Insanity pt 2
I wake up and put on my fashionably cute smile as my friends call it.
They are so weird, I mean I hang around a bunch of girls and guys but the chicks always call me cute but that's all.
Funny, when I was in primary school; because I seemed too 'girly' as everyone put it, I sat with a bunch of girls. And there favourite game was to pick me up bridal style and carry me.
I was short, had a small (still do) body figure and was light; very light. As I fasten up my tie for my new uniform and stared blankly in a mirror.
My bright blond hair, blue eyes that at the moment was dull and lifeless; right! Time to put it back on.
As I forcibly make my eyes shine with fake life and liveliness, (no one can or ever tell it's a get up) I felt sick to my stomach.
I hate it.
Every day of my 16 years of being alive, I always smiled and acted cheerful; I don't even feel anything but emptiness but I still have to fake it all.
"Morning Naruto!" my dad cheerfully sung as I stepped out of the bathroom.
"Morning dad!" I sung as he pet my head calming my nerves. As I walked to my new school that was only 15 minutes walk, I fantasised to myself.
"Naruto, Quit day dreaming, you're at school!" he warned me.
"Kurama! Your so mean!" I pout to the fox demon that occupies my dreams.
"Whatever kit! You need to get shown around, to get accustomed to school!" he warned smirking at me.
I head to the only building that I actually know what it is, the office.
"Excuse me, um, I'm new here" I sheepishly warn;
"what's your name?" the office lady asked warmly.
"Naruto… Cheshire!" I inform politely back; that was a close call. I almost said Naruto Uzumaki, the hyperactive ninja with whisker engravings on his cheeks who hosts the Kyuubi whose name is Kurama.
"Here is your time table and I'll have a teacher show you to your clan room."
"Thank you!" I flash a friendly smile; I saw her smile back and had a lady show me around the school and all my classes, as I had turned up an hour before school starts.
As break had come, and I sat with a bunch of strangers that I met during first period that had just past. A tsunami of questions had hit full force without restraint.
"So, how do you like the school so far?" one boy asked; why does everyone ask soon as they meet a new student who, hadn't even had a proper taste of the school.
"Not that you actually want to taste the school!" Kurama joked and that caused me to actually smile.
"Well, I haven't experience enough of the school to actually make up my mind!" I warn the boys.
"True!" another said.
"Oh right, just a warning, there is this one guy in our grade you need to be on a look out for, he gets into a lot of fights and is a total delinquent. It's easy to pick him out since he has piercings on his ears and growls if you get close" one warned sincerely.
The rest of the break was just listening to them communicate with each other. As the bell rung I headed to my next class silently.
"Naruto… right?" a girl with snow white hair and brown eyes warned.
"Ah yer! Is your hair died?" I blurted without thinking.
"My hair? No. It's easy to tell if someone's hair is naturally that colour is by looking at their eyebrows. If they are the same colour but you can see the colour die than its fake also. But can I ask you something?" she asked kindly.
"Go ahead!" I smile, a look in her eyes told me she didn't believe my mask was real.
"You an artist?" that took me by surprise.
"Ha?"
"The foxes on your book are drawings, I'm wondering if you drew them" she elaborated.
"Haha, yer I drew them, but I can only draw foxes nothing else!" I warn.
Of course I draw foxes, as my only real friend is my demon fox.
"Doesn't matter! Can you draw one in my book? Cause they look really cool!" she warned pulling a mirroring smile.
"Sure! Ah, won't I get in trouble!" I got a really uneasy feeling around this girl, and she was pissing me off with the fake smile.
"The teacher in here doesn't care" she warned. I found a page to draw on and as I drew my little fox pup, I noticed she had found a picture in my drawing book that I gave her permission to look through.
"Slowly sinking into darkness, no matter how hard you try, the only way out is for someone to save you. But the deeper you are the more chance they will be imprisoned too. So smile and deceive everyone into believing that nothing is wrong!" was what was written above the drawing of a figure, surrounded in darkness with a smiling white mask in hand.
"Nice drawing!"
"Ha? Ah! Did you read that?" I asked nervously.
"Ah yer, sorry!"
"No, no! It's fine but please keep quiet about it. It's embarrassing!"
"Don't worry! I won't tell, it will be our secret."
"How do I know you'll keep it?"
"I'll prove myself; you know my dad told me a secret about my mum! But I am not telling cause it's a secret! I swear on the next man's life I won't tell!" she warned playfully.
