Chapter 2
'okay girls, we have a few hours left until sectionals. I know that it is going to be tough for some of you. You have to compete against your friends. But we now we are better, and stronger.' Shelby told the troubletones. Only a few hours left. Tonight they were going to destroy the New directions. 'We have girlpower in us. We have strong voices' Shelby looked over at Mercedes and Santana. 'And amazing choreography' She looked back at Brittany and the cheerio girls. 'I know it is going to be hard. The New directions are very, very good. But we are going to do our best and maybe try to do more than our best. Lets go and do it one more time.' All the Troubletones jumped on stage and the music went on.
After glee club Brittany and Santana had history, it was the most boring class ever. The teacher was so slow and just boring. Santana was getting sleepy. She couldn't hear another word about the civil war. Her eyes were getting heavier and she was falling asleep. 'San, stay awake honey.'
'what? I am awake. No I'm not falling asleep.' Santana yawned.
'You're right what was I thinking?' Brittany joked. 'We have 10 minutes left, then were done. Do you want to come back to my house after school?' Santana nodded and tried to reply but got cut off by Mr. Douglas.
'Mrs. Pierce, Mrs Lopez be quiet please.'
They tried to be quiet but they just got distracted by each other. 'Britt I would love too. I have some ideas what we could do.' Santana winked.
'ladies are you two incapable of sitting in silence? Because than I would advice you to leave please.' Mr. Douglas said really slow. Brittany said that the could be quiet. Just 10 minutes. Santana thought.
After that boring class school was over and they had to be in the auditorium six o'clock. They performed as fourth.
'Are you ready for tonight?' Brittany asked Santana. She knew she was excited about the performance. Still she was tense the whole day. Santana wanted to do the ultimate she could do.
"I feel good, a little nervous tough.'
'You're going to crush it babe. You have an amazing voice and you're so talented. I think we have a pretty good shot to win!' Brittany beams.
'I think so too, with your choreography. And the best thing is that I get to dance with you tonight.' Santana smiles. She loves seeing Brittany dance, but if she gets to dance with her. Oh My God A-MA-ZING!
'Brittany how late is the show tonight?' Susan asked. Brittany and Santana were setting the table and Susan was in the kitchen making dinner.
'it starts at 6:30 but we have to be there at 6. I'm so excited that you and dad are gonna be there.' Brittany beams. Santana's parents weren't home yet. Santana told them what happened with her parents wanted to come home sooner from there trip. But Santana wanted them to stay. Her parents didn't spend much time together, because of her dads job. So Santana knew they needed this trip. Because she couldn't stay at her grandmothers, she was home alone. When school was out, Santana came over at Brittany's and stayed till like 9 o'clock. She could stay for dinner and make homework with the Pierces.
'Girls, dinner is ready!' Susan yelled from the kitchen. Santana and Brittany were cuddled up on the couch watching Netflix. 'Girls come on you have get going in less then two hours.
'yeah mom were coming, we have still enough time.' Brittany said quietly. They stood up from the couch and walked to the kitchen. They sat down and started eating. When they were finished, Brittany packed there bags and both hopped in the car.
It was almost 6 o'clock and they were already dressed up in there silver dresses and ready to perform.
'Okay girls, I know you're going to crush it. I don't have a peptalk. I just want to wish you good luck out there. Were on in 10 but we have to wish the New directions good luck to.'
'Uhm Miss. C I have an idea. How about if we win, well we all know were going to win, but when we win, we let the New directions join if they want to. For regionals.'
'Amazing idea Santana. Come on lets wish them good luck girls.'
After the Trouble Tones performance.
'You were amazing baby!' Brittany jumped in her girlfriend arms. 'You were absolutely amazing.'
'You weren't so bad yourself. I love seeing you dance. I couldn't really concentrate on the song with you dancing like that!' Santana laughed. 'Come on, we have to get to the tribune.'
They walked with their pinky's locked towards the tribune. Santana and Brittany sat down on front row. 'You were amazing, Santana!' Remy told her. Oh no, not her again Brittany thought. Brittany really, really didn't like that girl. Santana knew that she didn't, but Brittany remembered what she told her. I get to love you, she doesn't she held herself tight at those words.
'Oh thanks Remy' Santana replied. She didn't want to talk to her. But she had to be kind to her, because of the Trouble Tones, yes, but also because of cheerios. She was one of the favorites of Sue and they just got back and didn't want to quit again because she made some stupid girl cry. She made lots of cheerio girls cry, but just at practice.
'If we win, do you want to come back at my place? We can celebrate.' As Remy asked Brittany was getting more and more frustrated. She didn't want to speak for Santana.
'Well, thanks for the invitation but I think I'm just gonna hang out with Britt.'
