A Broken Hallelujah

Rating: M

Author: I do not own anything.

This is Yaoi, I warn you!

222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222

Chapter Two: Losing Myself

222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222

Sanzo had been especially harsh on Goku the next few days. It was as though the monkey had been purposely trying to get on his nerves. Asking for food constantly, every other second it seemed, not to mention him just whining in general about everything. Finally Sanzo had snapped and he yelled at Goku for about an hour straight. Finally Goku had shut up, he definitely looked annoyed. But the worst part was about to happen.

-4 days later-

They were finally back on the road, but Goku wasn't complaining about food. In fact he hadn't complained about food for four days straight. He'd been up in the middle of the night, out on the town, not that it was Sanzo's business, but truly, he was actually getting worried. Even when they did stop for food, Goku didn't eat anything. He had dark circles under his eyes too. This was getting ridiculous.

"Goku, how're you doin'?" I asked him, while I smoked my billionth cigarette that day.

He didn't respond, he just kept staring at the floor. He was dressed differently too. He was wearing a lot of black, don't ask me where he'd gotten it. Probably from someone on the streets that he'd been wandering. We stopped at the next town, I saw a bunch of demons, which for some reason Goku just sighed at. I ran and shot a few of them, Gojyo took care of a few, Hakkai also took care of a bunch. Any that approached Goku, he just killed without even a thought. This was fucking ridiculous! He walked over to a stand and began smoking a cigarette! Since when had he started that nasty habit! And where had he gotten the money for them!? I decided to follow him that night. As I did, I saw him pick up a man, and he was prostituting himself! After they were done in that alley, he went and bought a pack of cigarettes. He smoked and went back into his room. There he decided to cut himself under that turtleneck. As I walked away from the room, I realized that this was my doing. I'd have to fucking apologize before he killed himself! I knocked on the door and he opened it. I went inside, he stared blankly at me.

"What?" He asked me with a tough guy accent.

"Goku, you've been acting strange lately. Now I know that something's wrong. And I know it's my fault. So I'm sorry." I said honestly.

Honestly, I wanted to throw up at saying that, it just wasn't something I said. But I wanted to see my old Goku come back. But the next line out of his mouth pretty much made me lose all hope.

"Are ya done? I need to be alone now, thanks." He said to me.

I quietly left the room, and I went up to Hakkai and told him what was going on.

"It's possible Sanzo that he's not going to change back because either someone's possessing him, or he's supremely depressed. I'd suggest that tomorrow we stay in town and try to understand that situation better." Said Hakkai's kind voice.

So it was settled, we'd be going out tomorrow, I had to figure out what was wrong before it was too late. And we had to work fast, he was losing himself.

222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222222

Sanzo: glares

Author: whelp reviews will help!

Goku: ???

Author: T.B.C.