Months pasted and Victoria still had not given up. I felt smothered by the pack, they were always with me. I threw a major fit when after spending the day shopping
for an engagement present for my dad and Sue.
Quil thought it was necessary to follow me into the bathroom. I wanted to kill him, but he still insisted and only relented when I told him I would sing the whole time so he new I was safe.
One week, two days after my 21st birthday, Victoria showed up for me. I was in bed reading when I heard noise outside. When I looked out my window, I saw what
seemed to be Jared getting thrown into a tree only to not get up again. Lucky for me Charlie was not home. He spent all his time in La Push and Leah and I were the only ones who stayed and our house and she was at work.
I grabbed my car keys, put on my chucks and crept down was strangely quite, all the suspense was killing me and I hope she would put me out of my misery already. After crawling on my knees through the kitchen I heard someone yell." Bella run" I think it was Paul. But that was all it took to give me the courage to make it to the fucking truck. I was on the highway headed to La Push. Before something slammed into me. The truck slid off the road and into the woods. I couldn't see where I was going, but I kept driving anyway. A moment later I heard something jump into the bed of the truck. I glanced back only to see a streak of red.
I hit the brakes and the bitch flew, but since I was not paying attention it hit a tree and the car would not start. My head was killing me and as I was getting out the car to make a
run for it I see two wolves. It could have been Sam and Paul and they were running on the right side of me. So I decide to go left. As I'm running I realize that I am close to the cliffs, theres a growling and howling not too far from me.
The fight was more near to me than I thought. When I turned to look at where the noise was coming from I see Victoria running towards me with Jake right behind her and he's limping. The injury has slowed him down, there's no way he'll get to her in time and there's no where for me to go, so I do the only that makes sense and start heading for the edge of the cliffs. Its closer to winter and the water looks like its freezing. I jump and as I'm in the air I hear a woman scream out.
"Nooooooo".
But the only woman that's there is Victoria. Maybe Jake did get to her and their tearing her to pieces. I hit the water and it is freezing .I can't even stay above because the
current is so strong its pulling me under. I tried to fight it but all I'm doing is exhausting myself. My eyes are burning from the cold salt waters and my arms hurt and
I can't fight anymore. As I'm under the water I pass out but I hear a voice, telling me that I was not going to die. That I was going to live one way or the other. And this person that sounded like a woman was beating on my
chest. Water pooled in my mouth and as I felt it coming up my throat was burning from the salt. I opened my eyes to see Vic-fucking-toria. She smiled at me, before she leaned forward and brought her teeth to my neck. The burning started immediately. I felt it in my neck before it started to spread. I couldn't form any coherent thoughts beyond the burning. It was a feeling like nothing I've ever felt it was as if someone, poured cold water on me and then threw me in a volcano filled with lava.
"Oh my god, Bella .....Bella...please oh please" It was Jake and he sounded worried and was mumbling words I didn't understand.
"Ah...fuck, she's fucking bit….that bitch fucking bit her, she changing. What are we gonna do?" Changing? changing into what. Oh fuck. I'm going to be a vampire. She
didn't kill me. Why didn't she kill me? Oh shit, the wolves are going to kill me. Ill be a newborn, ill never see Jake, Leah or my parents again. That bitch. She wants me to
suffer through this before she comes back to kill me. The burn, it was everywhere .I could hear myself screaming. Dear god, I want them to kill me.
I don't know how long I burned for, but when I opened my eyes Leah was standing over me.
"Hey bitch, your eyes look scary as fuck" she teased. I sat up from whatever floor I was laying on. Leah smelt fuck awful and I wiggled my nose in protest of that
shit.
"Geez, Leah you smell like hot garbage and ass" she laughed
" Well you don't smell so good yourself Bells, I going against all my basic instincts here by not killing you for smelling like" she started to sniff me .gasping and
shaking her head away from me." like a fucking cotton candy machine that was filled with perfume that expired in the early nineteen hundreds. That shit smells
rotten and sweet, too sweet. It's just wrong. You smell wrong" and she looked disgusted.
My eyes adjusted to the room. I could hear everything. Down to her heart beat
which I no longer had. My throat was starting to feel uncomfortable .Leah grabbed my hand as I start to scratch the damn thing.
"Hey don't do that, your nails are cutting through your skin." Leah said .Looking freaked and kind off grossed out .
" Sorry, It's burning like a muthafucka"she giggled at me.
"It's good you didn't loose your sense of humor. I thought newborns were supposed to be blood crazed and uncontrolled, but here you are proving everyone wrong
as usual. I guess we should go out for a hunt. Jake is outside patrolling, making sure there aren't any humans near by." good, I didn't want to kill any humans.
"Okay, what happened anyway? Did you guys find Victoria" I hoped that they did. I hoped that they ripped her fucking head off.
When were walking out of what seemed to be the… Cullen house? Eww. I would have rather been left in the fucking woods, than have to be in this god damn house. I made a mental note to myself to come back a break everything .Doors, walls, windows, desks. Especially Carlisle's and anything of value. I was a vampire now, so I wouldn't get hurt and that thought made me smile.
