Similarities
A/N: Thanks to all those who reviewed, followed etc. I was really worried you wouldn't like it so I was pleasantly surprised! Anyway this chapter is the one that starts the actual storyline about Kensi's past and leads up to the more horrorish (I don't think this is actually a word) side of the story. Also from now on my chapters will be a lot longer too so I hope you enjoy it! Oh and I made up the name Mackenzie Grigory.
Title: You're Not Who He Made You
Chapter: 2
Rating: T
Summary of this chapter: Kensi and Deeks attend a neighbour's pool party when someone comments on how much 'Nicole' (Kensi) looks like Mackenzie Grigory, a girl who mysteriously died in a bomb ten years ago. Deeks get suspicious when Kensi reacts strangely to the comment and the person who made the comment.
Disclaimer: I do not own the show or these characters…if only
9:57am the next morning
Well so waking up was a little awkward. Kensi was sprawled out across the bed, which was no surprise considering she had woken up in the same position since the op had started. What was surprising however, was who she was sprawled out on. Deeks. Of course. Urg!
"Deeks! Wake UP! Your hand is on my boob!" Kensi whispered pushing at Deeks chest while squirming out of his hold. "Stupid… Friggin… I specifically said no fiddly fingers! So what does he do?" She continued to mutter to herself as she got out of the bed and was about to throw a cushion at him when she remembered that the camera in the light would be able to catch it seeing as it was morning. Better figure out a way to disable that. She thought to herself.
Sighing she went back over the bed and lent down to stick the tip of her pinkie in Deeks left nostril. After a few seconds of wiggling it around Deeks slowly awoke from his slumber, "Mmm… what time is it? And what are you doing?"
"Time to get up! Move it." She replied with an evil smile walking into the walk-in closet.
"That was really an answer but I'll take it and you didn't answer my second question." He called after her, slowly arising from the bed.
"How else was I supposed to wake you up?"
"Well I could think of a few pleasurable ways you could try in the future." He followed her into the giant closet, which was also a room that wasn't bugged.
"In your dreams, Shaggy!" She threw back at him not bothering to turn around to face him, "all the time, princess."
"Gross. Oh and what did I say about fiddly fingers?" This time she turned around to face him arms crossed over her chest. Deeks held his hands up in defence with his eyebrows raised.
"Well first of all that was completely unintentional and second if you're gonna sleep like a starfish –on top of me I might add - snoring in my ear I think I would be worthy of a little something to get me through the night without waking up wanting to jump off a cliff."
"I do not snore!" Kensi took a step closer pointing a finger in his direction.
Deeks just chuckled and replied, "ok you can tell yourself that if it makes you feel better. But from my experience last night you snore like a drunken sailor with emphysema." With that he turned on his heel and walked into the bathroom to brush his teeth.
"Why did you wake me up anyway?" It was barley understandable due to the fact that he had a mouth full of toothpaste.
"I thought I told you the couple in the house with the red roof down the street with the 20 year old daughter Hayley who still lives at home. Anyway they are having a pool party and we are invited." That's when Kensi emerged from the closet in a white bikini only covered by a tiny see through black summer dress. Deeks mouth –covered in toothpaste- dropped at the sight and he just stood there speechless. Even though Kensi was facing away from him she knew he was staring.
"Stop staring at me it's creepy."
"I'm not star- I just think.. you know that outfit is working for you." He defended but was cut off, "ok quit while you're ahead, now get dressed or whatever, we have to be there in like 20 minutes. I'm pretty sure Sarah said 10:30. I'll be down in the kitchen if you need me."
10:24am At the Milligan's house
"Hi. We're glad you could make it! Come over and meet my brother Nick." Sarah greeted both of them politely before dragging both of them towards a tall, lean, brown haired man. Kensi immediately stopped at the sight of the man.
"Princess? Hey, are you alright?" Deeks asked putting an arm around her waist and slightly squeezing reassuringly. This brought Kensi out of her daze and she just nodded nervously.
"Um.. I'm sorry I think I'm about to be sick so I think I might just go home, I'm so sorry." She said nervously her eyebrows furrowed together. But it was too late as soon as she was about to turn around Nick was already walking up to them.
