A/N::
My Name Is not Stephenie Meyer,
So obviously I don't own Twilight.
Unfortunately.

Bella POV

As luck would have it Edward didn't return that night.

Ella and I cuddled up in my 'Big Bed' as she called it and fell asleep.
He was sure to arrive at 9am though with Esme to wake me from my slumber.

I heard the doorbell and rubbed my eyes as I made my way downstairs to the door.

I looked through the peep hole and saw my heart standing on the other side.

Damnit.

I flung the door open.

"What?" I asked.

"We're here to pick up my daughter." he said as he looked through me.
I knew I didn't look fantastic but the least he could do was acknowledge me.
I could work a tank top and a pair of plaid pajama pants just as well as any other bimbo that walked this earth.
I pulled the hay stack down from on top of my head and threw my hair back up in a ponytail.

"She is still sleeping. Esme you know she likes to sleep in on Saturdays." I said as I turned to my ex mother in-law.

"I tried telling him but you know how stubborn he can be." she sighed.

"Yes, unfortunately I do." I said as I looked at Edward sideways. "Let me try to wake her up just, make yourself comfortable."

I walked back up the stairs and looked at my little monk cuddled up under my blankets and hated to wake her.
She looked so cozy I just wanted to jump back in and cuddle with her and ignore the intruders down stairs.

"You've done a good job with her, Isabella." The velvet voice startled me from behind.

"Hmph." I mumbled.

"I'm serious, you've been a great mom. You really stepped up to the plate when it came to her."

"Yea, if only we could say the same for you." I snapped.

"Damnit Bella, we're not having this conversation now. Soon, but not now." he said as he ran his hands through his hair roughly.

I rolled my eyes at him and slithered into bed next to my princess.

"Monk." I whispered as I rubbed her arm.

She stirred but slipped back into her deep sleep.

"Monk….Princess…Monkey..?" I called again.

She groaned and rolled over.

"She sleeps like me." Edward chuckled.

"Yea, I hate it. She's like a rock." I laughed.

He smiled that crooked smile and then looked over at me and let it fall just as quickly.

"Ella? Grandma Esme and your daddy are here to get you."

"Gamma Eshme and Edwurd?" she asked half asleep.

"Yes Grandma and Daddy." I said again.

"Hi Edella." Edward called from the entrance.

She rolled over and smiled, "Hi Edwurd, you wook handsome."

He stifled his laughter, "Thanks Sunshine, you look beautiful. C'mon Grandma is waiting for us downstairs, we're going to the park."

"Mommies coming two?" my baby asked.

Edward looked at me dumbfounded no knowing how to anser.

"No baby mommies got plans for today, you're going to go with daddy and his family." I smiled willing myself not to cry as I watched her eyes water up.

"But you're my fami-wy too." she cried.

"Aww come here Monk, I am your family." I started as I pulled Ella into my lap.
"But today is just Daddy and Ella day, and then Sunday you'll come back to mommy and we'll have Mommy and Ella day ok?"

"Mommy, you won't be sad wit out me wight?" she asked as she rubbed my cheek.

"I'll miss you Monk but I won't be sad cause I know you'll be having fun. You will be having fun won't you, for mommy?" I asked my silly girl.

"Okay, are you going to see Jacsub?" Ella asked.

I stuttered out my answer awkwardly, noticing that Edward was in the room still. "Um, I, I don't know baby, um maybe, I'm not sure."

"Ok, can I wear my pwetty blue shirt dat matches Mipshy." Ella asked.

Thank god for children with short attention span.

"Sure baby, lets go get you dressed." I said as we got up from the bed and headed to Ella's room passing Edward in the doorway.

"Come wook at my woom Edwurd." Ella called after him.

He entered her door as I got her dressed and looked around at her pink butterfly room.

"Very nice" he chuckled.

"Mommy did it" Ella smiled proudly at me.

"She did a very good job." Edward smiled at me.

"Yesh, she did, its bootyful" Ella smiled.

I watched my two loves walk out of her room together and felt my heart break just a little more.
I wanted to be going with them, I wish our family would have survived.

Edward and I were just total opposites. Everyday I questioned if maybe I gave up too early.
Or if I should have given him another chance, but how could I move on always asking myself 'what if' all the time?