"One thing at a time Bella, we will talk about everything after Jake and I take you hunting" She smiled at me, but it seemed forced. Like that fake smile she
gives to Emily.
We were well into the woods, when Jake trotted up to us in his wolf form. He looked sad and started whining as soon as he saw me.
"What the Fuck Leah! tell me what's going on." Jake was still crying and Leah was lost in her head .Probably trying to figure out what to say to me.
"Bella" she said sadly .She couldn't even look me in the eye." I don't know how to say this. But we tracked the red headed bitch all the way to fucking ......to fucking
Canada, before we lost her. Sorry, I'm so fucking sorry, Bells. The bitch is like a fucking ninja or something. Jake and I wanted to continue the search for her, but
we had to come back, because.....well because....ohm...uhm." she was stuttering and I wanted to know what the fuck happened.
"BECAUSE WHAT?" I was getting angry by the second. She looked down at Jake for help and he looked away.
"Fine asshole, don't help me." she growled while kind of trying to kick him.' Listen Bella, Wee had to come back because Sam was.....well he was gonna kill
after Jake found you bitten, we didn't know where to take you. So we brought you to the Cullen house, cause their gone and their house is secluded and far from
any humans. We left Seth in charge of taking care of you. I mean you're our sister and we would rather have you a leech than not have you at all and Jake agrees. So when Sam that fucking asshole came by with Paul at his side talking about how you need to die because.....well they didn't want a newborn running around in forks and he doubted that Jake could kill you himself. We ran back as fast as we could. And Jake, Seth, Embry and I are no longer in Sam's pack .We left and Jake is our alpha." she exhaled the breath she was holding, finally looking into my eyes. Sam wanted me dead and I guess so did the other wolves.
"Don't worry Bella, if he comes anywhere near the treaty line I will kick his ass, I promise" and she was serious, I think she secretly wanted him to come, just to give
her a reason.
I fell down on my knees petting Jake. Running my hands through his fur. He is soft; it was always a comfort to do this .He had his head in my lap for thirty three seconds
before Leah pushed him off.
"Jake ,this is not the time for her to be petting and coddling you so you can feel better. She was just turned into a god damn leech. She's thirsty and we need to be their for her. So get up and stop whining like a bitch, we need to take her hunting for deer and shit." she hissed, before running behind a tree to phase.
"Jake, it's not your fault. You know I don't blame you for what happened, I was going to die anyway. She pulled me out of the water after I had died Jake, she gave me
CPR, but I think she changed me on purpose. I guess maybe she'll come back to finish job.....I mean who knows, she crazy" and she was. The more I thought about, the
more I wanted to kill her. And as soon as I get over this newborn thing I was going to do just that.
After practically slaughtering the entire deer and elk population we went back to the Cullen house. Seth and Embry were sitting on the steps looking nervous and sad.
I felt great; I wished everyone would stop with the sad looks. But I doubt they could help, it was not a happy occasion and I was their, now mortal enemy. But I
couldn't help but be okay with being a vampire. I mean it was what I wanted not too long ago. Off course I wanted to be with the Cullen's at first but they were gone and
good ridden to them all. I really was not happy when I found out about the wolves. I mean Jake and Leah have immortality and I was envious of that fact. I mean did
no one I associated with be human. But now should they decide to phase for life I would have them forever. And if they decide not to? Well I would be alone, but I don't
want to think about that.
Leah walked into the room and got down to business, she said that they hid my car from Charlie and that Jake was working on it. That Charlie was worried about
me after me not returning his calls and that Sam and Paul tried to steal the car to fake my death. Apparently Leah and Jake went to the tribal elders to get permission
to let Charlie in on the secret. It only made sense. He was marrying an elder. His step-children were were-wolfs and his only daughter is a vampire. Plus the vamp
bitch Victoria was still out there and could come back at anytime to seek out her twisted revenge. For the time being, Leah told Charlie I was sick with the flu and
that he shouldn't come by the house because the shit was contagious. He asked that I call him when I felt better. Jake and the rest of the pack was going to meet
with the elders in the morning for their decision.
"Jake what if they say no? What if they ask me to leave, what am I going to do". I was panicked. I knew that Jake and Leah would take care of my dad, but it would
hurt me to know that I would have to fake my death and he would be morning a daughter that was alive....well not alive but not definitely dead either.
"Bella, don't worry, ill just tell him anyway. I mean...well .I'm the true alpha my word is law and ...shit...fuck them all, if they say no. But at least we have Sue on our
side and she wants him to know. I would have told him right after it happened. But the idiot Sam stopped me before I got to the house."
I was pacing across the floor .But I stopped because I knew that Jake would take care of everything. Embry looked tired, like he hadn't slept in days. All of them looked exhausted. After a few minutes they were all asleep on the floor.
The next morning, Jake and Leah left to meet the Elders. Seth and Embry went out to patroll to make sure that Sam didn't try anything. I still couldn't believe
he wanted to kill me. I thought we were friends, that I was apart of the pack family, but I guess that went out the window, when I was changed.
Leah came back after a few hours, to let me know that Jake was meeting with Charlie to tell him everything. She said they wanted me to be there, but the elders didn't want a bloodsucker on there land. Even if it was me.
