So! By popular demand, I added a bit more to this story. It was either that or be virtually killed! Anyway, for now it will just be this chapter and probably a third one, not sure though. Now, one was basically to give an inside look at Robin and how did he feel about the whole thing. If there is a third, it will be with them in SB so enjoy.

P.S. I'm amazed at how many reviews, thanks guys! And damn that episode tonight! All that kissing! Ah!

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When Robin first heard from the lips of Snow White herself that Regina has been seen taking a walk within the perimeters of her castle, he tried not to put much thought into it and more importantly, he did his best so that the fact that she went into hiding by choice would not affect him.

Why should he waste even more of his time thinking about her and her motives anyway? He has done too much wondering as it was and he couldn't allow to fall victim to the same trap once again.

No, now than more than a few months have gone by since the day she left him, she had become nothing but a ghost of his past and he just refused to waste a second of his valuable time thinking about her.

So as the casual comment reached him, he tried his best not to give a donkey's ass about the fact that she has decided to show her face after such a long time and he just kept living his life as he only knew how to.

He drowned his mind with taking care of his son, he banned the memory of her from invading his psyche and every single night he forced his body to the limits of exhaustion by helping the Charming's reconstruct their caste so that when the time came for him to go to sleep, he would be too tired to think about her.

He basically put all his efforts into not caring and soon after, the itch taking over his entire being that urged him to go and see for himself that she was indeed fine and out and about faded into nothingness.

True, it took him some time to get there, but once he managed, there was no more lying awake while going back to that dark place she has left him into and no more dwelling in the memory of her. He forced his mind and soul to understand that thinking about her was paving a bitter path that wasn't going to lead him anywhere good and he just… moved on…

Or at least that was what he thought.

But then, out of nowhere something happened and his entire world came crashing at his feet… he saw her.

He saw her, stunning and almighty as always at the Charming's castle of all places and ever since that moment, he has been unable to keep her out of his mind.

Apparently, thinking that he was over her and actually being over her were two entirely different things and that realization made him wonder on why couldn't they just be together.

Not that he had always questioned about that because back to the night he saw her, his first reaction after spotting her has been anger. More than anything, he was mad and bitter about the fact that she left the way she did and seeing her made those feelings resurface.

That anger was the motivation that made him walk after her when she once again ran away from him; but now, a whole fortnight after the encounter, he couldn't help but to question if going after her has been his biggest mistake because anger was nothing compared to a love he didn't want to feel anymore.

Yes, despite everything she put him through, he still loved her. He realized it the moment his eyes found her amidst the crowd; and then to touch her… to hear her talk in that sultry voice he has come to miss so much and as if that wasn't enough, to kiss her lips… it was as if their time apart hadn't even happened and his feelings were as raw as they had been when he woke up with her gone.

Because of that, he was now back to zero and to be completely honest with himself, he didn't know how to crawl out of his hole. He was now reaching rock bottom and he didn't know what to do.

How could he stop sitting in the dark for entire nights while trying to come up with a thousand reasons not to go to her castle and beg her to give him a chance? How to keep the memory of her from haunting his dreams? How could he stop loving her?

Clenching his jaw at the questions invading his mind, the former Outlaw lowered his eyes to his hands and took in a deep breath while feeling aware that by all means he should be doing anything but thinking about her.

But it wasn't like he could help it, she has reduced him into this and even though he had it very clear in his mind that going to her to try to fix everything was practically becoming a mendicant for her love and that he couldn't just go living on the alms of whatever she was willing to give him, the truth was that his heart couldn't understand that.

Swallowing on dry and thinking about how messed up he was, Robin lifted his face towards the horizon and stared at it for a few minutes; but then, as he was finally starting to put his mind in blank, he heard the distinct sound of someone approaching and he automatically got to his feet and turned around.

That's when he saw her, almost as if he had just called her with the power of his thoughts, Regina was now standing there, a few feet away from his whereabouts and staring at him through warm and wide brown eyes.

She looked like a mirage, with her eyes shining into his and the pale light of the moon illuminating her smooth face. Looking at her, there was no doubt on why he has been drawn to her upon first sight… she was beyond beautiful, with her lips, full and promising as sin itself and that air of importance she always carried around, she was definitely a woman to be noticed…

But he has seen more in her than her beauty and what she wanted to portray and he fought hard to make that Regina she hid deep within herself come to the surface and then… then she left.

