A/N: lol i updated? whaaaaaaaaaaaat

Song list:

Better Than I Know Myself by Adam Lambert (or anything by Adam Lambert really lol)

Mirrors by Justin Timberlake

What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts

I felt my heart break at the sight of my twin's streaming face, but I grit my teeth and kept my feelings inside. I had to stay strong for him!

"Hikaru...please...please don't cry!"

I kissed his forehead tentatively, willing him to say something.

Maybe they're the only ones

"K-Kaoru..." he sniveled. "Why..." I pulled back, staring into his eyes more intensively. He just cried harder, and I ground my teeth even more. He took a deep breath.

"Why...didn't you cry out?!" he started. "I hurt you, didn't I? Why did you just pretend it was okay?" My eyes widened.

"I...didn't really think about it..." I said in slight shock, sweeping some tears from Hikaru's face before putting my hands at my sides. "You're stressed out, so..."

"So I can just take it all out on you?" he questioned in disbelief. "Think about yourself for once!" That reminded me of when Tamaki had yelled at Hikaru over the phone, except he had said "Think about others for once!" But...I was selfish and childish...think about myself? Wasn't that all I ever did?

"Hikaru...I don't know what you mean, I just know that you're in pain..."

"We're both in pain, but you're the one taking all of it for me!"

"Please...forget about what you did tonight. I'm fine." I said as calmly as I could. "We just need to talk about what happened earlier today, all right?"

"Ugh, it was my fault!" Hikaru yelled. "I shouldn't have been so foolish in public! Now what are we going to do? What are we..." He suddenly stopped, looking as if he were remembering something.

"Haru...hi..." he almost whispered. I closed my eyes. He had finally realized it. I knew that Hikaru was in love with Haruhi, just as I was, but he still didn't recognize it. And only just now had he figured out the true price of what had happened today. It had come to me immediately, but I stopped myself from thinking about it too much. ...What should I say? That would be comforting, or something?

Maybe someone's heart

Should be talking a walk

"Hika...Haruhi is an amazing person." I smiled at Hikaru, trying to look reassuring. Um...um... "She'll...understand." He glared at me in response, and I recoiled in slight fear.

"You don't know that!" he retorted. "She could be disgusted right now, disturbed, sickened, wanting to block what she saw out of her memory forever! Wanting to forget us forever!" His words were like a stab through the heart. Now thoughts came rushing mercilessly through my head. How the hell had we kept from kissing in public before?! This whole time...and why the hell did Haruhi have to be the one to see us? Of all people, why her? If it had been anyone else we could have made up some fucking excuse, but Haruhi?! She's too smart for that! And now...knowing that the twincest was more than an act, there was...no way she could ever like Hikaru...

"Oh..." I whimpered, my eyes finally beginning to well up. "What are we gonna do...Hikaru..."

"Kaoru!" He hugged me tightly, immediately reacting to my tears.

"I...I never..." the words came pouring out. "Is our relationship wrong? I never really thought about it, I just...it just feels so natural to me that I never really..."

"I know..." Hikaru mumbled in my shoulder. "And our whole act was completely inspired by Boss, we never...even would have acted like that in public..."

"Even though we've always..."

"...acted like it by ourselves..."

"...We've been sleeping in the same bed for our whole lives! How could it be wrong?" I continued, tears running down my face silently. Then something came to me. "...We're teenagers...it's...it's only natural, right?" I laughed ironically. Hikaru released me from his hug and kissed me chastely.

Witnesses to what's been done here

"But...I love you, Kaoru..." he told me, eyes glistening with rejection.

"I love you too, Hikaru..." I replied honestly. "I really...love you more than anything else in the world..." Hikaru's expression lit up, as it often did when I told him I loved him.

"I don't want anything to change." I said, my voice breaking pathetically. "We're individual beings...and we're tightly bonded...but if Haruhi doesn't accept us the way we are..." I shook my head. Hikaru remained quiet.

"Our carriage might have to turn back into a pumpkin..." I finished. Hikaru gave me a weird look.

"Why are you always-" He began, before I put my hand over his mouth.

"It's nothing. Hika, we need to sleep. What's our plan for tomorrow?" I asked in good spirits. Hikaru blinked in surprise, wiping some tears away from my eyes.

"You're...really fine?" He stuttered, blushing in slight embarrassment.

"As long as you stick with me." I answered, and pulled him up to the pillows of our bed.

"U-uh...do you think we could maybe...talk to her alone?" Hikaru proposed. The thought was painful for both of us, but if we didn't do it then it would just be awkward all day. And tomorrow was only Wednesday.

"Hmmm..." I smirked a little bit. "Guess we'll have to drop by her apartment in the morning."

"Aww, but then we'll have to get up early!" Hikaru complained, but he was laughing.

