Hey guys! First of all, I would like to apologize for the grammatical errors I have made (or will make) because I'm not from an English speaking country, and I've never had any English course or anything so yeah. And I'm sorry if my choice of words confuse you, I'm doing my best in this. And fyi, due to my busy schedule (I'm in senior year of high school, so…) I'll only be updating every 10 days. That doesn't even make sense but yeah. 10 days. Please leave some reviews as it helps me a lot. Thanks for reading! :]
"I love you." Rachel and Blaine said together. They looked at each other, puzzled.
"I.. I mean, I still can see myself marrying Kurt some time later and have adorable babies, and Kurt would dress them beautifully and I would take them to concerts and watch Katy Perry sing, and we would just grow old together and watch them grow into legends and all, but I don't know. I just love you more than I love Kurt.."
"Blaine.. I.. I gotta go." Rachel grabbed her purse and rushed out of the crowded Lima Bean. Blaine ran after her. He grabbed her hand and turn her to look at him.
"Rachel, don't make me look stupid here. I heard you saying I love you. Don't just run away leaving me feel like an idiot for having said all those things." Blaine said shakily. His hand was still on Rachel's, not willing let her go.
"I feel the same way.." a tear slowly fell from the corner of her eye, down through her reddish cheek. "But I don't know what this is. I just hate not knowing what I feel. This isn't the kind of love that Finn and I had, Puck and I had, Jesse and I had, or you and Kurt have. And-" Rachel started to cry. Blaine let go of her hand and wiped away her tears.
"Me too. We'll figure this out." Blaine opened his arms and hugged Rachel tight. He knew that things are going to start to be complicated sooner or later.
Blaine and Rachel walked to the parking lot hand in hand. They didn't say anything. They felt guilty for loving someone more than they love their partners, but they just felt like it was the right thing to do. To love each other. The bond that they have was something they knew is special. They got into the car, and Rachel drove them home. When they arrived, Hiram saw his sobbing daughter.
"What happened, sweetie?" Rachel hugged her dad.
"Blaine, what did you do? What happened?" he asked. Blaine shook his head.
"Oh, no, daddy, it's not Blaine." she said as she pulled away. "Blaine, can you give us a second?"
"Sure." Blaine mouthed as he ran upstairs and locked himself in his room. He didn't know what to do.
"Do you want to talk about this? Should I call Leroy too?" Hiram asked as he lead Rachel to their kitchen. He made a hot cup of chocolate and handed it to Rachel who was sitting before the kitchen island.
"Yes." she said quietly as she took a long sip of her chocolate.
"LEROOOOY! COME DOWN HERE!" he shouted. Rachel smiled. She knew exactly how crazy her daddy could be when he sees her crying.
"Whaaa uppp?" Leroy yawned. "Rachel? Is that you? Are you crying? Oh my dear God, what on earth have happened to you? Where is Blaine? Did you see Finn? Did Blaine hurt you? Did-"
"Geez, Leroy. Calm down. Sit down." Hiram said as Rachel giggled.
"Now why are you laughing?" Leroy said as she pulled a chair and put it next to where Rachel was sitting.
"Sssssh! Now, sweetie, tell us what bothered you." Rachel sighed.
"Blaine and I went to McKinley today. We went to the auditorium and we sang Endless Love. I guess it just sort of happened like that. And I felt something. Something that Brody and I don't have, something that he and Kurt don't have, and even something that you daddies don't have." She looked down and started to spin her cup. "And at the Lima Bean, he confessed that he had the same feeling."
Hiram looked at his husband, trying to tell him something. Leroy looked up. He caught what Hiram was trying to tell him. They were worried.
"What is it, dads?" Rachel said as her dads exchanged worried look.
"N.. nothing. We're just worried that he's-"
"Confused. Yes. We're afraid that he's confused again." Leroy said cutting his husband. He didn't want him to say what wasn't supposed to be said. They needed proofs.
"So what should I do?" Rachel frowned.
"We'll figure it out. For now, you just need to calm down and let things be the way nature wants them to be. Go with the flow, and the truth will come to you eventually." Leroy said. It put a smile on Rachel's face.
"Yeah, I guess." Rachel yawned. "I'm tired. I'll take a shower then I'll come down for the karaoke."
"You can use our Jacuzzi if you want to. It'll help you relax a bit." Hiram said.
"Thanks, dad. I'll see you in a few." Rachel said as she ran up to her bedroom and then to her dads' to take a bath.
"We need more proofs." Leroy said after making sure Rachel was already out of reach.
"But for goodness sake, Leroy, it's that much obvious! Blaine is-"
"I need to make a call." Leroy said, once again cutting Hiram in the middle of his speech.