"Robin." She said, her voice low but firm.

At the sound of her voice, his heart stopped beating for a whole second only to renew its beating with a whole new force. How come she still had that effect on him? Whatever it was, he hated it.

"You really have a lot of nerve coming here." He said, his voice low in his throat; and was his response bitter? Yes, but that was how he was feeling and he wasn't going to hide it to spare her feelings.

"I didn't… I don't want to argue, Robin. I just…" Stopping midsentence, the raven haired ran two fingers along her collar bone and then she went on. "I just want us to talk."

Talk? He snorted and rested a hand to his mouth. Why would they do that? Last time they talked left him emotionally numb, mentally exhausted and the only thing he wanted was to move on from that.

It just… it wasn't like him to feel so beat down and angry and he didn't want to expose how weak for her she has left him; besides, talking to her could only bring more pain and a whole deal of frustration to the table and he didn't want that. But then again, talking to her could give him some sort of closure and after that moving on would become easier.

Maybe that was what he needed… but maybe talking to her when his feelings were so raw and struggling to be let out would end up being another mistake and instead of moving on, he could end up trying to reason with her and the idea of trying things again.

"Alright, go ahead and talk." He ended up saying while folding his arms against his chest.

Now, maybe that wasn't the best idea and if he still had some common sense in him, he should let things die there as he didn't have anything to talk with her. What she did to him was something that he couldn't forget no matter how hard he has tried to and he knew he couldn't have a calm conversation with her without letting her know how bad she hurt him.

Opening her mouth and then closing it back shut, Regina took in a deep breath and then she put her feet in motion. She moved gracefully and smoothly and once she was close she lowered herself down and sat in the same spot he has been sitting in a while ago.

"How is Roland?"

Dropping his hands down and then lifting one up so that he could run his fingers through his short hair, Robin closed his eyes and clenched his jaw. "Do you really care or is this a fake courtesy from your part?"

Lifting her face so that she could look at him, Regina blinked a few times as if she didn't understand what he was saying. "Don't do that. You know I really care about him."

"Well you have a really good way of showing it. Do you have any idea of how many times he asked for you?" And really, he hasn't been the only one wounded up after she left. Roland has been affected by it as well and remembering how the two of them had sat in the same place she was sitting now while hoping for her to show up only made him want to stand strong in his decision of moving on.

At those words, Regina clenched her jaw and moved her face from him so that she could blink a few more times. Robin knew her, he knew her well enough to realize that she was struggling to keep her composure and that was almost enough for him to stop the charade to let her know how he really felt.

But he couldn't, because even though she admitted last time to have some sort of feelings towards him, that wasn't enough to make her want to commit to it fully. No, Regina was never going to let go of whatever it was that was holding her down and he wasn't willing to have her halfway.

Clearing her throat and tilting her head towards the moon, Regina regained her regal semblance. "I'm sorry."

She said and at the apology, Robin just nodded while keeping his face neutral. Oh but even though his face was a stoic mask that gave nothing away, there was a torrent of feelings invading him and making him feel confused.

"Saying sorry isn't going to cut it, Regina."

Snorting bitterly, the former Queen pushed the inside of her cheek with her tongue. "Coming here… to say this, is not easy for me so just…."

"Just what, you want me to tell you that everything is good now because you apologized?" He said, his voice drilling into her brain and making her bite hard on her lips.

She shook her head, but she said nothing and then, before he could stop himself, he started talking things he would have rather keep to himself. "Do you have any idea of how I felt when you disappeared? Or how it was to wake up to find you gone without any explanation whatsoever? Do you even care about the things that went through my mind?"

And oh so many things went through his mind. From her being hurt or captured by the Wicked Witch, to her having someone else and the one he came to fear the most once he found out that she was well and unhurt in her castle, that she has decided that he wasn't good enough for her and thus why leaving without even a 'we are through.'

"I do care, you probably won't believe it but I do care about you and a lot.

Snorting, Robin crouched down close to her and then he shook his head and ran his tongue over his lips. "How can I believe that when you say it without looking at me?"

Blinking for a few seconds and then lifting her face to him, Regina opened her eyes and stared straight into his blue orbs. "I care about you."

"No." He replied at once, his eyes hard on her. "If you really cared you wouldn't have done what you did."

"I do care; it was never a problem of not caring. My problem was that I didn't know how to deal with the way I felt for you; I'm not so good with emotions so I didn't know how to handle it and I… ran."