I had grown so much in the past year. Edward and the new Bella would not be compatible now.
So why did my heart still yearn for him. Why did I always still feel that electric current that pulled me to him.

"Bella." Edward called knocking me out of my thoughts.

"Huh?"

"Sorry, you look like you were in deep thought there, but we are heading out." Edward smiled.

"Oh, right ok. Come here baby, give me a hug." I called to Ella.

She smiled and ran to me with her arms wide open. I picked her up and peppered her face with kisses.

"Be good for grandma and daddy and I'll see you tomorrow. Love you!"

"Wuv you two momma. See you tomawoe."

I watched as Edward and Ella walked out my front door hand in hand and felt another piece of my heart break.

How will I make it with him back in town?

Edward POV

"Wook Edwurd, I can climb Highhhh." Edella called from the playground.

"Be careful Edel, I don't want you too hurt yourself."

"Uncle Emy, come push me." Edella called.

"Alright toots I'm coming." Emmett boomed as he chased after her.

"Edward what are you trying to do?" my mother asked me.

"I'm trying to spend time with my child mother, what do you mean?"

"I mean with Bella." she said as she looked at me pointedly.

"I'm not trying to do anything mother." I said annoyed.

"You just showed up at her door yesterday Edward. You told me you talked to her and she knew you were picking up Edella.
Why would you lie to me?" she asked confused.

"Mom, I tried to call her and work things out. We ended up fighting and she hung up on me after cussing me out.
So I just showed up when I wanted and made her deal with it."

"Edward." my mother sighed. "You need to grow up. You say you love Isabella still and yet you do these immature things that prove otherwise."

"Not you two mother. I have grown up. I have made a decent living for myself and can now support my daughter.
That's why I am home. And I do love Bella mother, never stopped. Until she gets that through her thick skull though I refuse to swoon over her.
Yes, I love her, but IF we ever get together again she will not leave me over and over again."

"Edward! She didn't leave this time you did for two years!" my mother raised her voice.

"After she divorced me mother. I loved her with everything I had and she left me.
Yes, I was young and stupid but I would have done anything for her. If she would have stopped me I wouldn't have left.
Don't you get it. She still to this day has the power over me. With or without my will." I said as I tugged on my hair.

"Before you get wrapped up in Bella, you need to concentrate on that one over there first." she said as she pointed to my daughter laughing on the swing.
"She needs you first and foremost. Prove yourself to her before you try to prove yourself to Isabella."

I smiled and nodded my head. "That's what I plan to do mother, trust me."

I played with Edella on the swings and we ran around the playground together.
She reminded me so much of Bella, her cute little giggle, Bella's wavy hair, her petite stature, her facial expressions and sense of humor.

I loved this little girl more then words could explain.

As much as everyone thinks I left for my own selfish acts, I left to make a way for myself so I could support my daughter and earn back my wife.
I just didn't think Bella would be doing the same, but her plans didn't involve me and that hurt the most. She had a living and a new person in her life.
And I wasn't even thought of anymore. I hadn't even had a lay in the past 2 years let alone a serious relationship.
Just knowing she was seeing someone else made me want to run out and screw the first woman I saw, but that wasn't me.
I was a grown man trying to fix my previous fuck ups.

I rounded up my brother and mother and we headed back to the house.
My mom made Edella's favorite, chicken and mashed potatoes and then I gave Edella a bath and led her up to my room.
The room her mother and I used to share. I put on the crazy Barney movie she insisted on watching and after watching it on repeat for two hours she tucked her head into my neck, laid her arm over my chest and whispered a "Night night Edwurd." into my ear.

My eyes stung with tears as I sniffled my nose and tried to suck the tears up like a man. How could I have missed this for the past 2years?
How did I loose the title of daddy so easily? She was my everything and now that I was back how could I go without seeing her for 2 weeks all the time, this little girl had me wrapped around her finger in less than 24hrs.

I awoke to a slap in the face and popped my eyes open, I had 5 little fingers draped across my forehead. Yup, definitely Bella's child, crazy bed hog.
I gently slid her hand off of my forehead and laid them across her belly as I pulled her into me to cuddle.
She smelled just like her mommy, Strawberries and Freesias'.
I breathed in her scent and willed myself back to sleep.

