*Stars Shining Over Bloody Plains* by: Natalie
Heero - Angel's Tears

AN: This is the "second part" of this ssobp series. I just decided to make a follow-up since it seemed quite odd that the other Gundam pilots did not get a chance to say their pieces ne? Anyway, all the pilots will get their own respective POV in the next while only up to the point of their deaths in Quatre's POV since I consider it to be the mainframe ok?! Enjoy!!!
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It was odd to say the least. We were needed once again. It's ok. "It's just another mission right?" My own words echoed in the empty apartment. It was disturbing, the way Relena looked at me when I told her the news. There was something in her eyes that I couldn't place. Now I wish that I never looked at them in the first place.

It seemed that it was always me who caused her pain and someday, I wished that I could be the one to make her simle and laugh and pretend that none of this was happening. I wanted her to be happy.-- What a stupid, stupid wish. I should have known that I was too bloodstained, too dirty to be worthy of such an angel of peace-- my angel.

My angel of peace.

Just when had I called her "MY". I've never given her anything except a bear for her birthday. She was nothing to me then but a symbol of peace. Someone to protect and to be put on a pedestal. Yet she was mine?

Foolish Heero.

I was a perfect soldier-- yet she loved me. I had threatened to kill her on numerous occassions and yet she loved me. Or was it love? Was that "thing" I saw in her eyes love??? Love that creates and destroys???

I never knew.

I had always thought of her as a little girl still living in her own fantasies of damsels in distress and knights in shining armor. Constantly looking at me, longing for something I could never give her. I was afraid. I was afraid of this "girl". To me she was a weakness. She was the tiny pebble wedged in tight in my impenetrable armor. And yet it was I who sought solace under her wings so that even just once I could be free. I could be in peace.


The night of the battle I tried to protect her--my angel. I failed. The right wing of the mansion had collapsed along with her. Later on, I learned that she had been helping in evacuating the people and that a heavy beam fell on her. I went livid. I just couldn't believe the irony of it all and that my angel was dead. As I held her in my arms, I finnaly saw her for what she truly was. She was no longer the little girl nor the symbol of peace that she was. She was just Relena. Relena the woman I loved. Oh how cruel love is! To take years to find it, only to lose it in the end. For that first time, I prayed but she was already gone. I remember her tear-streaked face and her etheral beauty as she said her last words.

"Heero... Please smile for me.... Aishiteru...."

I did. I finnaly smiled as her tears fell. Not tears of sadness but of joy. I had finnaly made her happy.

"Aishiteru Relena..."

And then I pulled the trigger.

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"Two angels, one with wings of purest gold and the other with
wings of deepest black now watch over us among the stars
shining over bloody plains." --- Natalie