Chapter 2
Lissa POV
I sit bolt upright in my bed, a stabbing pain in my chest and a pounding headache. My head hurts but it's clear; clear like it used to be, before Rose left. I through off my covers and look for wound of somekind, my shirt feels damp. What I expected to be blood was only sweat. I then realize that The pain in my chest isn't physical, it's emotional. Like my heart has just been ripped out and thrown in the garbage disposable. Like when Christian left. I feel empty inside, I feel nothing. It's like the depression I use to have, but ten times worse.
I lie in bed and try to breath; it only takes a moment to know what's gone wrong. I bolt out of bed and sprint out of my room, door swinging open behind me. I race down the stairs and through open the lobby door. Sunlight assaults my face but I don't care. I run to Adrian's apartment and before I can even knock the door is open. I walk in and he looks me dead in the eye.
"She's gone." He says, his voice is horse and I can tell he's been crying. "I was talking to her the other night and she had marks on her neck. And her aura is completely gone. I didn't know I could feel it, but I guess I could. And now it's just gone…and..and…" he just kept rambling on.
I just fall to the ground. I'm done, I've died. I've died and the last thing I will ever hear is Adrian's rambling. He couldn't stop talking. I was the opposite. I just couldn't find any words; nothing could describe how I felt. It was bad when she was just not in the school. Where there was at least there was a chance of her coming back; but now she is gone forever. I'll never hear her laugh, never hear her sarcastic comments, never have her comforting arms wrap around me, and i'll never get to apologize.
Avery walked in, "hey, ho's! who wants a drink." She says cheerily
"No wants a drink Avery, Rose is gone, just leave me alone." I say dead toned.
"Drinking fixes everything, so come one knock back a bottle and cheer up. Who needs Rose, she left. You have me now, Rose doesn't matter. And hate to break it to ya babe, but she left you months ago- why do you suddenly care now?" She says smiling.
I exploded, "I HAVE ALWAYS CARED. AND SHE DOES MATTER YOU STUPID BITCH! I HAVE LOST EVERYTHING: FIRST MY BOYFRIEND AND NOW MY BEST FRIEND! AND ALL YOU EVER SAY IS THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER!" I was done, I was gone; I had released all this anger that had just been building up and there was no way to stop it, "WELL GUESS WHAT! IT DOES MATTER! IT MATTERS TO ME!"
I'm on my feet now, in her face, screaming. Adrian looks up from his wallowing, and stares. I hate her: hate her for being like the old Rose, hate her for saying she doesn't matter, and I hate her for making me do all of this shit.
Calm down Lissa, I hear her voice in my head, take the bottle and drink until your dead.
It's not my voice... It's Avery's voice. But she didn't speak, i know she didn't.
I gaze dumbfounded into her large eyes. "H-how di-did..?You-you're a spirit user…" I sputter out
All of the pieces are coming together…she faked being an air user, she has been tricking me into drinking, she made me this way..
"Oh look who has half a brain." She says in a sarcastic tone. "Maybe that bitchy Rose girl actually rubbed-"
She never finished that sentence because Adrian slammed a bottle over her head.
"Don't… Call ...my girlfriend ...a bitch." He sputtered out.
She lay on the floor, unconscious and splayed out like a discarded doll. There was a crash outside, Adrian and I turn our heads at the same time and wait.
It's not seconds later, when Reed and Simon come crashing in. they see Avery and then look to us. We're fucked, neither Adrian nor I stand a chance. I've never gotten into a fight; that was Rose's job.
Reed ran at me, he was short but he was strong. He punched me in the stomach and then kneed me in the face. I fell on the ground in pain; it felt like a truck had just hit me. He was walking toward me slowly, deliberately; all the while grinning like a cheshier cat. But the closer he got to me the more alive I felt. I liked the pain, to made me more alert, more focused. I remember how I use to slice my wrist open to feel that way. I don't know what possessed me at that moment; maybe it was years of watching Rose fight or if it was pure instinct.
I kicked out at his legs and he fell to the ground in a heap next to me. I kicked out again and hit him square in the balls. I hoped he was going to pass out. I took the chance to climb on top of him and punch him in the face. Over and over again I struck him; blood from his nose squirting everywhere.
I felt a hand on my shoulder and froze. I turned around slowly and cane face to face with Adrian. I look up into his eyes and then look down at Reed. I punch him as hard as I can one last time, and then I get up.
I look around the now trashed apartment: Avery is still sprawled out on the floor, Reed is nearly dead at my feet, and Simon is in the corner in fettle position gently rocking back and forth sucking his thumb.
I walk to Adrian and let him hold me. My whole world is gone: my best friend is dead, the love of my life hates me, and had been under the control of a psychotic bitch.
The tears are running down my face and I don't try to stop them, just let them flow.
"What am I going to do Adrian? I've lost everything, I have nothing left." The last part came out as a whisper.
Suddenly I'm mad; mad at Avery for controlling me, mad at Christian for dumping me, but most of all….Mad at Dimitri for taking the one person in my life who need me as much as I need her, away from me. I know it was him, he's the only one that could kill her- the only one who she'd let kill her. It's his fault.
"Adrian," I say, "I need you to find me everything you can on Guardian Dimitri Belikov. I need it in two days, ok? Will you do that for me?"
He seemed taken aback by my sudden change in moods, but he just deftly nodded his head.
I was going to find that son of a bitch and finish what Rose couldn't. Unlike her I don't have the ties to that she had. He was going to pay, and it would be by my hand
I'm going to finish this for you Rose, I thought to myself, I promise.