Meanwhile, in his room, Blaine walked around like a worried dad-to-be. Usually, he would turn to Rachel when he's faced to situations like this. But not for now. He didn't have anyone to talk to. He looked at his watch. It showed '4.40 pm'. He remembered what one of Rachel's dads said that morning, that they would have karaoke before dinner. He took a quick shower and ran down to the living room. It was empty. He glanced at the clock above the warm fireplace and it was 5.10. He walked over to the karaoke machine and looked at the CD collection. He found a Bob Dylan CD and put it on the player. He took the microphone and closed his eyes as the music started to play.
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
Rachel who had just finished taking a bath peeked from behind the living room door. She saw Blaine singing wholeheartedly and secretly sang herself.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there when you dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
She hid behind the door, not wanting to be heard by Blaine. She peeked in again and she was glad he didn't realize that she was there.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I will never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
There's no doubt in my mind where you belong
Rachel sang along with Blaine who was looking at the window blankly.
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
Blaine turned around to see Rachel walking in as she finished the note. He smiled at her.
To make you feel my love
Blaine sang the part as he walked over to Rachel and handed her a microphone. They looked at each other and continue to sing the next part.
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
Down on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
Rachel smiled.
I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
Blaine finished the part as he felt a hand grabbing his.
To make you feel my love
Blaine and Rachel ended the song. They turned around to see Rachel's dads clapping cheerfully.
"Bravo!" Hiram shouted. "No wonder-"
"No wonder Broadway loves you guys! Sing again!" Leroy said as he stepped on Hiram's foot, giving him a keep-the-secret look. He walked over to the karaoke machine and put on another song for them to sing. "Hiram and I are gonna get some snacks." He said as he took Hiram's hand and pulled him to the kitchen.
"What did I tell you you needed to do? Do not say a word until we get more proofs!"
"What the hell did you think I was going to say? I was going to say the exact same thing as what you told them! Geez, take a chill pill, will you?" Hiram said as he walked out of the kitchen with a big bowl of buttery popcorn. Halfway, he stopped and turned around. "And stop cutting me!"
In the living room, Rachel stood still. Blaine's hands were on her waist, slowly swaying to the soft sound of the music. Rachel smiled upon realizing the notes. It was the song she wrote. Regionals, 2010. It was the song that she wrote after Finn chose Quinn over her. The pain came all over again and stabbed her right through her heart. But the image of Brody reminded her of how lucky she was to have broken up and moved on from Finn. Blaine slowly pulled away, bringing Rachel back to reality. She took a deep breath and started to sing.
What have I done?
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
How many times will it take for me to get it right?
Can I start again?
With my faith shaken
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
How many times will it take for me to get it right?
So I throw up my fist
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send out a wish
And I'll send out a prayer
Then finally someone will see how much I care
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
How many times will it take to get it right?
To get it right…
The song ended. A tear rolled down Rachel's face. She quickly wiped it away and smiled, bowing down to her now excitedly clapping dads. Blaine smiled to her and clapped calmly. Rachel smiled back before excusing herself to sleep. She kissed her dads' cheeks and ran up to her bedroom. Blaine wanted to go after her, but her dads insisted that he should stay for another song. Hiram scooted over closer to Blaine, sandwiching him between Leroy and himself.
"Blaine, can I ask you something?" Hiram asked. Blaine looked at him nervously.
"Sure."
"When you were living here, in, what was that? Westerville?" Blaine nodded. "Huh, right. Did you live with your parents?"
"Umm… No. My parents sort of kicked me out of the house by getting me into Dalton. I haven't seen them since my first day in Dalton.." Blaine said, looking at the ground blankly. "Why do you ask, if I may know?"
"Nothing, we were just wondering. You never talked about your parents before, so." Hiram said.
"I don't want to talk about them anymore." Blaine said as he stood up and ran upstairs. Nobody has ever asked him about his parents before, so he wasn't prepared. He didn't want anyone to know about his past. He was upset. He ran into Rachel's bedroom instead of his. He opened the door to find her crying.
"Rachel? Are you okay?" Rachel nodded. "According to Finn, you have four different kinds of crying. Which one is it now?" Rachel giggled. She signaled Blaine to come in and sit next to her. "I want to talk to you."
"About what?"
"Rachel, please. You know we need to talk about this."
"We already did." Blaine frowned. He really wanted to talk to Rachel, but he didn't have any reason to. He then decided to tell Rachel what he was thinking about.
"Umm. I'm just wondering. Your dads have been so curious about me. Why is that so?"