'Are you sure? My dad bought a jacuzzi yesterday, and it's a-ma-zing!' Remy said trying to convince Santana.
'Yeah, I'm sure, maybe next time. Now be quiet team Berry is gonna start' Santana told her and looked back at Brittany. She grabbed her hand and kissed her knuckles. Brittany smiled a little and looked back at the stage.
All the groups are standing on stage. Three left. 'And the winner is…..'
Come on, come on! Santana thinks as she gives Brittany's hand a little squeeze.
'The New Directions from McKinley High!'
What?! How. H-How is that possible? That cant be true! Santana turned around as she felt Brittany's arm around her waist, she leans in the embrace, with a few tears on her cheeks, she looks up to Brittany's face. 'How?' She whispers. She hugs Brittany tighter. She felt her girlfriends hands running up and down her back. 'We were better! How can they do this?'
'Shhh, we were good, but they were better. It was up to the judges and not us. I wanted to win as bad as you I swear, but it is what it is.' Brittany shrugged. Santana was broken, she wanted to win so, so bad. It was hard for Brittany to she her like that. But she was happy for her friends. Quinn and Rachel and the rest of the New Directions. She hugged Santana once again tight and grabbed her hand and walked her of stage.
The Trouble Tones sat in a classroom, Shelby was giving them some pity talk stuff.
Later that evening
Brittany and Santana are sitting in the car, on their way to Brittany's house. Santana had been quiet the whole night and Brittany knew she was sad about losing and not going to nationals. Brittany was sad too, but Santana was really upset. She hadn't said anything to her since they stepped in the car. 'Do you want to sleep over tonight?' Britt asked soft.
"I think I'm gonna pass this one, if you don't mind, I just want to be alone." Santana said, still not looking at her girlfriend.
Pass this one? What the hell, I didn't do anything wrong right? Brittany thought. What if she did this? Did she not do the routine right? That little step before the chorus, is that why they didn't win? That is all Brittany could think about. "Yeah sure no problem. Just drop me off at home then." She said really soft. So soft that Santana almost couldn't hear it.
They rode on the Pierces driveway. "Bye see you tomorrow." Santana said and leaned in for a kiss. But Brittany turned around and stepped out of the car.
"Yeah goodnight" and walked away. How could Santana let her feel like this. She was getting a little insecure, what if this was it for them. She failed Santana and she would leave her and move away. She went upstairs, walked into her room and jumped on the bed. Tears came rolling out of her eyes onto her pillow. She laid there for a few minutes as she heard knocking on the door.
"Hey I thought I heard you? What's the matter sweetie?" Her dad told her as he said next to her on the bed. Brittany didn't answer. "You guys did a really good job up there. If it was up to me, you would have won and I let you guys go straight up to the last to at nationals."
"I fucked it up, dad. It is my fault that we lost."
"what are you talking about? You were amazing and so were Santana and Mercedes. Can you tell me why you think you're the case? Or why you're so sad?"
"Santana is mad at me." She told him quiet.
"Why would she be mad at you? Did you do anything to upset her?"
"Well, yeah I fucked up the performance. If I just not forgot that one step, we would have won. I failed San, she wanted to win and I knew that, but I still fucked it up. And now she is mad and me and is she gonna leave me."
Mr. Pierce was a little surprised that her daughter was so insecure, he'd never seen her like this. Yeah, sure he had seen her cry and he had seen her upset, but never like this. Like she was about to lose everything. "Santana is not gonna breakup with you. She loves you. Why would you think that?"
"Because she didn't talked to me and told me that she wanted to be alone. She never says no to a sleep over or hanging out. So I figured that she didn't want me around anymore because I fucked her future career up. "
"hang on sweetheart, it is probably nothing that could 'fuck up her future career'. You don't know that. Then second of all, she was upset that she lost, but that has nothing to do with you routine. She just really want to beat the New Directions. And the judges thought they were a little bit better, so what? With Santana's talent she is gonna make it. And so are you, together. I promise."
"Thank you, dad." She got up and gave her dad a hug.
"No problem, sweetie. I love you" He said and hugged her tight. 'Love you too' he heard Brittany mumble.
Her father walked out of her room and she unlocked her phone to text Santana.
Hey San,
I'm sorry.
I want to talk to you tomorrow. It is nothing bad, I just have a few things to say.
Goodnight love you.
B.
She sent the text and went to sleep.
Thursday morning /6.30 AM
Santana buzzer went off and she rolled over to feel if there was a certain blonde next to her. She suddenly realized she didn't came home with her. Oh my god, she rejected her yesterday. How could she do that, she never did that. She immediately grabbed her phone to text her girlfriend and saw her text. When she read the text her head fell back onto her pillow and texted her back but thought it was better to say sorry in person. She got up and got ready for school.
