The october chill soon turned to a winter freeze-over and Mississippi had it's first snow in a long time. Life couldn't get any better as one month soon turned to four.

February 14, 2011 9:27 a.m.

Oh, Diary.

TW and I have been together four months now and I think things are going so great. We fight here and there, as do all couples. I just can't imagine life without him.. I know I loved him before. I love him now even more. In fact, maybe I'm in love with him...

WOAH WOAH WOAH. NO. I do NOT fall in love.

Not that I'm scared or anything... Okay, I lie. I'm scared to death. I think I need to break up with him.. I can't fall in love. Nope, not me.. I can't get my heart broken.. I can't stay with him if I'm going to fall for him.. No way, Jose.

But if I leave him, I'll break HIS heart, won't I?

I know! I'll get him to break up with me!

Diary, i don't want to lose him. It's Valentines day for Christ's Sakes and I'm snuggled up with Gilmore, the GIGANTIC teddy bear he got me for my four month present.. I love him but that's why I need him to leave.. I'm not supposed to fall in love. I'm the cheerful little girl who doesn't give a darn about any guy... I'm not supposed to need one to survive but I know I need him.

I usually spend every waking moment with him, no matter what we're doing or where we are, we're always together but today he said he can't come see me for family stuff. ON VALENTINES DAY,, grrrr!

I can't seem to get enough of him. I love him. NO I DO NOT.

Hold on, Diary, there's a knock at the door.

February 14, 2011 11:35 p.m.

sorry it took so long to come back, darling Diary. You'll never guess who was at the door when I opened it.

It was TW holding a bouquet of red roses and a box of chocolate! How sweet is that? No guy has ever done anything like that for me! I do love him, oh Diary. I truly do. We spent the day curled up on my bed eating the chocolate and watching Titanic. Oh, what a day. We just brought him home but I miss h him already. I'm so happy right now but I still need to figure out the way to get him to leave me!

He said the only way he'd ever leave me was if I cheated.

Diary, I don't cheat. I never have and I don't want to do that ever.

It may be the only way though... In fact, Dean's coming over to hang out this Saturday. He's one of my bestfriend's and Thomas doesn't mind us hanging out together because, well..

He trusts me...

I wish he didn't, Diary.. I wish he would leave me without me having to do something like this.

I'm so scared to love him but I don't want to be scared. I wanna fall for him without having to think twice. I want to spend the rest of forever with him...

I wish I were good enough for him but I'm not. So, lucky you, Dean..

No, I will not go that far, if that's what you are thinking. I don't do stuff like that.. I'll only kiss Dean. Nothing more. That would be disgusting.. I don't see Dean like that. Yuck.

TW is calling.. Goodnight, Diary.