"Hey I'm Nick, nice to meet you." He introduced as he outstretched his hand to greet them. Deeks shook his hand but Kensi just stood there trying not to have a panic attack. It's ok, it's been seven years, and since the accident you now have a black eye and you had to have your nose reconstructed he won't recognise you. Just act calm and walk away. She thought to herself, she knew Deeks had sensed something was wrong as soon as she said she needed to go home.
"I'm sorry guys but Nicole here isn't feeling well. Morning sickness." Kensi immediately turned to look at him in surprise.
"Oh, congratulations. Well we better not keep you then, I know what it's like. Maybe next time you could stay. Be sure to rest well and keep eating." Sarah said rubbing Kensi's arm sympathetically. She then turned and walked back over to the party.
"What was that about?" Deeks looked down at Kensi with concern filled eyes.
"Nothing. I just really wanna go home." She was already scurrying back towards the house at a speed that made Deeks jog to catch up to her.
When they got back to the house Kensi immediately went to the stairs but was stopped by Deeks' grasp. Shrugging it away, she turned to face him but still didn't look into his eyes. Seeing Nick brought back terrifying memories. Memories she wasn't willing share with anyone.
"What's going on?"
"Nothing, I just want to go lay down. I told you I feel sick." She tried to turn again but Deeks held his grip on her shoulder and brought her in to a hug.
"Ok first, you never admit you're sick it's always a fight to get you to see the doctor and second you were absolutely fine until you saw that Nick dude." Deeks whispered into her ear. The shiver that ran through her body when he said Nick didn't go past Deeks, if anything it made him squeeze her tighter.
"I'm fine, now just let it go!" She responded harshly pulling out of his arms and walking up the stairs ignoring the cameras. Just when Deeks finally thought that he had pulled down her walls he realised that they were only the outside layer. There was still plenty more layers to go.
He just couldn't understand why she acted so…so…scared by this Nick guy. Figuring he should give her some space he sighed and wandered over to the couch to watch some good old TV to get his mind off things. Of course, it didn't help.
3 hours later 1:40pm
Kensi had been lying in bed wide awake for what felt like forever, just thinking. She wanted to explain everything to Deeks but she couldn't. She just couldn't. For two main reasons, the first was that she was worried he would treat her different after knowing what she went through, the second was that she just wasn't ready to share her past with him or anyone for that matter. She thought that when she had been free she would never have to be reminded of what her life was like. She was wrong.
Remembering she was undercover and she needed to stop hiding she got up and walked downstairs to find Deeks. Sure enough he was sitting on the couch with his chin resting on his hands and his elbows on his knees watching TV. She sighed quietly to herself and went and sat next to him on the couch, close enough so that their thighs were touching. Deeks didn't even realise she was in the same room until he felt the weight of the couch go down next to him.
"Hey Nicole, how do you feel?" Deeks words stung a little, he was clearly annoyed that Kensi wasn't confiding in him which only added to the current guilt she felt. But he quickly regretted it as he saw the slight flash of pain in her eyes.
Kensi forced a smile and answered, "Much better now, although I am hungry."
Deeks chuckled at this. Typical Kensi, eats like an elephant and never puts on any weight.
"Well that's no surprise. You're always hungry."
"Excuse me? What is that supposed to mean?" By then she was already turned so she was facing him with one eyebrow raised.
"Nothing. It means absolutely nothing. What do you want to eat?" Deeks defended getting up and walking towards the kitchen, Kensi in tow.
"I dunno, anything." She walked up behind Deeks and snuck her arms around him from behind, only for their cover. No other reason. She thought to herself. Deeks sighed and turned in her arms, wrapping his around her also and resting his chin on the top of her head. He was still annoyed at her but he could see that she was trying.
"I think we should order pizza." Kensi mumbled into Deeks chest after a minute of silence.
"Pizza? Really? It's like 2 o'clock." Kensi just grinned and he could tell she was up to something.
"Well it must just be pregnancy cravings." She said continuing on with his story from earlier. Deeks laughed aloud and shook his head making his way to the phone. Deep down a part of him wished it was true, but he just pushed that tiny part down and ignored it.
1 hour later
"That was soooo good!" Kensi moaned leaning back into the couch her hands resting on her belly, "and to top it off I'm going to go run a bath. To Deeks' surprise when she stood up she turned and put her hands out towards Deeks. Obviously wanting him to follow so that they could talk in private. He smiled and latched on to her hand and dragged her up to the stairs.