"Next man's life? Can't trust yourself to keep a secret?" I smirk.
"I can, but why should I throw my life away for something so pointless, I'd put my life on the line for my family. But! Something as simple as a promise over something so plain, I wouldn't. So hence the comment on the 'next man's life'" she smirked.
"I'll keep that in mind, hope you don't mind if I borrow that statement!" a playfully comment to keep a smile on her face. It was painful looking into such an empty face.
But I also envied that fact she could express it, while I hid the emptiness behind the disgusting mask.
"Go for it!" the warm smile shone.
"What's your name?"
"Kylie! By the way Naruto. It's nice to meet you, and I hope we get along mate." She seemed more, what's the word?
"Lively?" Kurama purred. "Thanks Kurama!" She's livelier, that fact I draw seemed to catch her attention quite a bit; not to mention the bizarre thoughts and stories that are written along with the picture.
Days always merge together as time endlessly passes.
"Kurama! Help me! Please! I want to get out of here!" he roars crying.
"It's ok kit, let me take over! Everything is going to be alright!" the great fox hums in order to calm my ninja self-down.
"I don't want to face the villagers anymore. I want Sasuke to just die! And Sakura to just get caught by an enemy nation and tortured to death!" he sobbed.
I could feel the tears well up in the corners of my eyes as laid in my bed that morning.
"Naruto, I promise everything will be fine. Jariya will free us from this dump for two and a half years. By then you will be strong enough to endure with them. Sasuke already left for that traitor. And for Sakura, we'll rend her useless so she can't hurt you anymore!" the fathering and caring fox warns petting his head.
I felt the burnings tears stream down my face, just watching it through my dreams. What's wrong with me? Crying over a dream of another version of myself crying!
I try to pull myself together but as the heart broken ninja self is comforted by the fox; as I watch through his eyes, inside his mind of solitude, the storm of bitter and heartless words from the pink haired devil, squizzed my heart.
It hurt, it really did; twisted words from not only her but everyone from the village.
Twisted, cruel words that not only crushed Naruto Uzumaki's heart, that had already broken long ago, but also my own.
"But Sakura! I didn't do it! It was that brat that killed him!" Uzumaki desperately begged to the demon female who was glaring down at him.
On the outside, he wore an honest look as he kept himself together.
"DON'T LYE NARUTO! I know you hated Konohamaru. YOU'RE A BLOODY MONSTER! YOU KILLED HIM FOR NO REASON!" she yelled, that caused a wall as high as the sky of booing and horrid comments voiced at an unbearable volume.
"SHUT UP!" the load roar caught everyone's attention and silenced the crowd of monsters in the form of humans.
"Ko-no! KONOHAMARU!" the blond ninja shouted.
"Naruto didn't kill me! I used shadow clone Jutsu that he taught me, the enemy tried to kill me and Naruto was paralysed by poison!" the small brown haired boy yelled.
"Ha! The nine tailed fox reincarnation got paralysed? WHAT A LAUGH! HE PROBABLY JUST STOOD THERE SO HE COULD WATCH ANOTHER VILLAGER FALL FOR AMUSMENT! Wake up Konohamaru! He's nothing but a demon. He just didn't do anything just so he could watch you die!" Kiba snarled.
"Is that so? Well obviously you're WAY too happy for watching a comrade fall." This had caught every living soul's attention to fall upon the blond, with bright glowing red eyes and the marks that decorated his cheeks darker and thicker.
"Did you know the ONLY reason you have the 5th Hokage was because of Naruto? You know that out of EVERY HUMAN in this fucking village; the only HUMANE person is Naruto! Well just so you know. We're leaving, good luck protecting your worthless village without your greatest weapon as other village's send their weapons out to kill you all!" the noble Kurama warned calmly.
The crowd froze as the killer intent drowned them mercilessly before in a flash the boy disappeared along with the intent of the gruesome deaths of all.
Kurama made with haste to seal all of Naruto's gear within scrolls and left towards the Hokage monuments. The boy's body turned into a more suitable form for the user.
In the shape of a stealthy orange adult fox, the body containing the two souls ran as fast as it could.
"Naruto! Time to get up!" I heard mum yell.
This pulled me out of the nightmare at an alarming rate.
I felt the transparent liquid still leaking from my eyes, rubbing them away I left my super warm bed for the freezing air, that stirring outside of my bed's warmth.
