p class="MsoNormal"I miss you but I don't know if you miss me why did you have to go why him he's just human nothing special I loved in a special way every day I battle between pain and resentment what could of happened and what happened. If you let your pride subside maybe you would be here Stevens growing not knowing of pain in my mind he doing just fine he was you care about and you were my whole life this diary is more then just a book its true to me like I was true to you I needed you but you left me alone even in a room full of people I still feel lonely empty and hallow where did you go sometimes even though I know it is not true I think maybe just maybe you are looking down at me watching me and pride but where are you now things are going haywire and this is when you would step in and be the brave intelligent woman you are sometimes I look at the stars twinkle and think it is your eyes winking at e telling me something but I don't know maybe I need hope because I don't know where to go if you can hear please help me because right now I am nothing./p