I awoke later with someone dancing on my bed and singing, "Gotta wimo out front, woah, hottes swyles shoes and cowors, Bes of bof words." I couldn't help but chuckle.
Edella looked down at me. "Edwurdddd. Wake ups Hannah Montana's on."

I sat up from the bed and looked at the TV, sure enough she was singing the intro to the 'Hannah Montana' show.
"You sing beautiful Sunshine." I looked at the clock, 10:10 am. "Did you eat breakfast Edella?" I asked my girl.

"Yesh, Gampa made me pancakes, dey were yummy." she smiled as she sat next to me.

I showered while she watched her TV and then dressed her before Bella came to pick her up in a pink sun dress I bought her.

"Hey Edell, Who's Jacob?" I asked my daughter letting curiosity get the best of me.

"Mommies fend." she answered shortly.

"Her friend? Does mommy kiss her friend? Does he stay over and have sleep over's.?"
I felt awkward asking my daughter this but I had to know how serious of a relationship I was up against.

"Yesh, dey kiss, he no sleep over, but he should dat be fun." Edella smiled innocently.

"Yea, well thank you for having a sleep over with daddy." I smiled.

"You have a bigger bed den mommy." she laughed.

"Yea, mommy should come sleep over with us two, there is enough room." I laughed.

"Oh Yes!" she said excitedly.

My eyes got big as I realized I just told my 3 year old to invite her mommy to our sleep over next time,

I quickly changed the subject and gathered her bag as we headed down stairs.

Bella had just showed up and was in a yellow tank and a pair of shorts. She looked beautiful.

"Hey Monk, did you have fun? Ready to go?"

"Hi Mommy! Yesh I had fun." Edella smiled.

"Ok say goodbye to grandma and grandpa and daddy so we can leave."

"Bye Gampa Carwile, bye Gamma Eshme, bye daddy!" Edella said as she hugged my leg.

She just called me daddy.

I knelt down in front of her and hugged her. "Bye Edella, I love you." I said as I kissed her cheek. "See you soon."

"Bye daddy, I wuv you two." she said as she left with her mother.

Maybe I wouldn't get Bella but atleast my little girl was finally starting to accept me.

Bella POV

Two months had passed.

Two months since Edward had been back in town.

Ella and Edward were becoming close. Too close. She always asked if he could come over for dinner, come for a sleep over, come over to play.
I would kiss Jacob and she would tell me I needed to kiss her daddy too. I wondered what he was telling her.

Ever since she told me about Edwards comment about me spending the night with them I kept an eye brow raised to his comments.
I would ask Ella if daddy made any comments about me but she always said no.

Jacob had left for business for a month, he was an architect and had a job to do in Georgia he had been asked to help out on.
I missed him, but not terribly. Deep down I knew I should cut ties and stop leading him on but he was my little bit of sanity.
The one who kept me grounded and made sure not to let me slip back into the mess that was Edward Cullen.

I sat at my desk and sent e-mails out to my clients, sent an e-mail to Alice who was on vacation with Jasper in New York and set up court dates.
I had spent the weekend at my parents house while Edward had Ella. They were just as uneasy about him being back in town as I was.
I couldn't deny that my baby loved him though. I just hoped he didn't up and leave her again.

Today was Wednesday, hump day. I needed a good hump, I thought to myself as I looked at the clock, 3:00. Two more hours and I'm home free.
I tapped my pen against my desk as I listened to the low tune of the radio. Kate buzzed in and interrupted my talented drumming.

"Bella, I have a Renee on line one for you. She says it's urgent." Kate said quickly.

"Thanks," I said as I picked up the phone. "Mom, what's going on?"

"Bella, oh my goodness Bella." she cried. "It's Charlie, I'm on my way to the hospital."

"Mom slow down, what's wrong?" I asked frantically.

"He had a heart attack Bella, at the station. They said he was unresponsive, I'm on my way to the hospital now." she cried.

I felt tears escape my eyes, "Ok mom relax, I'm leaving the office now I'll be there in a few."

"Don't bring Edella, I don't want her to see me like this." she sobbed.

"No, no. I'll get Esme to pick her up from daycare. I'll be there soon." I cried. "I love you mom, just stay calm."

