LET ME BE THE ONE TO LOVE YOU MORE...

This second chapter title obviously refers to the All by myself song that many singers around the world have performed. My favourite is Celine Dion´s version. Though its hard to make Darien look like very different from the princely image we have from him, its kind of interesting for me because he seems more real and with a stronger personality to me.

Again, I don´t own any of Sailor Moon characters. I just borrowed them from Takeuchi sama...

2. All by myself…

Damned girl!! Thanks to her, he turned Beryl and the others down expecting to take her to the party. But she left him just at their arrival. Without a partner he wasn't allowed to get in… And it was supposed to be the party of their lives, shit!! It was just too late to call any other girl and take her in the place of Serena. No way, he would have to go home and miss an excellent Saturday night…

Back in his flat, he sat in his bed still thinking of all the things they could have done at the party. But his memory drifted to the impression her eyes full of tears gave him. She spoke of love… For goodness sake, did she really believe in such stupidities? They were together for just one day and yet she expected that he loved her? Yes, she was beautiful and charming but there was no way a man like him would fall in love with a childish girl like her. Even if her tears were quite impressive to him, he still was far away from believing in love and much less from loving her.

Love was useless; he knew it very well… It just hurts and makes your life miserable. Any kind of love is like that, and there is no point in trying to suffer so much for nothing. If she was suffering right now was just because of love, not because of him. He actually accepted her love confession from the other day and took her as his girl in turn.

He remembered that many people avoided her and that some even called her Sailor Freak since she and her hairstyle made one remember that famous Japanese manga girl that battled monsters and was supposed to be the princess of a Moon Kingdom. Serena happened to be so similar to her with her long blonde hair and all her bodily features that she was also the queen from the otaku´s club from the campus. She seemed to enjoy it and even though he had never actually seen it, it was said that Serena was stunningly beautiful when she made cosplay related to Sailor Moon.

--Childish things…--he said without being able to stop himself from smiling with the idea of discrete Serena using a micro miniskirt like the one Sailor Moon wore. He had seen the show a couple of times when he was a kid but he just knew a bit about it. God, he even accepted to date a girl regarded as a freak by the whole campus…And it didn't matter to him because he also thought it was going to be interesting to have a strange girl like her, after all, he was also tired of the beauties that used to surround him, specially Beryl… Lately, she was just good to have a nice couple of hours in the bed but after that she was just unbearable…

In his dreams however, things were not the same, he felt empty and lonely. He knew that all the suffering he faced in his childhood had make him become a person who avoided love and that didn't want to love because was too afraid of getting hurt once again. He knew the life he had was horribly shallow and that he behaved like if he didn't even care about himself… He knew he needed love to recover the joy of life; that the light he needed to illuminate his life might be lost already because he ruined the hopes of the first angel who loved him…