"I don't know, they have been really awkward too when it comes to you. I guess that's just a part of protecting me? I don't know though."
"Maybe."
"Well, we should rest now, Quinn just called me and she wanted to meet us in Breadstix. Do you, uh, want to sleep here?" Rachel asked as she bit her lower lip. She wanted Blaine to sleep there with her, because he could always make her feel comfortable. But she didn't want him to know about that.
"Will you be okay with that?"
"Sure!"
The next morning, a loud alarm went off. Both Rachel and Blaine were forced to wake up. Blaine turned the alarm off as he blinked and looked around. He didn't remember setting the alarm last night, and he knew it wasn't Rachel because he knew she never set an alarm on holidays.
"Blein? Izz thaa haus on faaia?" [Blaine? Is the house on fire?] Rachel yawned. She threw the pillow that was covering her face. She sat on the edge of her bed, trying to spot a clock, or something that could show her what time it was. "Blaine?" she shouted.
"In the bathroom!" he shouted. "Did you set the alarm last night?" he asked as he walked over to Rachel with a wet face.
"Use my towel. Nope, did you?" Rachel said as she walked to her bathroom and washed her face. As soon as she finished, she walked outside and handed Blaine her small pink towel.
"No. Only Kurt would wake up this early." He said as he scanned the room to find his phone. "It's freaking seven in the morning on a Sun-" he paused. He saw 'Kurt Hummel' flashed on his phone. He unlocked his phone and he saw three missed calls and five text messages from Kurt.
10.02 pm
Blaine! Guess where I am right now.
10.05 pm
It's okay if you don't want to know.
10.10 pm
Answer my caaaaaaall. Where are you?
10.13 pm
Are you sleeping?
10.20 pm
I'll take that as a yes. Okay then. I love you too.
Blaine smiled whilst reading his boyfriend's text messages. They could always make him smile in every situation. Rachel saw Blaine smiling to his phone. She knew it was Kurt's texts. Blaine only smiles when he gets texts or phone calls from Kurt. She checked her phone if Kurt texted her too, but he didn't. There was only one text from Brody.
10.20 pm
Rachel, I'm so sorry for not contacting you, this thing is taking my time! I haven't even slept since Saturday.. But I'll be home soon, I can't wait to see you! Love you xx
Rachel didn't reply Brody's text. She didn't want to disturb him who most probably was still sleeping at that hour. She looked over at Blaine.
"Do you want some coffee?" Rachel asked. She put her pink slippers on and walked to the doorway.
"Yeah." Blaine said as he put his phone back on the top of Rachel's make up table. He walked right behind Rachel.
"Kurt must have texted you last night."
"How did you know that?" Blaine said as he felt his cheeks blushing.
"You only smile at your phone when he texts or calls you." Rachel said. She forced a smile and glanced at Blaine. Blaine chuckled.
"Yeah, it was Kurt. I'm guessing he came home last night and nobody was-" Blaine paused in the middle of the stairway. He saw a familiar figure on Rachel's kitchen counter.
"Kurt!" Rachel squealed. She ran downstairs and hugged Kurt.
"Sorry for the alarm." Kurt giggled. He turned to look at Blaine and watched him as he walked over to him. "Good morning, sleepy head." Kurt said as he playfully messed Blaine's curly hair.
"I knew it was you." Blaine giggled as he hugged Kurt tight. He was missing him so much. He missed the smell of Kurt's hair and his perfume.
"I made you guys coffee. I have also told Quinn that I'll be coming with you two to meet her at Breadstix. I've missed her so much."
"How did-"
"I have eyes everywhere." Kurt grinned. "Now Blainey bear, tell me why were you sleeping with Rachel." Kurt's eyes sharpened.
"It's not like-" Rachel tried to reason, but Kurt shut her up by placing his finger on his mouth.
"I know. I just want to know why he's not as baby-ish as that when I'm around." Kurt grinned ear to ear. He messed Blaine's hair playfully. "I miss you."
"I.. I miss you too." Blaine said awkwardly as he turned over to face Kurt. He really missed him, but there was just something in Rachel's mind that Blaine knew was not right, and he knew that he was the only one who could fix it.
Kurt couldn't help but notice the way Blaine looked at Rachel. He knew they were best friends, and they were extremely close, but he hate not knowing what happened. Especially when it was obvious that they were hiding something.
"I want to take a shower." Blaine and Rachel said in the exact same time. They looked at each other. Blaine glanced at Kurt who was giving them his signature 'what-the-hell' look. They knew that they had to tell him about everything sooner or later. A suspicious Kurt was not something they knew they could easily handle.