I quickly buzzed Mr. Whitlock and let him know my situation. He told me to take off as long as I needed.
I quickly grabbed my bag and sprinted towards my car. I dialed Esme's cell and it went to voicemail.

"Hey Esme, it's Bella please give me a call when you get this." I said breathlessly.

I called the house phone and it rang a bazillion times it felt like. Machine, Damn.

"Hi, it's Bella." I sniffled. "I really need someo-"

"Bella?" Edward asked surprised. "What's going on what's wrong?"

I don't know if it was his voice or just being able to talk to someone but I began bawling.

"Oh Edward, it's Charlie. He had a heart attack.
I'm on my way to the hospital and I called your mom but she didn't answer, and Alice is out of town and I don't know what to do.
I need someone to pick up Ella from day care and watch her until I can get home." I sobbed.

"Oh God, Bella I'm sorry about Charlie. Don't worry I'll get the baby and we'll go to your house and you don't need to worry about a thing. I'll watch her, just go."

"Tha- Thank You." I stuttered. "Just enter 100506 into the garage pin pad and you can get in." I said quickly.
"Order her a pizza or something and I'll be home as soon as possible. You know were her daycare is?" I asked.

"Yes don't worry just go to the hospital. I'll handle everything."

I made it to the hospital and met up with Renee. We huddled and bawled our eyes out together as we waited for some information. Anything.

It turned out Carlisle was working the ER and told us they were trying to resuscitate Charlie and he would let us know something as soon as possible.

Hours went by until we finally heard back from Carlisle. It was now 8:30 and I was tired, stressed, worried, and hungry.

"Renee, Isabella." Carlisle called.

"What's going on Carlisle, is he going to be okay?" Renee asked worried.

"I'm sorry it took me so long to get to you guys, that Charlie is a fighter though. We have his heart stabilized right now but he's unconscious at the moment so we're going to keep him in ICU. I think it's best if you ladies go home and get some rest and come back in the morning."

"I'm not leaving Carlisle." My mother said.

"Me either." I added.

" I figured. Only one of you can stay, and Bella you have to get home to Edella." Carlisle added.

Oh, Ella. I wonder if she's ok or if she's killed Edward yet. I silently nodded my head.

"If anything happens I'll give you a call Bella, I promise." my mother told me as she hugged me.

"Ok." I whimpered as I let my tears silently fall.

I drove home in silence as I worried about my father.

I was numb.

What would I do if I lost him?

Why isn't he waking up?

He was my rock, I couldn't loose him.

I looked around and saw I was home already. I parked the car and headed inside the house.
I expected to come home to a pig sty, instead I came home to a perfectly clean house.
I peeked in the kitchen and saw there was a pot of spaghetti on the stove. I took a few bites. Delicious, take-out?

I headed upstairs to find my monk and her dad. I peeked my head into my room, empty.
I headed to Ella's room and saw her and her daddy cuddled up in her twin size bed sleeping while Barney sang 'I love you' on the TV.

Perfect.

They were perfect.

I couldn't help the tears that rolled down my cheek. I wanted to come home to this every night. She needed her daddy. I needed my daddy.
My tears were full blown now. I backed out of Ella's room and hit my heel against the door making a small 'bang'.

"Bella?" Edward yawned as he rose his head from the bed. I nodded. "Aw Bells, your crying. How's your dad?" he asked as he maneuvered Ella off of him.
"Stable, he's unconscious though. Did you cook?" I asked to change the subject. "Yea, I learned from this girl in high school, she was a Houdini in the kitchen." he smiled.
"I just seemed to get better over the years."

I smiled and nodded my head.

God I loved him.

"Are you ok?" he asked as he stepped closer to me.

No, I'm numb, heart broken, worried, confused, sad, depressed, should I continue?

"I'm fine" I croaked out.

"No you're not, come here." he said as he grabbed me in a hug.

The smell of Laundry Detergent, Cinnamon, 'Very Sexy', and mint cascaded my senses.

This was home, he made me feel whole. I needed to feel something.

Edward looked down at me and slowly leaned his head toward my lips. I grabbed his head and shoved my tongue into his mouth.
I would regret this later, but I needed to feel something, being numb was killing me.

