Hi there! I just wanted to tell you that the last bit of the story is a kind of flashback of what happened yesterday when Abi caught Ben and Paul together and this chapter will begin with a flashback. Okay just so that you know! Please review!
She both adored and admired the way that one minute they were arguing and the next they were ripping each other's clothes off. Make-up sex. She loved every minute she was there with him. His wisdom was remerkable after spending yeears locked away abused, tortued and neglected by society but that didn't stop him from trying. It made him the strongest person that she knew. It made him a Mitchell. Well in Phil's opinion! But she loved him for him. Every time that he spoke or walked near her, she got butterflies and flutters in her heart and stomach. It is fair to say that Abigail Victoria Ella Branning loved Benjamin Mitchell to the moon and back. But as she entered, she heard Ben's voice and another person's voice. Too deep to be Jay's. Too soft to be Phil's. Something fell off the cabinet and a masculine hand went to pick it up. All Abi could mutter upon coming face to face with her nightmare was a name.
"Paul Coker?"
Les Coker's grandson was there sleeping off with Ben. Sneaking around behind her back like a couple of dogs. Paul and Ben were there half naked with an embarrassed and ashamed looks on their faces looking everywhere and anywhere apart from in her eyes. Watching him go through all that love and affection with another man, especially Paul Coker brought tears to her eyes. That brunette was not the Ben she fell in love wit. Not the Ben that she spent Friday night with watching the entire sequel of Twilight movies. Not the Ben that she said 'I love you' to. She thought that him being gay was just a phase but it had been nagging away at her for weeks wondering if he was being really truthful. Abi couldn't stand the sight of them and ran towards the Mitchell house, collected most of her belongings and told Ben that she would never forgive him for stringing her along. Since then, he has been pestering her through Dot, Lauren, Whitney, Lee, Jack, Billy, Honey and even Bernadette.
Only a lover such as Ben could cause pain as deep as this. Only one all the way inside a heart can shatter it with an act like that Worst part is-you know that, don't you? You love me, you need me, you destroy me...then the music starts all over again. This heartbreak feels cold. It feels like concrete drying in my chest. This heartbreak was unexpected, as they always are - top of the world one minute and cut down the next. Why is that? Yet I can't live there, can't dwell there. So come with me to happiness without throwing another spanner in the works. There are only so many times you can break this heart - one day it'll heal all wrong, heal with him on the outside.
Opening the door to her Grandma Dot's house, Abi sighed in exhaustion and boredom as she placed the bottle of milk in the fridge and collapsed onto the sofa. Switching on the television, Abi thought of television as fantasy, looking into the lives of others, being a fly on the wall, not a bored, heartbroken eighteen year old she stared at the television, she noticed that it was displaying soda commercial, which made her even more thirsty and bored. Grandma Dot's house was normally filled with laughter, life and happiness; that was the way that she liked remembering her sanctuary.
But ever since Fatboy moved to Austria, Grandma Dot has been leaving him endless texts and phone calls but he never returned which was quite unusual and peculiar seeing as Fats treasured, loved and admired Grandma Dot especially her devotion to the Bible and Christianity, her endless love for her family even if they aren't related to them by blood and her motherly support to all the decisions that she made over the years. No one is perfect but Grandma Dot is pretty close. It was beginning to irritate her how much times Fatboy had ignored her calls as if the last couple of years meant nothing to him and he no longer needed her.
Even though she was like a mother to him.
Grandma Dot was loving, caring and supportive to Fats and stood by Fats through all his decisions and problems. More than his own mother has. Abi unlocked her phone for the 100th time to find a load of messages from Ben wanting to explain or wanting to talk to her about his sexuality but she couldn't bring herself to answer them. Not yet anyway. They broke up less than 48 hours ago and he was already bugging her every five seconds. Grandma Dot was away visiting Kirsty or should I say Dotty in America, Uncle Jack is currently in a relationship with Ronnie for the thousandth time. Abi didn't exactly hate the fact that Jack was with Ronnie, she just hated the fact that everyone around her was moving on. Max was in prison for murdering Lucy, Auntie Carol is exploring the world on her motorbike, Liam is in Germany with his girlfriend, Cindy. Bianca is in Milton Keynes with Terry, Tiffany, Rosie, TJ, Morgan and Baby Beth, Sonia is living with Tina and Bex and as for Tanya. Well she was probably having affairs, neglecting and ignoring children, building and destroying her own businesses and get married and engaged.
On her way back to the house from the Minute Mart, she saw Paul Coker exiting 'Mitchell Mansion's' rather pleased with himself. Well at least somebody is happy with the breakup. Ben gets to have a proper relationship with Paul Coker without being scared that Daddy Dearest is going to catch him in the act, Abi thought. She saw Whitney, Lee and Nancy laughing and joking around and she could have sworn that she heard her name in the conversation. Obviously, the whole of Albert Square knew about her breakup! Typical Walford, thought Abi. Whitney shoved a piece of paper on her hand which was bright red and said 'Free drinks to Twelve', 'Happy Hour' and 'Merry Christmas' written on it, with a picture of mistletoe and Christmas trees.
Before the break up, Abi would have regarded the poster with childlike interest but now she couldn't face going to the one place where she knew the Mitchells were. The last thing she wanted was to be in a room filled with old, smelly and gossiping neighbors and her ex boyfriend making out with his new boyfriend in a corner. Moving to the kitchen, Abi poured some vodka with some coke which she found in the kitchen. That was really weird because Grandma Dot never normally drank anything apart from the occasional cherry on special occasions. Remembering Grandma Dot brought tears in Abi's red eyes because she wasn't going to make it in time for Christmas.
Her first Christmas completely alone and broken-hearted.
She couldn't help thinking that if Jay hadn't broken up with her, she would probably be at the Vic with him now kissing and snuggling up to each other. But he would still be in love with Lola, Abi thought. Abi took a long sip from her drink and thought about where she was only a couple of months ago, she killed her own dog, Tramp. It was almost like Tramp could sense conflict and tried to make her stop leaving but moving in front of the car which lead to his death. The last thing that Abi wanted was to be alone especially at that time and Ben was familiar. Her childhood best friend. Even when he killed Heather, she still stood by him which made her more vulnerable to being used. As she placed the empty glass on the table, as if on cue, there was a knock on the door. Exhausted and bored, she moved to the door half expecting to find Ben there with his hair mussed, sweating and panting.
If it was Ben, she was going to slap him.
Abi stood up placing her hair into a tight ponytail not caring that she was wearing a grey top which said 'Geek' on it, blue skinny jeans and grey boots. The first thing that she saw when she opened the door was pitch black hair, blue eyes and a friendly, familiar face. Whitney.
"Abi, hiya." Whitney smiled. "I heard about your breakup with Ben and knew that I had to come over."
Abi pulled a fake smile in return, lying. "Thanks, Whitney but honestly, I am fine."
"Really." Whitney quizzed, raising a brow. "You don't seem so fine to me. Honestly, Abs, this is me. You don't have to put on a brave face especially when you are facing heart 's okay to hate him."
