After eight hours, I was over it, no scratch that after 2 hours I was over it, not only that where weren't that busy, but not a lot of people knew what I was dressed up as, as a matter of fact the rest of my team members decided to wear animal onesies, since it was winter, the brief at work was to dress as a toy, so I stuck out like dogs balls, (sorry I know I'm crude but yeah nah) but ah well even though I was the only one as a TOY so to speak but I did get a lot of comments.

Wow you made that

You look like a Jedi

Can you make me one?

So the day wasn't a total bust, after another 4 hours of my shift and getting screamed out by a lil 4 year old boy about being a Jedi I was ready for home, there is only so many fake smiles you can put on for the day before you want to smash something, see that's why I cannot be one of those girls, you know blonde LIKE TOTALLY girls, but that's another topic for another time.

Thinking to myself as I walked around the store with the company's animal mascot, that this sucks ass why can't my life be different, they say we are the creators of our own world, our destiny but mine just felt like a rock basically, stuck always in the same dusty old hole, as the world like water flows around me onto bigger and greater destinations.

Luminous beings are we not this crude matter,

Echoed in my head ah the wise old Master Yoda

Sighing as we made our way around, greeting more customers as the mascot bent down and hugged, I zoned out, blank stare behind my blue eyes would've given it away if anyone actually bothered to look me in the eye, but no matter.

5.00pm the clock on the wall showed

Yes I was ready for home, even whipping out some unforeseen dance moves of whip it nae nae in the store, tried the moonwalk but that didn't work.

"Thank the force" I say in a whisper as I sign my name out of the board and computer

Waving and saying goodbye to my fellow team members I was off home

Being winter at 5pm the night sets in early and started to get cold, once again in my outfit walking the streets back to my apartment, again plugged into my Star Wars music, setting the play list on repeat.

Ah living the fantasy, crossing the road of the busy intersection, with the cars now steadily passing me by, giving the odd looks I drift away into my dream as the music once again swims in my ears, John Williams is a master, a creator of emotions told thru the gift of song, every note makes you scream to feel, as I listen I start to fantasize, I often do when I walk with my music.

I wonder what it would be like to be in that world.

In a galaxy far far away...

Would it be fun?

How would I meet and who would I be?

I would love to be a Jedi with a blue or white saber

I wonder what the toilets are like there, yes I know I'm weird randomness has a habit of sinking into my (H/C) brain quite often but going to that world wow

That would be cool

Ah Anakin

I smile at that thought, especially when being able to use the force, now that would be cool, imagine not having to get up to get things, like a beer or a sandwich, yeah I know the force is an amazing thing that you can do so much with and all I can think of at this time is having a beer and a floating sandwich to me, or better yet why walk anyway when you can use the force to float, man at this rate I would be one fat lazy Jedi, ah what else do you expect I'm (H/C) and tired from a long day, thinking back about the random questions from kids today

"Why is your light sabre plastic?" a little boy asks in a timid little voice in front of me as I kneel down on my right knee to his level looking at him in his big brown eyes, softly saying

"that's because I was a lil naughty and I accidentally turned it on at home and burnt a hole in my carpet, my master was not happy, so I had to leave it at home"

"My dad is making me a lightsaber he says I can have a pink one" another little girl says

"Jedi suck, Siths rule" another screams at me in passing a feeling of dread once again washed over me and I felt dizzy, stumbling slightly

Snapping out of my memory of the kids I looked ahead again, the street quite still, light from different shop windows beaming out onto the footpaths illuminating me as I walked past, to then be plunged into the darkness again, funny looks from people as I walk on by,

Yeah they just jealous they wish they could look this cool I thought as I stepped forward

My robe once again bellowing behind me, thinking about that little girl I thought about how I felt while speaking with her, strange as a matter of fact all day, now and then I was overcome with that same feeling, like I was going to be sick, dizzy, one minute and then the next completely fine the next, kind of like PMS but not, hard to describe it almost like a foreboding.

Maybe I need a holiday

Da da da da da da da da da da... The Imperial Death March bellowing into my ears, making me stand taller, making my strides longer, huh funny it's amazing what music can make you do, when every I hear it I think of the sad tale of Anakin Skywalker, his fall from grace, all because of the women he loved, how we have all been there in some point of our life's, well not so much or extreme as going to the dark side of the force but yeah, by the way who ever made up the saying 'its better to have loved then lost, than never to have loved at all' ok I call that big ass BULL SHIT, seriously, I know if you never have loved someone you would always wonder BUT you would or could always imagine or fantasize, falling into and losing love sucks ass, you always crave what you cant have, so that saying sucks ass, just putting it out in the universe, frowning.

Continuing on my path back to my home, the same path I take day in and day out, stepping still miles away in my own thoughts, the Padawan braid tickling my right side of my neck, not to mention whacking me in the face a few times today how do Jedi do it?