Her words didn't seem to appease the hardness in his eyes and Regina ended up looking down and away from him. That she was acting like this wasn't at all like her so he guessed that it was really hard for her to come and talk to him.

It made him wonder once again why couldn't they just try to fix everything.

As he thought about it, for a long time they remained like that, the awkwardness of the moment suffocating them… at least until he broke the silence. "And what is this 'way' you supposedly felt for me?"

"It doesn't matter." She said with a shrug.

"Damn it, Regina, you were the one that wanted to talk so don't keep things from me." He yelled, apparently losing all his patience with her.

But still, she said nothing and instead stared off into the sky.

"I just don't get you, I really don't and as much as I try to get a peek into that thick skull of you I just can't. You always shut me out, you always held back and I fucking hated that and here you are, doing it again."

Instead of words, Regina replied with a shake of her head, her hands running along her neck and clutching hard at it.

Robin waited, and when she got to her feet he knew what was coming. "I shouldn't have come here." She said as she started to move away.

That she was leaving made him feel mad so he voiced out what he was feeling and thinking. "Yes go ahead and run, hid in your castle as you've been doing all this time. Very brave of you, Your Majesty."

Swirling on her feet and walking back to him, Regina snarled her lips. "I'm not running."

"Then what are you doing?"

Puffing out a breath, she shook her head. She was struggling, Robin could see it in the way her eyes were wide and moistened and on how her whole body was tense and on the defensive.

"I don't know what to do want me to say, I apologized so take it and be happy with it."

"There's nothing you've said here that could make me happy."

"Then so be it."

'Regina." Grabbing her chin and forcing her face up, he said. He wasn't thinking of resentments' in that moment, he just wanted a peek into the woman that no matter what, had the ability of make him renounce to his senses. "Tell me, even if it is for a second let me know what you have in that head of yours.'

Closing her eyes, she shook her head. "I can't… what I feel for you… I don't want to feel it."

"Why not?" He asked, the vague idea that he was about to start begging her to give into what she was feeling slowly creeping in.

And would that be bad, if he begged? Because all he could see was that in her vulnerable state, pressing on the matter could end up being in his favor if at the end he could end up convincing her on giving in.

Why be proud?

"Why are you so afraid?"

"Because I don't want to lose you. I always end up losing the people I love and I don't want to lose you too. I wouldn't bear it… I wouldn't…." Her voice cracked and she had to take a deep breath, but before she could go on he leaned forward and kissed her full on her mouth.

Regina didn't even try to stop him and instead started to kiss him back and it was just… he wouldn't even know how to explain it, but kissing her felt like the right thing to do and he wouldn't be able to let go even if the Ripper itself came walking through that door claiming for him.

Regina probably felt the same way, he knew because she was kissing him with everything she had, so even though he could taste her salty tears as their lips fused and their tongues melted as one over and over again, he wrapped his arms around her waist, tilted his head to the side and deepened the kiss.

For a while they kissed, then sliding his hands to her hips and pulling her closer, Robin ended the kiss and rested forehead against hers.

"I won't be going anywhere." He said, trying to reassure her.

"You don't know that."

Clearly forgetting everything about moving on, he pulled her even more into him. He wanted her, that was the truth and he couldn't escape it. It angered him that he wanted all of her, but it was what it was.

But maybe it was too late for them, he didn't know; all he knew in that moment was that even though he loved her as much as she angered him, he also wanted all of her or nothing at all.

He couldn't have her halfway…

And that was the reason why he should desist on her. Regina wasn't ready or willing to give it all and he wasn't planning on accepting a portion of everything she had.

"What do you want to do with what you feel?"

"I don't know."

Kissing her forehead, he breathed into her scent. "You know how I feel for you, I shouldn't even feel this way but the fact is that I do. But the thing is that you are not ready to give me what I want because trust me, what I want is everything."

"I can't give you that."

Swallowing on dry and feeling a sense of doom bring him down, Robin nodded. "I know. Just know that if sometime you are ready to give it all, I'll be waiting for you. Until then, goodbye Regina."

With that said, he kissed her cheek and after lingering for a few seconds, he went away.

As he walked away, he wondered if the day would ever come, but little did he know that by the time Regina would make up her mind, it would be too late and that next time they would see each other, they wouldn't even remember who the other was.

TBC?