What surprised him more was when they reached the bedroom she stopped him before kissing him and jumped up into his arms wrapping her legs around his waist. He caught on quickly and kissed her back and walked them into the bathroom where he immediately pulled away and dropped her onto her feet.
"What did you wanna talk about?"
"Huh?"
"Well why else would you lead me up to the bathroom when you specifically said you were going to have a bath?" He just stared at her, not in the mood for playing her games. If she didn't trust him enough to tell him about whatever was bothering her then she would have it her way. He was sick of always chasing after her.
"Oh… um… we really need to find a way to get that camera gone from our bedroom." She turned and walked over to the bath and turned on the taps because the towel from the night before had fallen off of the bed head the listening device was back in order.
"I'll call Eric now. Don't worry I will sit here facing this way until you finish." He announced as he walked over to the basin and sat of the edge so that he was facing the wall.
10 minutes later
Without turning around, Deeks explained to Kensi the plan of how to get rid of the camera in their bedroom. "Eric is going to short out the bulb, so we have to change it. The camera in actually inside the bulb so any normal person wouldn't have noticed it."
"You can turn around now I'm covered by bubbles."
Still unsure if he would be able to handle to see his partner in a bathtub or not he slowly turned around to flinched and spun back around. Nope bad idea.
"Uh, yeah I'm just gonna face this way, I think. Yep."
Kensi just chuckled at his response, eyes still closed. She appeared to be relaxed but all she could think about was Nick. What if he recognised her? What if she tells Deeks and he never thinks of her the same? What if he doesn't forgive her for not telling him such a big, horrible part of her life?
About 10 minutes of silence passed before Kensi decided to talk, "I'm sorry." That was it.
Deeks turned around now instantly regretting it. She was covered in bubbles so he couldn't see anything but he could see enough to know that she was naked.
Playing dumb he asked, "For what?" she glared at him before sighing and standing up. She stood up slow enough that Deeks' had enough time to turn around quickly.
"Wow… ok…that just happened."
Kensi ignored him, drying herself, once dressed she walked back out and into the living room. It took Deeks at least 5 minutes to regain himself before he walked out of the bathroom. He found Kensi curled up on the couch watching 'cops' reruns. He had to admit she looked so adorable with her legs curled up underneath her with her head resting on the arm of the couch. He could see that the same thing was bothering her by the worry in her eyes and he felt guilty for being so harsh.
As Deeks sat down next to her he gripped onto her shoulder and guided her down so her head was in his lap and she was tense at first but slowly relaxed as he threaded his fingers through her hair. It wasn't long before he heard her sigh in contentment, looking down he saw that she was already asleep.
She had been asleep for a good 3 hours when she started getting restless. She was having a nightmare. Deeks didn't notice at first because he had fallen asleep too but he did wake up however when she started shaking. Deeks tried to wake her but she kept squirming in his lap, no matter how hard he shook her she just wouldn't wake up and her shaking was become much more intense. His last resort was to lift her up into a sitting position. It worked but she woke with a small squeal and a terrified look on her face, tears in her eyes.
It was in that moment that Deeks felt his heart fall out his butt at the look she had but it was also then that he realised this was much bigger than he thought and sooner rather than later she needed to tell him what the hell was going on.
It was a strange and horrible sight to see Kensi Blye crying in Deeks arms but he held onto her tight without saying anything but reassuring words. At the moment Deeks didn't care about the cameras or anything but his partner. After a few minutes she stopped crying (thank god Deeks didn't know how much more he could take) and looked up at him with sad eyes.
"Come to bed." Well that wasn't what he had expected but he followed without a word.
Once in the bedroom Kensi turned the light off so that the camera didn't pick up anything and went over to the bedhead and crushed the listening device not even caring how suspicious it was to the people who were listening.
She crawled into bed after Deeks and snuggled close so his chest was firm against her back similar to their position last night. Deeks flung an arm around her waist to hold her secure. That's when she spoke, her voice hoarse with emotions.
"I need to tell you something."
Well that's it for that chapter! Hope you guys enjoy it. Thanks again to those who reviewed, followed and favourited, it means a lot to me considering this is my first fanfiction that I have actually published. I will update within a week!
-Meaghan xxxx
