Summary: Izaya has been secretly in love with Shizuo, and getting broken each time they fight. After years of living the same every day, one night Izaya wonder in his bedroom if his beloved monster loves him back but the chances always reach 0.

Warnings: One-sided Shizaya (ShizuoxIzaya). Super angsty and fluffy at some points. Plus Izaya crying a lot and overly OOC.


After Izaya woke up, he felt an intense pain in his head and a familiar sting in his eyes as the sunlight hit his pale face. Cursing himself for crying himself to sleep yet again, not before thinking something along the lines of "Stupid Protozoan, you did it again… You make me too weak". The informant got up from his bed and lazily opened his drawers for a pair of underwear and his usual clothes, before heading straight to the bathroom to take a well deserved shower.

Stripping himself from yesterday's clothes, Izaya turned on the shower, setting it to warm water before stepping inside and starting to wash himself slowly as his own thoughts went back to a certain ex-bartender who kept him unable to sleep properly as usual. As he finished showering he proceeded to dry himself with a towel and put on his clothes, as he looked at the mirror to see the pinkish tone he had around his already crimson red eyes.

Sighing in defeat knowing full well, that was going to give away he had been crying the night before, he opened the small drawer behind the mirror in the shower, to take a small bottle with eye-drops ,so no one ever knows he had been weak the previous night. After finishing with the eye drops and brushing his teeth, he went to the living room and looked at his wall clock. 11 am, he didn't have meetings with his clients till 3 pm, so he had more than enough time to watch his precious humans for awhile to distract himself, maybe have lunch for once and then head straight to the meeting.

As he was about to turn on his desktop computer, a raven haired woman came into the apartment with an annoyed face, knowing more than anyone who this woman was, the informant smirked, he had to try to put a façade with her, he had breaking down too easily the past few weeks, he needed to stop it.

"Izaya, what the hell do you think you're doing waking up at 11? " Namie said in a loud voice. She looked terribly annoyed and mad at the informant. "The fact I'm your secretary doesn't mean I'll have to do all your work plus being your damn babysitter!"

"Namie-san, you shouldn't be getting mad and frowning over everything, you'll get old way earlier, I don't think your loved brother would like an old hag for a lover, ne~?"

"W-What-? You bastard you better shut up or I'll make a drug to take away your voice…!" the secretary's face was bright red, as she yelled completely mad at the informant. A wider smirk appeared on his face, he succeeded again in making her mad, good. He hadn't completely lost his touch.

"Now, now old hag, you better stop it before I tell your beloved crush about your feelings, nee~?" He let out a quiet laugh, trying to keep himself from already laughing out loud. Yup, bothering his secretary always cheered him up. Her face was just priceless!

"You know what? Do your damn work by yourself, and you better pay me this day!" and with that she stormed out of the apartment nor before glaring daggers at Izaya who broke down into a hysterical laughter. Humans were so fun..

"If only I was able to mess around and laugh with Shizu-chan without making him try to kill me…"

As that thought crossed his mind his laughter faded, and he heavily sat on his spinning chair while blankly looking at the monotone screen of the computer. She had actually left a sandwich with tuna on it right on the table, which he started to eat uninterested while looking at both his computer and his phone, which suddenly rang for a bit, indicating he had a new text message, opening it up, he almost dropped his sandwich.

[Meet me at 2 pm instead. Scratch what we needed; we need urgent information about Heiwajima Shizuo. Unless you want him to have a bullet right thru his heart, you better come here bastard. We'll still pay you what you asked for. ]

Frowning Izaya rose from his seat and took his jacket to go straight to the place of the meeting, wondering what could they possibly want to know about his beloved monster. Maybe it was a trap, who knows but, hell, he couldn't risk it at all.

"I wonder, what's with the sudden change… Perhaps they only want me to come earlier by scaring me…? Am I really that obvious about Shizu-chan? Either way… I can't risk his life. No one can truly kill him but me… Shizu-chan I wonder… will you ever thank me…for saving your life?"


A/N: Soo… this became a multichapter story, yay! Sorry about the sudden plot-twist , it was a random idea I came up with, damn my stupid writter's block xD . Anyways hope you enjoyed this short chapter! Read and Review :D