7.45 AM
She got in the car, she drove towards Brittany's street and saw a little supermarket. She went inside and bought some flowers, some chocolate bars and a cuddly unicorn. When she arrived at Brittany's house she stepped out of the car and knocked on the door.
"Hey San, what are you doing here?" Brittany asked a little confused.
"Hey, I'm so, so sorry about how I acted yesterday, I was so mad at myself and I got I out on you and that was a bad thing to do. I'm so sorry and I get that you're mad at me. I got you this" She gave her the bag with presents. " And probably don't want to see me or be around me today but I thought maybe I could bring you to school."
Brittany looked at her girlfriend and then looked inside of the bag. She walked bag inside and grabbed her schoolbag. "I'm sorry too. I thought-" she got cut off by Santana.
"You have no need to be sorry, this is all my fault. I know you wanted to talk. I read your text. I thought maybe we can do that this afternoon."
"Good idea, I'm not mad at you by the way. I was yesterday a little, but not anymore. My dad helped me figure things out, and I want to talk to you about those things. But first school!" She said as she walked towards Santana's car.
4 PM
Brittany and Santana were laying on Santana's bed. They hadn't talked yet but Santana had the perfect idea for their talk. "I have an idea. How about we go to the park, go picnicking or something and talk there? That way we have a quiet little talk, you know the park at the lake."
Brittany nodded in excitement and they packed their stuff for the picnic. They rode to the park and set the everything out on the ground. "so about what did you want to talk?" Santana said after they were settled and sat down facing each other.
"Uhm well I want to talk to you about how I felt yesterday when I was in my room." Santana nodded and waited for her to continue. "I was thinking about something that I could have done wrong that might upset you. Then I thought that it was my fault that we lost. And I that I disappointed you." Brittany wanted to continue but she got cut off.
"Britt, you could never disappoint me, I promise. I never thought that you were the blame for losing. I swear, you were awesome out there." She said.
"I know that now, but I didn't yesterday. I was scared that you would leave me because of that. And then-" Santana tried to say that she would never leave her, but Brittany said she want her to listen and just listen. "My dad helped me understand that it wasn't my fault. So I sent you that text. I went to bed but" she stopped for a few seconds to find the words. "I couldn't stop thinking about how you made me feel."
Santana wanted to cry at that point. She hurt Brittany. The girl she loves so, so much. How could she do that? "Britt I am so, so sorry I made you feel that way. I never ever wanted you to feel like that. Oh my god I am so stupid!"
"San you're not stupid. But I think it's good that we talk now. We used to talk about everything and if we want this relationship to work, we have to do the same."
Santana nodded and didn't know what to do. She was scared that she would do this again. She can't hurt Brittany.
"Come here" Brittany opened her arms for Santana to hug her and Santana immediately gave in. "I love you, and of course there are stuff we need to work on, but we get through it, together."
"I love you too, so, so much Britt."
Friday/ 1 PM/ McKinley High
Brittany, Santana and Mercedes were fixing their make-up.
"We were better" Mercedes said.
"I don't know, I think it could go either way" Brittany replied.
"It's that damn trouty mouth, even I felt something in my lady loins when he did that magic sex dance." She said while putting some make- up on Brittany's face.
All of the sudden Quinn came in the bathroom. "all right lady's, girl talk." She got cut off by Santana.
"No, don't you dare try to give us a pep talk"
"Or ask us to come back to New Directions." Mercedes said fast.
"Wait, you really think they would take us back?" Brittany asked. She really wanted to go back. She missed them. They are her friends. But she also wanted to support Santana, that's why she joint Trouble Tones. And of course because she couldn't be with Finn in one room anymore.
"of course they would take us back"
"Do you know what growing up is about?" Quinn asked. She wanted them back. She missed her friends. She wanted to join the trouble tones in the beginning, but Rachel convinced her not to. "losing things" she continued. "In six months we all be gone."
"We will keep in touch" Mercedes said soft.
"Yeah, but it won't be the same." That's were it hit Brittany, it won't be the same. She doesn't get to see her girlfriend every day. How is that going to work? Brittany doesn't even know if she want to go to college. Or which way Santana want to go. "I don't want to grow up yet, I'm not ready to lose you girls. Not yet"
"So what are we suppose to do? Come back to glee club and sing background to Blaine and Berry until we graduate? No I'm not doing that again." Mercedes told Quinn.
"Okay first of all, don't call Rachel, Berry, that's my girlfriend and second what if Mr. Shue agreed to let the Trouble Tones sing at least one song at competitions."
"Even if Mr. Shue agreed to that Rachel never would." Santana said shaking her head.
