"My hands are cold, my body's numb
I'm still in shock, what have you done?
My head is pounding, my vision's blurred
Your mouth is moving, I don't hear a word
And I hurt so bad, that I search my skin
For the entry point, where love went in
And ricocheted and bounced around
And left a hole when you walked out, yeah
I'm falling through the doors of the emergency room
Can anybody help me with these exit wounds?
I don't know how much more love this heart can lose
And I'm dying, dying from these exit wounds!"
The Script-Exit Wounds
In the middle of the night Amanda woke up drenched in sweat. She could barely catch her breath. She seen him again. On top of her those words that are now imprinted and burned into her brain 'you know I don't take no for an answer.' Her breathe was severely uneasy. She tried to bring herself back. She immediately reached her hand over to her night stand and flipped the light on. Searching to her left and to right to make she Patton was nowhere in sight. She got out of bed and went straight for the restroom to reach for the razors. She wanted to make the voices stop. She didn't want to hear him anymore. She reached for her cell phone and texted Olivia without thinking. "Thank you for the chance you gave me, goodbye" She sent it and pulled her razor out and began to slice at her leg so easily like it was butter. Blood began to seep and fall to the floor. She became in a daze and was able to even her breathing. She was tempted to just do it. Take her life. Make it all stop.
Meanwhile Olivia heard her phone go off. She always left it on full volume. She peered at the text half asleep but immediately became wide awake after what she read.
Olivia didn't even think about what she was doing. She threw on some clothes, hopped in her car and sped to Amanda's house. A typical 20 minute trip took her 10. She hopped out of the car, barely remembering to shut the engine off and close the door and raced up the steps on Amanda's porch. She heard Frannie start to bark wildly inside. "It's ok Frannie, you know me, it's Olivia." She said. She began frantically searching around for Amanda's hide-a-key. Frannie began to whine and paw at the door. "I'm coming, I'm coming." She said. If it hadn't been the middle of the night, she would have laughed at herself for talking to a dog. Olivia grew frustrated looking for the key and just decided to break the door down. She busted the door open, damaging the part where the door and door frame meet and rushed inside. "Amanda?! Amanda?!" She called. She headed straight for Amanda's bedroom and walked right in. She opened Amanda's bathroom door and gasped at what she saw. Amanda was just sitting there in a pool of her own blood. She knelt down beside her and checked her pulse. "I should have never left you alone." She said out loud. She pulled out her phone once she found Amanda's weakened pulse and called it in.
"Amanda honey please stay with me." Olivia wrapped Amanda up in her arms praying that god wouldn't take her away. She heard the EMT's busting through the door just then. "Please help her" Olivia cried out. The medics went to work right away on her to get her hook up to an IV and oxygen. They checked her pulse, it was barely there. "Mam we have to get going, she stable but if we don't get a move on we are going to lose her. She has lost a lot of blood." The EMT's rushed out the door after they got her up on a gurney. Olivia followed quickly behind them. She had tears falling down her face. She hoped it wasn't too late.
The ambulance rushed down the highway with their sirens blaring. When they got to the hospital they rushed Amanda in. "What do we have?" The EMT quickly spoke up. "Female in her 30's, self-inflicted cuts to deep, she has lost a lot of blood, her pulse is very weak, we got her stable enough to get her here." The doctors took her to the back immediately to begin to work on her. Olivia fell to the ground by the doors. She blamed herself if only she had just stayed there.
A nurse ran over to Olivia and knelt down beside her, "Ma'am are you alright? Do you need a Doctor?"
"N-no I-I-I'm fine." Olivia chocked out through her tears and labored breathes.
"Can I get you anything?" The nurse asked.
"I need to know how Amanda Rollins is doing, please." Olivia asked desperately. The tears continued to flow down her cheeks but she was more pulled together.
"I'll go see what I can find out." The nurse said.
"Thank you." Olivia said.
The nurse took off and disappeared behind the restricted area doors and Olivia slowly made her way to the waiting room. She just kept blaming herself. She had seen Amanda becoming more and more unglued at work and when she had seen the woman earlier she could tell that she was about to fly off the rails. She should have stayed. Even if it meant fighting with Amanda. At least she wouldn't be fighting for her life. She couldn't help but think 'What if she doesn't make it?' She promised herself that if Amanda made it, she would be with her every step of the way because the woman meant that much to her. Deep down Olivia even loved her.
When the doctor came back he walked over to Olivia. "She is in ICU, she had to have 2 blood transfusions. She is very weak and her levels where extremely low. The next 48 hours is critical. You can come with me if you would like to see her." Olivia nodded and followed the doctor. When she came up the window she peered into Amanda, her heart broke at the sight of all the tubes, wired, and IV lines. Olivia felt the sting of a tear fall down her face. Before she could make a move through the door. Amanda's machines started to go off. She was flat lining. Before she knew nurses where flying past her along with doctors. 'This was it', she thought, she was going to loose her and she blamed herself.
A/N: Will Amanda make it? We have a lot in store for this story. REVIEWS :)
