I'm sorry this is so bad, it's just a filler chapter. I know what needs to happen with this story and where I'm going to take it. I might not update as frequently though because writing up what leads up to it is harder so suggestions would be great. If there's something you'd like to see, I'll try to include it. Reviews are awesome. xx
Sometime after Callie's sobs had quieted in the tears had dried, Lena and Stef guided her to their bed, her movements stiff, her mind wandering. Unlike most nights, she was allowing the two moms to give her affection. She allowed them to wrap their arms around her and didn't flinch away, not saying another word. Sleep never came for her and she assumed it hadn't come for the rest of the family either(aside from Jude. Oh God, how was she going to tell Jude?). For hours, they remained like that, still and awake as the reality came crashing down on them.
It had started a week ago, she had been home for 9 days by that point, and still hadn't opened up to anything that had happened. The moms knew about the kiss, and she knew that. Jude had squealed the second he found out she was missing, telling them about the fight and her promise to him. She was getting ready for school and put her bra on and it didn't fit right. She'd already gone through puberty but she'd tried to brush it off, even when she noticed that they were a little sore. She never missed her period, not once. Yet, here she was, 3 days late, watching the days tick by without any sign of her monthly visitor.
She let out a dry laugh. Funny, isn't it? Girls complain every month about their period. Yet, there she'd been, begging for it, longing for the aching cramps and the bloat that always made her jeans feel too tight. She didn't want to acknowledge it, pushing it to the back of her mind, blaming it on the stress of the past weeks' events.
Then the 'stomach flu' had hit. That's what she said it was, what she made her family believe. She began taking too long in the shower before her moms could even offer to make her breakfast and coming down late for dinner so they wouldn't have to see her running to the bathroom and emptying her stomach in the toilet. Jude has been so worried about her. She couldn't imagine telling him. He knew what Liam did to her, she didn't think he could fully grasp what had happened at the time. Though he was 12 now, she was sure he'd understand.
"What are you thinking?" Lena whispers into the loud silence, unable to remain quiet when she knew how much Callie was hurting.
The moms listened closely but received silence fore a few moments before hearing her voice for the first time since she cried all over them in the bathroom. "Jude."
Callie had managed to survive the next day, able to keep any tears that threatened to fall at bay, putting her poker face on for her little brother's sake.
"Hey little man," Stef smiled as Jude made his way into the kitchen, "hungry?" Jude nodded, a smile forming on his lips.
"Dinner will be ready in twenty," she informed him, going back to cutting vegetables for the salad.
"Hey buddy, why don't you help me?" Callie suggested, ruffling his hair when he stood next to her. He nodded, reaching to grab some doh from the bowl. "Dude," Callie scoffed, pushing the bowl farther to her other side, "Go wash your hands." A genuine smile tugged at her lips when Jude rolled his eyes but trudged over to the sink anyway.
Callie stepped into the shower, flinching slightly as the scalding drops first hit her skin; but adjusting to the heat quickly moved to wet her hair. Under the safety of the drizzling hot water and the shut door, she finally allowed herself to cry, letting the tears she's been blinking back all day fall freely. She thought back to her old foster homes, comforting Jude after she was beaten by the dad, or yelled at by the mom. She rarely shed a tear in front of him, she had to be strong for him. Crying was reserved for showers only, so that's what she did.
Stepping out once the water began to run cold, she turned to look at her unchanged body in the mirror. She turned to every angle letting out a frustrated cry. She couldn't see anything, how could there be a human inside her?! She brought a shaking hand to her stomach, gasping when she flattened it where the baby rested. No, there was no bump yet, but got sick knowing there would be one soon.
"Callie baby?" A soft knock sounded on her and Mariana's door, but for tonight she had the room to herself since Mariana was spending the night with Lexi. She assumed she was there to give Callie space and she was grateful for the alone time. She could detect the worry in Stef's voice and she loved having a family who cared about her again but after the long day she's had pretending to be okay, she wanted nothing more than to curl up in bed and sleep forever(or at least until she had to get up for school) "Yeah," Callie answered in her usual tone, letting her know she could come in.
"We were wondering how you were doing." Lena spoke softly, her voice rising slightly at the end making the statement a question. Callie nodded, her lips pressed together, eyebrows raised slightly like the always did when she was putting up a brave front. "I'm fine."
"Callie, you know you can be honest with us, right?" Stef added softly, sitting down next to Callie who was cross legged on her bed. Lena nodded, backing up her partner and joining the two on the bed.
"I'm sorry," Callie whispered brokenly, feeling guilty. "I know you didn't sign up for this."
Stef reached out and placed her hand on her shoulder "Neither did you."
Callie's bottom lip quivered as a tear slipped down her cheek. "I'm scared." She looked at Lena's hand that was now resting on her knee. "I don't know how to do this. I can't- I don't, I don't know how to be a mom."
Stef gave her a comforting squeeze, "Have you thought about what you want to do? No one will judge you if you terminate it. Or if you don't. "
"I miss my mom." The words came out as a strangled cry as she lost her battle to hold the tears in any longer. "I just want my mom."
Lena pulled Callie into her arms, the girls cries muffled somewhat by her shoulder. Stef hands ran comforting patterns on her back. "Now you have two more mamas. We'll never replace her. She'll always be your mom. But you can come to us with anything. " Lena continued, keeping her voice soft and soothing.
"I never thought I'd have a kid, you know. Not since I've been in the system," Callie let out a dry laugh, moving back into her original sitting position. "Or if I did it'd be because somehow things managed to work out and I'd be happy about it."
"You can still be happy about it. It doesn't need to be right now. There's adoption, and abortion. Or you can keep it. Whatever you want. Okay sweetie?" Stef answered before placing a kiss on Callie's head. She nodded, giving her a small smile in response.
"I'm pretty tired," The two women took a hint, giving her leg a final squeeze before making there way to the door, opening it to find a very upset Jude, starring right at Callie.
Oooooh, how is Jude going to react?! The reviews have been awesome. Keep them up! It makes me want to write faster. :P I don't know how I feel about this chapter, it's kinda a filler but I felt like Jude finding out was important. Let me know what you think and suggestions are welcome!
