.
But now was not the time. After finding out your boyfriend of a year had been cheating on you is not a good time to find out your best friend of three years has been in love with you. No, there would be a time where I could finally tell her my deepest feelings.
So I simply smiled at her. I brought my hand up and ruffled her hair a bit.
"See? Smiling feels good, doesn't it?" I laughed. She looked at me quizzically, and then laughed as well.
"Yeah Chase. I guess your right!" She laughed, lightly punching me in the arm. After we had our little laughing fit and cleaned up the strawberry mess, we returned to her dinner. We talked for another hour or so before she decided to head on home. I had wrapped up some pudding and gave it to her to take home. We got up and walked over to the door.
"Thank you Chase. This made me feel so much better." She smiled, holding the pudding in one hand and her shoes in the other.
"Anytime Hikari. I'm just sorry about what happened."
"Don't be! I'm already getting over that bastard." She laughed. Good old' Hikari was back.
"Oh, and I'll wash and return the clothes to you by tomorrow."
"No need to rush. Those are my extra work clothes anyway."
"Ok then. Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow. Bye then Chase." She waved, already on her way. I waved goodbye as well, watching her reach the bridge. I watched her until her figure became a small dot in the distance, then I closed up the bar for the night.
On my way home, I could only think about how much I hated that carpenter and that bitch that I had to work with. About halfway to my house, I spotted Hikari's farm. Her lights were already turned off, and her overloaded field looked so docile this late at night.
I smiled to myself then continued walking on.
"If you had me, I would never make you cry like that. I would never cause you so much sadness, and I would love you forever." I quietly whispered to myself.
"If I only had you."
