This chapter is all in Kratos's point of view...hope you enjoy R&R


chapter two

All that I'm living for


Kratos:

I sat in the corner and stared at Lloyd. I hope he gets up soon it's already night fall. I sighed and rubbed my temples. I couldn't get what he did off of my mind. He's all I have left and I was stupid, I should have stopped him. I looked at the wall and stared at the swords Dirk and I had given Lloyd."mmm...my head..." I looked at Lloyd and saw him trying to sit up. "Your weak you should stay laying down." I explained. He looked at me and rubbed his head. He laughed gingerly.

"umm...thanks for saving me." I nodded and stood up. "Why did you bring me here? You could have killed yourself." He sat up and flung his legs over the side of the bed. And started to play with his fingers. 'Once again he doesn't listen' I thought."I...I need your help. And..." he looked at me and stopped playing with his hands. "I wanted to see you again." I felt my eyes widened from the shock. And I had a weird feeling in my heart. And I crossed my arms with a "Humph..."

Lloyd's face flushed with anger and he stood up. "I'm your son I have the right to want to see you...I almost kill myself wanting to see you, and..." Kratos put his hand up and his eyes turned to slits. "That was your mistake, but..." I sighed."in a way you are right. I left you for fourteen years. I guess you do have the right. But next time, think of a prasedure that your life isn't on the line." Lloyd smiled and nodded. "I'll try."

I nodded too and walked over to the door. I grabbed a bowl of curry I had made for Colette and Lloyd. "Here.You must be hungry, you've been unconscious for about five hours." Lloyd grabbed it out of my hands and devoured it down. I leaned my shoulder and arm against the wall and looked at him. "So, did everyone go back home?" I asked. Lloyd nodded and put his bowl down. "Yes, but I asked them to meet me here." I stared at him. Okay I was confused, this kid was unpredictable. "Why?" I said.

He laughed. "Because I knew I could get you back, and I think that we can all solve this problem." I sighed and crossed his arms. "And just exactly what do you need help with?" I said. Lloyd put his hand out and a sad look crossed his face. I looked down at his hand and saw Anna's exphere. "When I defeated Mithos, I destroyed his exphere. And it went into mine. And every once in a while I feel him, like he's trying to take over my body...again."

I sighed and grabbed his hand. I looked it over a little and felt weird. For once I couldn't help. This was one thing I had never dealt with before. I moaned and dropped Lloyd's hand. I felt lightheaded, and dizzy. I put my hands on my face and sat on the side of Lloyd's cot. "Kratos! Are you okay?" Lloyd said in concern. Lloyd's panicked voice rang through my head like bells.

"Kratos hang on I'll get Colette." I saw a blurry image of Lloyd race out of the room and outside. "What's wrong with me... I need to get..out..." I tried standing. But I staggered a little and nearly collapsed on the floor. "Hello Kratos, it's nice to see you again." I gasped slightly and lifted my lead weighted head up toward the voice. And I stared at Mithos in his child form."M...Mithos...?" I gasped out. He smiled at me and laughed. "No...I am only the remains that lives in Lloyd's exphere. And when you came in here and grabbed the exphere, my remains went into your body. And now all I need is another exphere and body...and I'll be Lord Yggdrasill again." He smirked and looked at Lloyd's swords. He looked back at me and frowned. "Are you going to rule with me again when I return to Derris Kharlan? It'll be like old times...your still my friend..right Kratos?

I stared at Mithos for a while. 'It'll be like old times...' I frowned. "It will never be like old times Mithos, time has moved on for us, this is a new world now... the kind Martel wanted...The kind you tried to make but failed...Things will never be the same." I felt a little sting to my own words. Mithos frowned. "You're wrong Kratos, I can make it back to what it used to be... I can bring back Martel..."Mithos stopped and smiled at Kratos. "Find me a new body and an exphere Kratos, or I'll kill Lloyd.." And he disappeared back into my body. I felt a little stinging sensation, and gasped slightly. That was something I never wanted to experience again. I looked at the tent flap as Lloyd and Colette ran into the tent.

"Kratos are you okay? You look horribly pale." Colette said and sat next to me. She put her hand on my head and pulled my hair up. "Yes cho...Colette." I said. Might as well call her by her real name for now. She smiled at me and giggled. " Well at least you feel better, Lloyd said you almost collapsed. I was so scared.." I nodded and smiled a little at her. "I'm better now, just...tired." I stood up and walked over to the cot. "Good night." I said and laid down. "Good night Kratos." Colette said and walked back out of the room and into her own.

Lloyd stood there and stared at me. I couldn't take it any longer. I turned around so my back was facing him and I was staring at the side of the tent. "Are you sure you're okay? I thought I heard another voice in here." I gridded my teeth and wanted to slap myself. Of course he would have heard Mithos. "You didn't here anything...now go to sleep it's late." I heard him sigh behind me. And than he laughed. "You know...when I first met you I had a strange feeling toward you...Like I knew you from somewhere, and I guess I was right... well goodnight." he said. I heard him get into the cot across the room. "Good night...son." I whispered and fell myself fall into darkness...with mithos's words ringing through my head...'You're still my friend...right Kratos. I thought for a second...'Yes.'


All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.

I can feel the night beginning.
Separate me from the living.
Understanding me,
After all I've seen.
Piecing every thought together,
Find the words to make me better.
If I only knew how to pull myself apart.

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

I believe that dreams are sacred.
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby,
Like a reason why,
Like a play of my obsessions,
Make me understand the lesson,
So I'll find myself,
So I won't be lost again.

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever,
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?

All that I'm living for,
All that I'm dying for,
All that I can't ignore alone at night.
All that I'm wanted for,
Although I wanted more.
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me.

Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door,
My ghosts are gaining on me.

I thought this song suites Kratos pretty well...

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Z.F (razorblade kisses)