Qui-Gon, Obi-Wan, Anakin, names drift thru my mind

The enigma of Anakin Skywalker

To the dark side for love, he was consumed for it and hell swallowed him hole, his soul gone, I couldn't help but feel sad for him, wouldn't it be cool to know this and change his fate, even though it was a movie, created by one of the best story tellers of all time, it was a story that you couldn't help but go involved with, so many theories of his fall and how to stop it I've read over these years

Such where my musings that I didn't realise that I was now heading down the wrong street, the wrong way, an unfamiliar street, my legs still moving but I could not feel, still wrapped up in my mind as the music changed Across The Stars once again playing, the love he felt for Padme.

"I wish I could have that. Feel that"

I whisper out loud to the night, to no one but the stars as my witnesses

Snapping out of my thoughts, to once again the feeling of dread in my guts looking around I realised where I was, well where I was not, ummm.

"Where am I" I whisper out

Looking around, I was standing in a park, no not a park more like a clearing I think, it was dark all round, a small path I was on, I don't think I have seen this, I mean I haven't lived in this area all my life but you would think I would of remembered if I lived next or nearby to a park, the sound of water flowing in the distant caught my ears silence all around otherwise.

"What the" I say holding out my hand, looking down at my MP3 player, it wasn't going, it was a moment ago this is weird; my ear buds have disappeared also?

Wind whips around me suddenly, my robe flicking out behind me like a cape, grabbing it and wrapping it around me I shudder.

"what is going on" I say again to know one, looking around, darkness black like oil, only a small amount of the moonlight seeping down as the cloud above me ghosting over it hiding it from the worlds

Just giving me enough time to check out my surroundings, yes I'm in a park, grass with trees all around

How did I get here?

"come to think about it where are the houses" I say looking around again, nothing just trees, looking behind me I see where I could of come from, nothing, just trees bushes no opening, I would of had to walk thru some foliage to get here, yet I remember nothing? How long had time passed as I came her minutes or hours I could not tell you?

Sighing I close my eyes and open again slowly

"This is just a dream it has to be"

I don't remember getting here; I don't remember walking thru the forest argh

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON"

I scream at the top of my lungs, my eyes closed, fists now at my sides clenched

Tilting my head back as I do this, my eyes watering from the cold, my breath hanging in the air, if I don't do something soon I will freeze, I just want to go home.

Tilting my head forward once again opening my eyes I notice in the distance, a single lamp post, weird

Was that there before?

"How odd", the thought of Mr. Tumnus in the lion witch and the wardrobe, pops into my head, it fascinated me as I child, going into another world, musing on this

Once again that feeling washes over me, that sick agonising feeling I've had all day, but this time, it was worse, a feeling of white hot fire screaming from my gut, grabbing my stomach I sink slowly to my knees.

"ARGH" I scream out, clenching my teeth together, I guess this is what it feels like to be shot or stabbed, looking down at my outstretched hands I noticed where clean, and empty now no MP3 player

Tears rolling down my checks, god I'm such a girl, but, pain

"SHIT" I scream out to the night

"SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE" I continue, nothing

[Khara Matha Khara Rath Amah] echoes out into silence cold night

Duel Of Fates opening line, the hairs on my neck and arms stand up, goose bumps form, I don't like this, where is this music coming from I can't stop it.

"ARGH" screaming out as the notes pound into my head, bile rising into my throat as I lift my left hand from the stomach to my head pressing hard, fingers gripping my hair, squeezing my eyes shut, breaths gasping

"GET UP"

"What who said that" I responded to the voice, it's sounded familiar

"GET UP NOW"

I scream again

Looking around I was still alone

The pain in my stomach intensified, lying down on my side clutching once again my stomach, my head just off the ground, curling into a half ball, the grass, wet with dew from the night air sinking into my clothes, feeling the chill on my skin.

"GET UP"

It screams again in a rough accent I could not place,

"Who's there please, help me"

"I AM BUT YOU HAVE TO GET UP"

It screams again

"GET TO LIGHT"

"Well that's bloody cliché" I hiss threw my teeth, god this pain, will it stop, I thought cramps where bad argh.

"And walking to the light, yeah nah" I try and sarcastically say back, my voice cracking in between words

"(Y/N) GET UP AND GET TO THE LIGHT NOW, IT'S THE ONLY WAY"

My breath hitches, he knows who I am, oh my lanta I have gone nuts, that or this dream has just gotten weird, really weird

"Who are you?"

"WHO I AM IS NOT IMPORTANT YOU MUST GET UP AND GET TO THE LIGHT NOW (Y/N)"

This must be a dream I think as I lift my head slightly looking back at the lamp post its dull orange glow illuminated a small circle around its base, my vision blurring, squeezing my eyes shut opening again, the music still pounding in my ears getting faster, looking at the lamp I notice something at the base, glowing pulsing.

Like a (F/C) LED light

[Khara Rath Amah Yuddha Khara]

"what the hell is that" I say slowly lifting up to my knees, every fibre every cell in my body screaming at me to walk towards it, but my head and heart screaming at me to stop.

Breathing heavily I get up onto shaky legs

[Khara Syada Rath Amah Dai Ya]

[Khara Ki La Dan Ya]

"THAT'S IT NOW WALK"

"ok weird dude who might be all in my head" I say back god I have lost my mind, walking forwards slowly, my body tired, like trying to drag a wet carpet behind me, stumbling forward I trip, the ground coming up to meet me

Hitting the grass with a thud, not a nice experience