Charlie was freaked out, he new there was something weird going on and has chosen to ignore it. But when Jake phased in front of him, his face paled. He didn't want to know. He tried to see me, but Leah explained to him it was not a good idea, so instead .He sent a cell phone and called me everyday. He didn't like the thought of Vic-fucking-toria out there, trying to kill everyone. So he decided to teach Leah and Sue how to protect themselves with a fire arm. Leah called to tell me, that he was crazy and she already told him that a gun wasn't going to do jack-shit when it came to a leech, but just to humor him, she made him teach her anyway.
But after she threaten Sam with the gun, Charlie took it back and gave her a lecture about how he wouldn't know how to help her, should she commit a crime of passion.
A few months later Jake and Charlie surprised me with a two bedroom cabin in the woods north of La Push. It was one story and had a roof that they painted blue.
Charlie said he sold the house in Forks, cause no one was living there. Leah invited herself to move in with me .She said It was to keep me company and that
She worries about me being out there alone, But Seth mentioned that it was really because, she walked in on Charlie and Sue doing it in the kitchen and was grossed
.
The wedding came and went in late spring. It was on first beach. I never saw my dad as happy as I did that day. Jake fought with Sam for weeks to get me permission
to attend. He finally backed off after Leah snarled, growled, stomped her feet, punched a tree and flipped him the bird.
Soon after that, I thought my control was great around humans. So I started to venture outside more. Doing little things, like grocery shopping for Leah and going into town.
One day when I was headed home. I smelled a vampire not just anyone, but that bitch Victoria. She was back. I immediately started to search for her and caught up
with her half way to Seattle. We fought and as she was charging at me, she hit what seemed to be an invisible wall and was thrown back. I was shocked, I guess I
was a shield, both mental and physical. She was a good fighter and no matter what I did I couldn't make her stay down. And no matter what she did, she could get
close to me because of my shield. Two hours and 13 trees later, she gave up.
"Urgh, I really hate you" she exclaimed, while throwing her hands in the air. I could tell she was frustrated.
"Well the feeling is mutual, itch" she perched herself on a tree across from me. Her eyes were black and vexed." I wouldn't even, be here if it weren't for you, why
couldn't you just leave me alone"? She glared at me, if only looks could kill.
"Because you needed to suffer ,like I was ,like I am .I lost my mate ,because of you and that damn preppy bastard .All he went though to kill my James and then he threw you away. So my mate dies, for nothing. In the end he didn't want you anyway." I was speechless .but she continued with her rant." Here I thought that he loved you and would destroy anything that got in the way of that. But you were just his fucking little human pet, which he killed my James over. So I came back to kill you, but then I saw you and you were a mess. I was happy about that, because at least I wasn't the only one who lost someone. But then you had to go fall in love with the one of the dogs. So I had to make sure you didn't get your happy ending, it just wasn't fair."She hissed. I absorbed everything she just said and ....I laughed so hard that my stomach started to hurt. Victoria looked pissed and was about to attack me again.
"Wait..." giggle" Wait...oh my god. Do you realize that we both hate the Cullen's? I mean ...well .I took out my anger on there house. But you have yours building up
inside you, were the only people who get hurt are you and I. Here I was all prepared for James to kill me, but they saved me. Which I'm happy for, it's not like I wanted
to die. But you were right, they left me and he didn't want me anyway. So why don't we go back to their house and you can mess it up a bit .I'll have Leah meet us there
with a can of spray paint and we can write Edward a douche and Victoria was here". she laughed god bless her. But the laughter turned into dry sobbing and it was not pretty. She looked like a broken red Sonia without her sword.
"I just miss him so much and I'm so lonely. I've never been on my own before, he was always with me. And I really do hate the Cullens, but there's too many of them, so
I can't take them on my own. Maybe....maybe, you can come with me and....and...bring the wolves and we'll annihilate that fucking family". Wow, she looked so
hopeful and determined. I was uncomfortable and shifting from one foot to the other. I was not a murderer.
'' Yeah....um, about that, ah that's not a good idea. Like I said, I let go of all that anger it was like a poison besides even if we were to annihilate that fucking family it
wouldn't bring James back." I told her sincerely .But something told me that maybe it would make her feel better to avenge him." So how about we go back and
annihilate their fucking house?'' I asked with a smile.
"No thanks" she said with a roll off her eyes, and then she ran off.
The next day, Leah barged into the house, grabbed my hand and we took of running. I asked her where we were going, but she was too busy laughing to form any kind
of response. We stopped in front of what use to be the Cullen house. The shit was destroyed beyond the looks of it you would never know how
beautiful it use to be.
I leaned over with my hands on my knees for support after seeing what was on top of that debris .It was the front door and written in what smells like animal blood was…..
"Edward is a faggot and to the rest of the Cullens, don't worry I'm not prejudice I hate you all equally "and the letter V was signed underneath .I was on the floor, trying to control my laughter.
Leah was taking pictures; she said it was in case I got mad thinking about how he abandoned me and that whenever I looked at the pictures I would feel better. When we got back to the cabin,
there was a note on the door all it said was "We love without reason and without reason we hate".
Was that an apology?