"Morning Naruto!" a warm hum danced through my ears followed by a kiss on the cheek.
"Morning mum, you got work till late again?" I asked as I dug into my food.
"Yes, I'll be home around 8 tonight, oh and your father is working to 10 tonight." As she affirmed this statement my blond haired dad sheepishly dragged himself into the kitchen.
"Morning honey, and how my bright little boy doing?" he asked.
I really loved them, even when I barely saw them they still gave me their mornings instead of sleeping, always seeing me off at the door and wishing me a good day for the lack of not being able to greet me home.
"I'm doing fine!" I warn smiling, I loved them and would never replace them; but sometimes I wish I were Naruto Uzumaki, the orphan boy who had no parents.
I felt lonely as I lacked the support I needed due to their unforgiving work hours. But then again I have them on weekends, he never meet his parents. It kind of, hurts thinking of not having them at all.
"Stop getting all depressed in the morning, you have to leave for school. It's better having parents that at least TRY to make time for you, then not having any at all. Get that stupid thought of not having them is better and BURN IT!" Kurama warned.
"Right, sorry Kurama; well lets go to school!" I tell the demon in my head.
I head out the door with the support of my parents. On my way on my walk to school, crimson red hair had caught my attention as it walked only a few centimetres beside me.
My eyes widened in fear as I froze at the boy before me, the figure had caught me from the side of his eye.
The figure took a glance at me before looking in front before doing a double take.
"KURAMA! I'm not going crazy am I?!" I yell in my mind.
"Well you've been talking to me your whole life, but he seems real! Unlike me!" he warned shocked.
"Naru-to?" he muttered confused; I noticeably squeak as he said my name, which for some random reason made him the psycho from my dreams. He walked up to me and pocked me in the arm.
The next words really caught me by surprise,
"For a hallucination you seem really solid, Naruto" he spoke calmly.
"Ah! How do you, know my name?" I felt myself shrink;
"Naruto Uzumaki, the blond hyperactive ninja from my dreams, hard not to forget."
My eyes widened to god knows how big, saucepans I belief.
"My name is Naruto Cheshire! And may I ask why YOU are doing here Gaara of the sand. If you're going to kill me I'm letting you know now I can't fight!" I yell pointing at him.
It was his turn to look scared.
"Ah, sorry Naruto Cheshire. But I'm not Gaara of the sand, or anything for that matter, it's Gaara Black. But may I ask how you know of my name I go by in my dreams?" he asked.
"Ah…" I was lost for words.
"Just tell him you see him in your dreams!"
Wow, like that won't make me sound weird.
But then again how did he know my other name?
"… ah, in a dream I guess?" I said timidly. His strong hand grasped my shirt and pulled me closer, I felt his hand play with my soft fluffy blond hair before pulling at my cheeks.
"Aw, aw ,aw, AW! Hay that hurts!" I yell,
"Sorry!" he mumbled. "I thought I really went crazy" he stated before he showed a pained expression.
"Is something wrong?" I ask,
"Head ach. Ah! Naruto… do you. Know a demon nine tailed fox?" he hesitantly asked.
"Kurama! Yer! We talk all the time, he's really nice and helps me a lot!" I say at easy.
Why did I just blabbed something that NO ONE knows about?
"Oh… I see; guess you don't mind him. Guess Shukaku is just my problem than" he almost whispered.
"Is he trying to eat your soul still? I know! Maybe Kurama and I can help you!"
"Baka! I can't help that fuck tard Shukaku. But Gaara why don't you keep Naruto company?" I heard Kurama warn, but it sounded different for a voice I made up and make him speak.
Oh no, it sounded like it wasn't inside my head.
"Yep! I really lost it! I knew I shouldn't have gone to sleep because of my insanity. You know what? Fuck it, Kurama right? I take up your offer, if I'm insane I may as well enjoy it while it lasts!" Gaara warned the nothing around us.
"What, what, what! You heard that too?" I asked.
"Yer. So what do you say? Let me sit with you at lunch since we are in the same school?" he asked blankly.
"… What the hell. Sure; I mean sitting with a psychopath in my dreams while Uzumaki constantly wants to kill everyone in the village. Seems like the perfect match, no offence!" I warn.
"None taken, I mean that Gaara is addicted to killing, and since I pretty much him guess that makes me psychotic."
