So what do you guys think so far? Hope you guys are liked the first chapter. I decided to update every thursday and try to add two chapters to each update. So here we go, enjoy and review pretty please? :)

CHAPTER 2

I wake up felling more tried then I was before I went to sleep. I slowly sit up and I feel dizzy, I lay back down and close my eyes. I hear someone knocking on my door; I open one eye and look at my clock. Its 2 pm, I slept almost the whole day, no wonder they making sure I'm ok. "Come in", I tell the person who's at the door. I try to sit up and this time I didn't feel dizzy, so that's a good thing.

"Hello dear, are you feeling ok?" its esme walking into my room. At first I thought it was Alice, did she really give up on me? I try not to show esme that I'm upset. She comes and sits on my bead and feels my forehead.

"I'm fine esme just over slept, I was just waking up"

"Good, I was worried that you weren't feeling well, so was Alice, she wanted to come check up on you before work but I told that I would". So that's where Alice was, I thought that she didn't care anymore.

"I didn't know that Alice started working"

"She wants to help Carlisle and I out for a while, so she got a job at the clothing store in town"

"Are things that bad that Alice needs to get a job?" I start to worry that we might actually lose the ranch.

"Well we didn't want you worry too much sweetie but things aren't looking so good" Esme gives me a small smile that doesn't reach her eyes.

"Esme I…I didn't know things were that bad, I'm so sorry" It's becoming really hard to hold back my tears.

"Oh sweet, this isn't your fought" she pulls me to her and gives me a hug. "The ranch hands are asking for raise and the feed for the horses has gone up". I start crying a bit, if I just get over this rut that I'm in, they wouldn't be in this mess. I shove my head into esme chest. Esme holds me tighter and starts rocking me back and forth while smoothing down my hair. I calm down a bit and rest me head against her shoulder "Everything going to be ok Bella, you'll see. But first we need to make sure that you're ok and help you through this. We all love you and want are Bella back" this time her smile reaches her eyes. I see hope and love in them, they give me hope that I will get through this.

"I promise Esme that I am trying my hardest, maybe I should go see Jessica again".

Esme gives me a wide simile," I think that's a good idea honey, it could help you out"

"I think so too"

After Esme left my room, I got up and took a shower. The warm water felt good on my aching body and my ginner body wash help me relax even more, I was in there for a while until the water turned cold. I get out and look at myself in the mirror, I have black circles under my eye and I look a little bit skinny. "No wonder everyone is worried about me" I grab my towel and go to room for some clothes and decided to go down stairs.

When I get down stairs I heard Esme, Carlisle, and Alice in the kitchen. I walk in their eyes become wide when they see me, not the expressions I expected from them, but what can I do about it. I look at them and give them the "what" look. They don't say anything back, just the same wide eye expression, so I decided to talk.

"Why is everyone looking at me like that" I give them each a stare down, see who breaks down and talks first.

Esme is the first on to talk. "Sorry honey, we don't mean to, it's just….just….

"Weird seeing you up and about" Carlisle finishes for Esme.

I take in what they just told me and let out loud sigh. "Well get use to it because this is the new me, I decided to stop being a zombie and start living my life"

Esme walks up to me and gives me a hug. "Well that's good honey, I proud of you, we all are" she let's go and gives me a warm smile.

"Moms right, it's good that you decided to change, we miss you and I miss my sister" Alice is standing by the kitchen door frame with her arms crossed over her waist, holding herself together. She's trying not to cry, just like me, we know that we are not blood related but we have been through a lot together and been there for each other. I walk towards her and pull her to hug, we both start to cry.

"Please don't turn into what you were every again, I hated it and it wasn't you" Alice tells me between sniffles, I hug her tighter and tell her that I won't.

"Well I think we should celebrate and have Bella's favorite, chicken masala!" Carlisle claps his hands together and looks at me. "Welcome back sweets, glad to have our girl back" he gives me a smile just like Esme.

While I look on at my adopted family being happy and hopeful, I feel energized. Like there's a breath of fresh air around me and I take a deep breath in. I will not let them down, this is the start of a new me.