~XOXO~

Chapter 2

Leah

The pain didn't register in my mind when I first felt a grip of reality. At first all I was, was numb, as if I had been sitting it an ice cube for over thousands of years. This felt nice, I mused. Is this what it's like to die? Mhmm, this isn't what I expect.

That is when I felt fiery pain pierce through my body as if an ocean of fire seared through my plains of ice causing my numbness to quickly fade. I writhed trying my best not to scream. It was probably a test to see if I was truly ready to die. I knew I was. I couldn't handle the pain and suffering much longer I needed to be dead. I longed for it ever since I've seen that beautiful piece of paper that should have had my name on it instead of hers. I should have been dead when they first kissed, I should have been dead when they first imprinted, I should've been dead when my father clutched his helpless heart and died.

I should've been dead when I realized that everything that's bad that's happened to me, I deserved.

It was all because I was born.

The pain continued to flow through my body but as time went on it became bearable. I slowly was coming back to reality and I felt like diving back into the pain. I knew what was happening and I was waking up. I didn't want to be anywhere near the people who cause me this.

But what about the people you love?

My eyes began to feel lighter and my heart began to feel even heavier. Soon enough they fluttered open with ease as my heart torn into pieces in the most difficult and painful way. At first all I saw was this strange white room. An annoying beeping sound came from my right. My brain tried to process where I was but it was too much to handle at the moment.

I just stared for a while. I stared unseeingly while listening to my breath. When my brain finally decided to make an appearance I heard the pitter patter of rain, mumbled voices and the beeping noise once again. I glared at the ceiling when I realized where I was. I was in the hospital.

"I think she's coming around Sue." A voice said. That voice sound familiar, so familiar that I wanted to throw up. It's the voice I have been dreading to hear. It was Sam's.

"Yeah, Sue, please don't cry, she'll be okay. Leah's a trooper." I heard Jacob's voice come after words.

I hated that he said that. No, Leah isn't a trooper, she's broken hearted and she needs someone to mend it, to care for it. Because she can't keep trying to do it alone, she thought she would be better but it couldn't happen. She gave up.

"Leah?" I saw a bleary figure in front of my line of sight. I knew the voice before I saw the face. The women who comforted me through so much though end the end it only caused more pain. How it did that I am not completely sure but I know it pained me.

"Mom," my vision cleared and I saw the tears streaming down her round face. Her eyes were bloodshot red and her expression was worried, pained, angry, and hurt. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh, baby, I can't believe you! Oh you had me worried sick, literally." She said hugging me tight. I hugged her lightly not wanting to get to close. I knew what I was going to do as soon as I was out of here. I was going to end it all.

I sat up once she was done blubbering over me. I looked and saw Sam, Jacob, and the rest of the pack looking back at me. They all wore pained expressions but Sam's seemed the most intense. He looked as if he wanted to run to me but I knew it couldn't be possible. He'd never love me like that again. He has Emily.

"What are you guys doing-" I was about to finish when the door opened revealing my worst nightmare but my best friend.

De'andrea was a spit fire. I never knew her story but she knew mine and she became so important in my life. I forgot about her so much, but she always came to rescue me when I didn't even know I needed rescuing yet. She was always protective of me, even if it was from me.

Well she wasn't there this time.

Shut the fuck up! You did this.

She glared at me once she shut the door. I took in her stance and once my eyes landed on her eyes I was instantly sorry. She was beyond hurt. "God, Dia, I am so sorry." I said tears rimming my eyes.

"How many times have I heard that in my life," She muttered sitting down on the opposite side of the room. "What in the world caused you to do this, Tango?" Dia used her nickname for me so I knew she was upset but also knew she wasn't angry.

"I am so sorry, I'll explain later. Please, just don't hate me okay and don't look so sad."

Her face went blank for a second but she quickly recovered. "Fine, you'll explain later." She sighed. "Sorry for just barging in here, I knew you had family in and shit but Nurse-stick-my-tit-in –your-face said you were coming around and I wanted to be the very first in our group to bitch at you. Though it was an epic fail, I am still the first so it's all good." She shrugged.

"It's fine; this is the pack and my mom." I motioned to each of them and then proceeded to introduce them.

"Oh, so the small vampire family in the waiting room belongs to you to?" She asked.

I swear the packs chins slammed into the floor. "How did she know Leah? Did you tell her?" Sam asked worried.

"No, she didn't I knew Leah was a werewolf since we first met. Let's just say I was born into the 'mythical' world." She sighed picking her now beeping phone. "Well I better head out before Melody, makes a plan to murder me in my sleep because I was over my 10 minute yell feast." She got up and came over to me giving me a hug. "Try to pull that fuckery on us again and we'll bring you back to life and then kill you ourselves then bring you back, and scream at you until you lose all senses." She let go with a stern and dangerous expression. But I knew that look; she was really hurt by what I did.

"I love you too, Bambi." I smiled, hoping to make her happier.

"Viva La Bambi's mother. Fucking hunters had to go shoot her deer ass, what is wrong with them? And what kind of Disney movie is that?" She said angrily while walking out. "Well anyway I'll call you later and maybe see you Friday."

"Maybe," I asked.

"Yes, work all week, but my aunt wants this freaky family dinner."

"Eck, are they going to sit around naked again?"

"Bare ass and all," She smirked. "I love them but there views on things weird me the fuck out."

"You can't say bare ass and fuck in the same sentence."

She smirked again and walked out of the room without another word.

I knew we'd be okay.

Eventually.

Now to face my past.