Chapter Two: The Girl with the Broken Smile

Meredith was arriving home from a long day at work. She opened the door to the only house she had ever really known as a "home." She and Ellis and many different nannies shared this 5 bedroom, 4 baths, 2 acre property in Boston for 20 years. She went upstairs into her bedroom lay on her bed and rubbed her belly. She had been feeling very sick the past few days. Actually she has been feeling sick since she left Seattle. She missed Derek terribly. Just then, her cell phone went off. When she looked at the caller ID it read 'Incoming Call: Derek." She let the machine get it.

'Hi you've reached Meredith Grey, sorry I am not here to take your call, leave your name and number and I will get back to you soon bye" There was a loud tone then Meredith noticed Derek wasn't saying anything, then he finally spoke. "Meredith, please tell me where you are, I miss you so much. I miss talking to you. I miss you beautiful blue eyes and your soft blonde hair. I need you Meredith, please try and understand that. Please tell me where you are. The other day I was thinking about when you talked to me in the scrub room, and you told me you loved me, and I realized that I love you too"

Her eyes grew wide listening to this message. He had been leaving constant messages lately but nothing like that.

"I do love you, and I want to make my marriage work too, but I don't know what to do anymore. Meredith I am lost without you. Please come home, goodbye"

Tears poured out of Meredith's eyes. She ran downstairs grabbed a bottle of tequila out of the fridge and went back upstairs. She watched television and listened to Derek's messages while she drank the whole bottle, until she passed out.

The next morning she woke up 20 minutes late, running to the bathroom to throw up. Drinking a whole bottle of tequila was a bad idea. She looked at her face in the mirror and it made her vomit more. She looked dead. She looked like someone had come to her that night and ripped all the life out of her. Her blue eyes had no sparkle in them, they were gray now, hollow and lifeless and they had big black bags under them. Her skin was paler than ever and her hair looked darker. She picked up her cell phone and called the hospital she now worked at. Letting her resident know she was sick and was going to be late, which wasn't a problem. Working at Boston General was different than Seattle Grace. Everyone there worshiped the ground she walked on. Ellis Grey's world renowned daughter at the place where Ellis became the famous surgeon she is.

An hour later she stopped vomiting and got her self together so she could go to work.

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved