Disclaimer I do not on Degrassi or any part of it nor do I own the Black Veil Brides or any part of them

A/N: This is a very sad oneshot, there's abuse and even death I cried writing the ending.


I am the heartache, you built by your deception

A blind leap of faith, despair for passing seasons

I walked out of school to go home and started to head out of the parking lot when Eli grabbed my shoulder causing me to hiss in pain.

"Clare that's the third time you've been in pain this week."

"I fell down the stairs again my mom kept making me wear high heels to get me ready for some fun raiser." I lied

"Well take it easy, you're my English partner and best friend plus Adam's taking a liking to you as well."

I shot Eli a confused look.

"Not like that, he looks to you as a friend. What I'm trying to say is you're important to both of us."

"Thank you Eli."

"You're welcome now can you try not to get hurt tonight?"

"I'll try."

Eli hugged me for a few minutes.

"Need a ride home?"

"Sure I'd like that."

I hopped in Morty and Eli drove off. It didn't take long for us to get to my house because I don't live that far from the school.

"I'll see you tomorrow?" Eli asked as I exited

"I have class with you don't I?" I responded with a lopsided smile.

Eli chuckled "Guess I will."

I shut the door and walked up to my house.

Sink in anger, fountains forming

Spills like thunder to what we're holding

Sleep forever now my darling

I won't dwell on heaven's calling

I walked in to find my dad at the bar drinking a beer. I knew nothing good can come from his.

"I-I'm home dad." I muttered

I watched as my dad stood up and looked at me.

"You know your mother left because of you right?" My dad asked moments later

"Y-yes sir." I said knowing he's drunk and that she said she loved me and she'd come back for me soon, but not saying when soon was.

I watched as the man who was supposed to be my dad slowly walked over to me, I could see the anger in his eyes. He stood above me and slouched over me his face turning almost evil, then he hit me causing me to fall on the floor.

I spit out blood from my mouth and felt him kick me in the ribs. He picked me up by my short hair and tossed me into the wall.

"You're a disgrace, you're nothing, you've ruined my life now, I was forced to take care of you by myself for almost eight years. I blame you." He spat

After what felt like a life time of beatings I now lay on the floor my face covered in my own blood. I can't move, I'm so sore.

"You can get up now." He spat

I laid there unable to move and he picked me up by my arm bringing me to my feet and leaned me against the wall.

"Now you're standing go to your room before I get angry with you again and I'll leave your dinner in front of the door."

I wobbled to my room and fell asleep for a few hours after I did homework.

"Dinner." my dad yelled through the door.

"Ok." I replied

I stood up off of my bed, put my ear against the door, waited till I heard the downstairs TV go on, and picked up the container that sat in front of my door with my nice hot dinner inside of it and my fork on top as well as my glass of iced tes. I bought my dinner in my room, sat on my bed and started to eat.

After I ate my dinner, I put my empty glass, food container, and fork out front of my door, laid back down and fell asleep.

Drive into the stake, secrets of his "compassion"

A perfect escape, like hell you'll list your reasons

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock and rolled out of bed, I looked in the mirror for the first time after yesterdays beating. My face was badly bruised, I had a deep gash on my right cheekbone, a few scattered cuts, and a few on my forehead. I couldn't even do my make up because of the cuts and the gash. I didn't even bother to get dressed I just walked downstairs.

My dad was sitting at the table with his news paper eating some toast. I looked at him and crossed my arms.

"Dad do I really have to go to school looking like this?"

I watched my dad's facial expression turn from shocked to saddened.

"I'm so sorry I can't believe I caused you so much hurt I don't mean to it's just that I get angry and take it out on you-"

"Dad just tell me if I can stay home." I groaned

"Of course I'll take care of you once I get done work. I promise no drinking, you can even have lunch with a friend."

"I'll be fine."

"Well I'm going to work and again I'm sorry."

My dad kissed me on the head as he left. I know he might be sorry now, but he's just going to hurt me more later.

My day was spent watching TV shows, eating, and sleeping. I woke up at the sound to someone knocking at the door. I didn't think first before I opened it.

"Clare what the hell happened to you?" Eli asked

"I fell down the steps again trying to impress my mom and dad by proving that I can run down them, but as you can guess it didn't turn out like I had imagined."

Eli barged in and started to bandage me up and I got a call from my dad saying he'll be home later sometime, but not mentioning when. Eli chose to stay with me until my dad got home.

"So what movie now Blue Eyes?" Eli asked

"Well it's eight and I have a feeling my dad will come home soon."

Not a moment later my dad came tripping in through the door drunk.

Sink in anger, fountains forming

Spills like thunder to what we're holding

Sleep forever now my darling

I won't dwell on heaven's calling

"Dad you're drunk." I announced as I tried to help him off the floor. "I'll talk to you tomorrow Eli and thanks for keeping me company after school."

"It was no problem you sure you don't need my help?"

"I'm sure."

I watched Eli go and started to tug more on my dad who ended up throwing me on the couch.

"Don't touch me." He snickered

"Fine I won't." I stated coldly

"Good girl."

I watched my dad walk over to me I could see the hate in his eyes, I knew I was done for.

"I thought you said you weren't going to hit me tonight?"

"I changed my mind." my dad sneered as his hand came across my face causing me to fall.

Moments later I felt myself being thrown into a cabinet and I screamed out in pain as I felt some objects going into my back as I fell to the floor."

"Stand up you whimp." My dad spat

"I can't it hurts too much."

"That's not pain I'll show you pain."

I started to cry as I was being kicked repeatedly I could feel my mouth fill up with blood, but I wasn't being kicked in the mouth. My dad continued kicking me and the more he did the more I bled, I look around and I'm now in a pool of my own blood. Moments later I notice I'm not being kicked. My eyes start to drift shut as I hear sirens ring everywhere.

Sink in anger, fountains forming

Spills like thunder to what we're holding

Sleep forever now my darling

I won't dwell on heaven's calling

"She's losing consciousness." I heard someone say as my eyes started to flutter open. "Stay with us we'll help you." I nodded and looked around unable to speak. I noticed I'm in an ambulance and I'm in a ton of pain. I fell asleep again.

I woke up to monitors and in pain. Adam's sitting besides me crying as well as Alli, and Eli.

"I'm sorry." I said holding out a shaking hand as I cry. All three of them grabbed it. "It's getting harder for me to breathe." I said between deep breaths.

"Clare please don't leave us." Alli sobbed I noticed all three of them gripped me tighter.

Eli moved to my bed. "I'm sorry I left you with your dad when he was drunk."

"It's not your fault Eli, I would've kicked you out." I breathed heavily "It's his fault."

Eli's hand graced my cheek and I leaned into his touch and nuzzled against it. Soon my pain started to go away.

"Just know I love you all." I said weakly "Eli I've loved you since you since I met you." I confessed

Eli crushed his lips over mine in a sweet passionate kiss, our tears mixing together.

"Stay with me Clare, forever I won't let you go back there."

"Eli let her go, heaven's calling her you can see her skin glowing." Alli sobbed Adam cried more as well as Eli.

"We know he hit you and he's in jail." Alli announced I nodded.

"Eli can I have one last kiss?" I asked

Eli kissed me even more passionately than before.

"I love you Clare." He sobbed

"I love you too." I sobbed back "I love all three of you and I wish things were different now." My breathing started to become even harder and my eyes drifted shut.


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