"what if I said the both already did. Look I went a little crazy, but I'm here now. I am 17 I have a whole life in front of me. I love glee club. I love you girls and whether were 27 or 87 I want to look back at these months and say I was the best times of our lives." Quinn explained.
Santana gave a pat on Brittany's hip to get her attention and held her hand out. She grabbed it and intertwined her fingers. Suddenly Brittany knew it was going to be alright. They were going to figure it out, together.
"Were doing a big number in the auditorium tonight, to celebrate our victory to prepare for regionals. Let us know who might want to join. We could use a couple more girl voices." Quinn said as she walked out of the bathroom.
"So what do you guys wanna do?" Brittany asked after a while.
"I think she is right. I hate to admit it, but it is true. These are our last months together and we have to make the best of it." Santana said looking down at her feet. She looked up surprised as she felt Brittany's arms around her, jumping up and down.
"Really?! Oh my god I am so happy. I wanted to go back for such a long time. Not because I didn't like to be in the Trouble tones or with you girls, but because I missed the others so much." She said in excitement.
"Wow, slow down Britt." Santana said laughing at her girlfriend. She knew Brittany missed the glee club. She missed Quinn and Rachel. Santana wanted her to be happy. She liked it with the Trouble Tones, but that wasn't the thing that made Brittany happy. She wanted to be in a club with all her friends, she wanted to have an amazing last year at this school.
"Okay, so what do we do now?" Mercedes asked quiet.
"Well I guess we could go to the auditorium to find out what that song is that Quinn was talking about?" Santana suggested.
"Yea lets go!" Britt said excited. She grabbed Santana's hand and pulled her out of the bathroom. They walked in the halls and passed Sue's office.
"You guys go first, I will be right back." Brittany said, gave a kiss on Santana's cheek and walked towards Sue's office.
She knocked on the door and Sue called her in. She knew it was early in this year but she also knew that she maybe wasn't going to make this year and go to some college. She knew she wasn't smart enough to go to college. Santana told her always that she was smart in a different way, but not a school/college way. She wanted to dance but had to make this year.
"Brittany what do you want?" Sue asked as she walked in, in silence. She had still not said a word.
"I wanted to talk to you about the, well like the possibilities what I could do next year." Brittany said very soft. She didn't know if Sue was the right person to go to with this question, but she just didn't know anyone else yet. She was scared that Mr. Shue would do a whole week of songs about it and she wasn't really Mr. Figgins favorite student. So Sue was the one, she thought.
"Okay, what is it you want to asked?" For some reason` Sue is always nice to Brittany when it is just the two of them. Now Brittany knew that she could talk to Sue about this.
"I don't think I am going to graduate…" She stopped. "I'm not smart enough" she told her very soft.
"And why would you think that. Look I know I say to stuff to you but that is just because I have to be hard out there. I think that you're a great student and if you work hard enough for it, you will go to college or some dance school or something. But I guess you can stop by tomorrow to look at some options for if you don't graduate." Sue tells her really sweet.
"That is amazing, but I can't stop by tomorrow, it is San's birthday, maybe next week?"
"What ever you want Brittany. I am really happy that you can to me for help. Not many people do that, I don't know why there not though"
"I have an think I have a small idea why they don't." Brittany said laughing. "thank you Ms. Sylvester. See you at cheer practice." She walked out the door and saw Santana sitting next to the door, waiting for Brittany. "Hey, what are you doing here?" Brittany asked. Santana looked up and Brittany saw that there were tears on her cheeks. "What is the matter sweetie?"
She sat down next to her and opened her arms for Santana go hug in.
"How do we have to make stuff work if you don't want to go to college?" Santana asked between the sobs. When Brittany walked in Sue's office, Santana wanted to wait for her. She didn't meant to eavesdrop but the window of Sue's office was open, so she heard everything.
"What? Oh no did you heard that. Oh my god, I didn't want to you to hear that. I'm so sorry"
"But don't you want to graduate and go to college or a dance school or something with me?" Santana said soft and untangled herself from Brittany and just sat next to her.
"What no, of course I want to go with you, I just don't know if I am smart enough."
Santana was tired of having the same conversation with Brittany over and over again. She told Brittany so many times that she was smart and that she shouldn't listen to people who said any different. "I know that you think that. But you have to believe me that we are going to make it this year. Together. Forever."
Brittany didn't want anything else than to be with Santana for the rest of her live. She wanted to go to college with her and to New York. They would get a small, cozy apartment. "Okay, we are going to do this. You and me. I am sorry I upset you about this. I just didn't want you to know yet because I didn't want you to freak out or something or I don't know" She looked down at the floor when she felt Santana hugging her side again, she looked up back at her and Santana leaned in and kisses her lips softly. "I love you."
"I love you too, so much"