I swirled my tongue around his and bit hard on his lips. He groaned into my mouth as I pulled him out of Ella's room and closed her door.
Before he had a chance to react I shoved him back against the wall in the hallway and continued assaulting his mouth, I moved lower and bit at his collarbone as I pulled his t-shirt over his head.

His lips were swollen from my assault and I couldn't help but lick them. They were so juicy. I bit and nibbled down his chest as I undid his belt.
I pulled my button down over my head and in the process my hair fell out of it's bun.

"Bella wait, what are you doing?" Edward asked with his mouth but I could tell his dick was thinking something completely different.
I undid his button and yanked his jeans and boxers down.

"Edward, I need you to fuck me please." I begged as my eyes filled with tears.

"No, Bella not like this" he said as he attempted to pull his boxers back up.

"Edward." I pleaded at I pushed him back against the wall.

I could tell he was internally arguing with himself so I took the moment to hike my skirt up and pull off my thong.
I grabbed his hands and placed them on my tits. "Feel me, Edward. Don't you remember me."

I saw a fire rage in his eyes as he gripped my tits hard and turned me up against the wall.
"Why are you doing this to me Bella?" he groaned huskily in my ear as he nibbled down my neck.

"Yes, fuck me Edward." I moaned as I reached behind me and unclasped my bra. He ripped it off my shoulders and sucked my tit into his mouth.
He bit on my nipple hard and I couldn't help the whimper that escaped me. I pulled at his hair roughly as he tugged at my nipple with his teeth.

He nipped his way up my chest and my neck and my lips. "You want me to fuck you Bella? Just fuck you?" He sneered as he bit at my lips.

"Yes!" I moaned as I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck.
"Fuck me, now!" I demanded as I rubbed his dick against my slit and he let out a loud groan.

He slammed his dick into me and I let out a loud whimper. "You want me to fuck you like some whore?" he groaned out.
"You're better then that. Why do- "he moaned as I dug my heels into his ass and raised myself off of him and slammed back down. "do you want me to do this?" he finished.

"Fuck me Edward!" I demanded.

He pulled out and slammed back into me hard and sent my back banging into the wall. "I fuck - I fucking hate you" I moaned.
"You left me and - ugh- your daughter, I hate you." I panted as he slammed into me again.

"You left -Mmm- so good - you took her." Edward mumbled.

I slapped him across the cheek as he slammed into me again.

"You bitch" he seethed as I road him hard.

He pulled me from the wall and knelt down on the floor with us still connected. "Turn around" he demanded.

I bit my lip as I rolled over and got up on my knees.
He gripped my shoulder hard and slammed into me roughly as he reached in front of me and pulled and kneaded one of my breast.

"Is this what you want Bella." he groaned as I wiggled against his dick as he slammed into me again.

"Shut -ugh- the fuck up -mMm- Edward and fuck me." I panted.

He fucked me hard and I felt my walls tighten around him.

"YESSSSS!" I moaned out.

Seconds later I felt Edward explode inside of me.

"Ugh So fucking good, baby." He groaned as he emptied his load.

He collapsed against my back and we laid there in silence. I felt the tears fill my eyes. I wanted to feel something other then numb.

And now I felt broken, guilty, and dirty.

We fit together perfectly, our bodies molded together as one. But he was no longer mine and I was no longer his.

My body shook from my sobs and he slowly pulled out of me. "Bella, I'm sorry did I hurt you?" he asked concerned as he grabbed me in his arms.
I couldn't look him in the eyes, I just treated him like a whore and used him for a few minutes of bliss.

"You should go Edward." I said as I picked myself off of the floor and wiped my eyes. I picked my button down up from the floor and threw it over my head.

"So that's it, just a quick fuck and bye?" he asked hurt.

"Basically." I said emotionless.

"Hmph, ok. Well next time you need another fuck, call me up." he snapped as he pulled up his pants and boxers and threw on his shirt.

He walked downstairs and slammed the door behind him.

I couldn't help the sobs that escaped me as I collapsed on the floor. Why did I always put myself in this position? I couldn't blame him this time.
I forced him into fucking me. I was just as guilty as breaking our hearts as he was.

On top of that I just cheated on my boyfriend.

And on top of that, fucking Edward didn't make my dad better or fix my emptiness.

It just added to the cluster fuck of drama I always seem to wrap my life around.

When will I learn?

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