Band Mates
My calling
Sadness entrapped me. Besides the the fact that Castiel was avoiding me, Rosayla had been using me as he lap dog all night. To be blunt, she's just plain lazy! I'm pretty sure she didn't have to call when her phone dropped. Or when she needed her bottled drinks.
I slipped out on to the back porach. Rosayla was asleep and so was everyone else. I just wanted to think. About Castiel. About Rosalya. About this whole weekend sleepover. About everything to be honest.
Why was Castiel being so distant tonight? He refused to anything involving me. Maybe it was because of what I said to him. It would be weird if a dude said that to him. If I was a girl, maybe he would accept me. But I don't thing he would.
I sighed. I had a bigger problem at the moment. What on earth was I do about Rosayla? I was going to kill Leigh for not hiding the photo album properly. I knew something like this was going to happen. But I guess it didn't matter. Two more days might be shorter than I expect and I'll be free.
I sighed as I leaned against the railing. I was starting to rain but I didn't care. I felt hopeless. Unstable even. The world before me seemed to be going up in flames. Nothing was going right. I didn't want to be some chick's slave. I also didn't want to be apart from the one I love. Nothing was making sense to me as I opened my mouth and began to sing.
"He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past two in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days
Leaning now into the breeze remembering Sunday
He falls to his knees, they had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs
Now this place seems familiar to him
She pulled on his hand with a devilish grin
She led him upstairs, she led him upstairs
Left him dying to get in
Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me
And even though she doesn't believe in love
He's determined to call her bluff
Who could deny these butterflies?
They're filling his gut
Waking the neighbors, unfamiliar faces
He pleads though he tries
But he's only denied
Now he's dying to get inside
Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother, but have you seen this girl?
She's been running through my dreams
And it's driving me crazy, it seems
I'm gonna ask her to marry me
There's a neighbor said, she moved away
Funny how it rained all day
I didn't think much of it then
But it's starting to all make sense
Oh, I can see now
That all of these clouds are following me
In my desperate endeavor
To find my whoever, wherever she may be
I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible
I'm terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me
I'm mixed up, I'll be blunt
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind, keeping an eye on the world
So many thousands of feet off the ground
I'm over you now, I'm at home in the clouds
Towering over your head
Well I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home now
I guess I'll go home"
"That's a beautiful song, Lysander. Who's the artist?" I jumped back as Castiel stepped onto the porached. He smiled slightly as I did an overview of him. He wore a way to big button up and and shorts. His hair was slightly messy and his bangs feel into his eyes. He looked really cute, like he just got out of bed.
Castiel frowned after some time. "Lysander?" I jumped. "Um... Yeah! The band is All Time Low. The song is Remembering Sunday." Castiel smiled at me before stepping closer.
He held my hand in his as he began to sing. It was one of those rare, beautiful moments where Castiel sang. It was like the world froze just to listen to him.
"Oh no, here we go again
I like to receive
What the earth and sea had thought
It'd be best not to even give me, even give me
Now you say, that I never bother you the way he did
(Now open your eyes)
Now I saw the moon divorce the sky
Is this what its like?
(Don't run)
Spell out, spell out, spell out to me, babe
So every week we'll meet
A bed for the backseat
A love drunk memory
(But such a beautiful routine)
Now you say, that I never bother you the way he did
(Now open eyes)
Now I saw the moon divorce the sky, tonight
This remedy is worse than the disease
And slowly killing me
We like the run our blood thin
And laugh at the things we never did
We like to run our blood thin
And laugh at things
We say, say, Hello
We say, say, Hello
We say, say, Hello
We say, say
Now you say, were better off that way
Now I saw the moon divorce the sky
Is this what its like?"
I stared at Castiel, shocked. "Castiel? Why did you sing that song?" He frowned a little. "Pierce The Veil is my favourite band. And Diamonds And Why Men Buy Them is y favourite song from them. I like the way Vic puts so much emotion into every word and I wanted to channel the same energy as he had. Why did you sing the song you did?"
I sighed and placed a hand on Castiel's cheek. "Because it is true. I'm looking for my calling. My soul mate. And how that person has slipped out of my hands. How they run through my dreams without a care." Castiel looked me in the eyes. "Who is it?" I smiled a little before giving him a peck on the lips. "You." And with that, I leaned down towards Castiel's lips for another kiss.
