Some of the messages from our conversations. I cut out a few personal things that he's asked me not to tell anyone.

Conversations (multiple messages on the same subject) are the lines in between the two asterisk marks. Otherwise, they're independent messages.

L is me, obviously (though my name on our chat website is actually one of my Warriors names, Aquashimmer), and K is Kent.


L: Kent, why do you never answer me? I send you these messages to talk to you because I like to, not to just talk to myself... Do you even read my messages? Do you even want to talk to me anymore? I miss you Kent, but if you don't want to talk to me... then I won't... Sometimes I wish I could know what you are thinking, so I can know if you think like me... and I wish you could know what I'm thinking sometimes... Why did you have to move so far away? I miss not seeing you at school every day, I miss not hearing your voice, I miss just talking forever about nothing, just because it's me missing you... do you miss me...?

*Conversation Start*

K: My 4 year old cousin thinks I'm a wizard!

L: What do you mean "thinks"? Aren't you though?

K: SHH! no one else knows!

L: He he he.

*Conversation End*

*Conversation Start*

L: I was texting Skyler yesterday and she has a question for you. She has a boyfriend now, and she wants to know who you have a crush on, since she apparently thinks she knows who at our school. As usual, I dunno what she means… (taking ignorance. I told Skyler I liked him and she said she thought he liked me. Skylar said that if he hadn't moved, she was planning to get us together (before she even knew that I liked him))

K: i want to know who she thinks i like! i didnt have a crush on anyone out there. but here her name is Amanda

L: *completely disappointed* Skyler thought you had a crush on me. Weird, right? (lying now)

K: how did she come up with that?

L: "The way he looked at you" is what she tells me (exactly what she said)

K: sorry but there is another

*Conversation End*

L: *after he hasn't answered me in a month and a half* Okay, I have to admit. I didn't think you'd expect me to be stupid. I got my iPod back yesterday. I can see that you've been online near-daily. Are you really ignoring me? I'm trying hard to keep up our friendship, but you have to meet me halfway. Friendship is, after all, a two way street.

L: *the day after the last one, after I see he's been online again* Once again it happens... Apparently I'm mute and invisible. You get online twice in one day, and you still ignore my messages. I hate being ignored by people who I trust. Everyone does it to me. I know I don't always talk much, and when I do it's often not very interesting to others, but I Do like to know that people can still hear me. At home and at school, when I speak, people often speak over me... It hurts, you know.

Oh, where are you, my angel, now? Can't you see me crying? I know that you can't do it all, But you can't say I'm not trying...

K: *after we had a conversation about why he can't come to my honors band I invited him to come to because it's near where he lives* somehow you can always make me feel bad for not being able to attend things my friends are going to be at. (Not in a bad way.) (that parenthesis was his own, not my note)

K: *day after Halloween* You should have seen me yesterday! I dressed up as jeff the killer. people said I had the perfect smile for the costume.

L: *thing I noticed* You know, you never take the initiative to talk to me first. I have to send you a message first.

L: *after he answers me after a long silence* Oh, so you are alive. I've noticed that you don't seem to talk much to me anymore. Even though you get online multiple times every day and I'm pretty sure you have the time to post on your RPs, but apparently you have no time to type out one little message to me.

K: i can't even keep a long distance friendship. proves my loyalty doesn't it.

*Conversation Start*

L: Happy birthday Kenny! I made you a playlist on YouTube.

(Playlist including: Still Worth Fighting For, Never had a Dream Come True, Safe and Sound, Get Up, Waiting Outside the Lines, Keep Holding On, I'll Remember You, Keep Holding On, and Perfect)

K: You just got me to listen to a bunch of songs I normally would not have. / Thank you!

*Conversation End*

K: I dislike the perception of time. Super fast or god awful slow.

*Conversation Start*

L: *after the official "it's been a year since I last saw you" day* Hey, K. It's me again. The person you haven't seen in over a year now, and don't always respond to.I miss you, honestly. It's been over a year since we saw each other, and even though I only knew you for half a year, we had more things in common than any other friend I've ever had. I've been trying to reach out to you, but you hardly ever answer me. I know you've said you're losing interest in this site. I know you said you're busy. But know what? I never cared about this site, the only reason I go on it is to talk to you. Guess what? I'm busy too. Guess what? I barely had any Internet access all of last spring and summer. Yet I still kept in contact with you. Sometimes I can't help but think that the reason you keep talking to me is out of guilt, and because you don't quite want to abandon me like we've both been before. I honestly miss you, and so do Skyler and the others. I really wish you would come back, even for a brief visit. I've been bringing you updates on stuff going on here, but I barely know anything about you out there. All you've told me is that you have a crush on some girl named Amanda or something, and that one awful thing. I'm trying, Kent, I really am... And I really want to know. The song you asked me to watch (Lullaby for a Princess), did you mean anything by it? Do you miss me just as I miss you, from all these miles away?

K: I am sorry. I truly am. Every day that I haven't responded to you, I have been fretting over it trying to think of what to say. I never tell you anything about myself or what happens at school because I never do anything interesting. Trust me I don't. I have read your story I just haven't finished yet. I don't talk to you out of guilt I enjoy talking to you.

L: Thank you for telling me... Truth is, we're very alike in that regard. Thank you for the song (Amsterdam), too. Friends. Friends until the end…

K: Until all of time stops. Im sorry I am not as good as I should be at responding to you.

L: It makes me happy to know that you really do care, Kent.

K: I never forget a friend. Ones like you are hard to come by.

*Conversation End*

L: We all are insane, dear Kent, maybe you just need to embrace the facts!