"Oh well." I cuddled into my pillow and wrapped my legs around Hikaru, a little smile on my face.

"Good night." Hikaru said. "Love you, Kaoru."

"Love you too, Hikaru."

It felt a little bit stupid to break into tears and get paranoid and worried and then just laugh like nothing happened, but I felt like everything was going to be all right. I think Hikaru feels it too.

And maybe we would know

If these walls could talk

...

"Ugghhh..." I felt terrible, it was 6:30 in the morning which was more than thirty minutes earlier than we usually got up. I only managed to roll out of bed because I was so determined to see Haruhi before school. I. Hate. Mornings. "Come on, Hika..." I pulled on his arm in an attempt to get him out of bed. He looked really comfortable and I felt kind of jealous. So I crawled back onto the bed and latched onto him. No, laying in bed feels way too good to not lay in bed.

"Hmmm...you're warm, Hika~" I purred happily. It was cold in the morning. I began to drift off again before Hikaru suddenly sat up.

"Agh!" he hissed, doing an aikido roll onto the floor and then, after laying defeated for a few seconds, getting up with all of his energy. I pitied him. The floor must suck. He gave me a cold glare, and then trudged into the bathroom. Wow. That hurt. Why did he look at me like that? Am I supposed to get up or something? Ughhhhh!

"It's 6:40 now, Kaoru." Hikaru informed me. Wait, what? Wasting no time, I leaped out of bed and ran to join my brother. We went through our usual routine, changed into our blue tuxes, and went downstairs to eat something. The maids were surprised that we were up so early, since we woke up at seven on a good day. After we were done we charged out to our waiting limo and told our driver to go to the Fujioka residence. At our butler's weird look we only glared.

...

"Wait here." We said simultaneously, got out of the car, and exchanged nervous glances. We walked up the stairs and knocked on the door tentatively. Some grumbling and trudging footsteps could be heard before the door was opened. By a tranny with no makeup on.

"Hi, Ranka." Hikaru greeted in a sweet tone.

"Is Haruhi still getting ready?" I asked innocently, trying not to be frightened by Ranka's expression. He stood there hunched over for a few seconds, and then straightened up.

"Haruhi left fifteen minutes ago." He said plainly. "She said she had to get to school early. So why are you two here?" We looked at each other in confusion.

"Was...she in a bad mood or anything?" We asked in unison.

"What?" Ranka responded, twirling his hair around in his finger. "She was rushing a little bit, but she seemed fine. Why?" He looked us over suspiciously.

"Uh...uh, nothing!" Hikaru blurt out.

"We...were just gonna take her to school." I lied. Well, we actually would have, I guess.

"Sorry to bother you, Ranka! See you later!" We said quickly and sprinted back to the limo. As we took off for Ouran Academy, a thought clicked in our minds. "How does Haruhi get to school anyway?" We looked at each other and shrugged, making an "Ehh" noise.

"This is bad." I pointed out, frowning. "She's getting to school early to avoid us, right?"

"Yeah, probably..." Hikaru sighed. "I really want to skip it now..."

"But we can't just run away from everything, Hikaru..." I told him. "I'm scared. I'm sure you are, too. But we have to solve this right now."

"Yeah...I know, Kaoru." Hikaru agreed. "I just..." He flushed.

"I just feel like I can't face her..."

...

"Good morning, Haruhi!" we beamed, taking our places on either side of the girl. We had made the decision to play normal.

"Oh, uh..." she stammered, face visibly paling. "Hi...Hikaru, Kaoru. You're...here early today."

"So are you, Haruhi." I responded calmly, getting the sense that Hikaru was inwardly freaking out right now.

"Aren't I usually?" She turned towards me with an awkward, forced smile. I tensed up at the sight, glancing over Haruhi's head at Hikaru. Just be patient. Wait until club. Patience. Patience.

"Sure, if you say so." I ruffled her hair and started taking out my school materials without another word. Usually she would start glaring at the side of my head, but instead was eager to turn back to her desk. Ugh. Tension in the air.

Make it stop...

...

We walked through the halls, holding hands as per usual. But something seemed different. I caught a suspicious look from someone and glared at them in return. What was it? Why did I feel so paranoid? I pressed closer to Hikaru. We always did this, right? People didn't really question our public affection, as far as I know...I mean, Shiro was a little disturbed, but...that was no big deal. Now, though...

...

"HARUHI!" Hikaru and I had changed out of our ancient Roman costumes, and I had hardly slipped the shining gladiators down his ankles when he jumped into his shoes, grabbed his bag (or mine, probably) and bolted for her.

"Tch!" I followed suit, hoping he wouldn't do anything stupid. The other hosts weren't quite done yet, and looked on in curiosity as I charged after a sprinting Hikaru following a speedwalking Haruhi. When I caught up to my brother his arm was linked with Haruhi's, and he nodded at me. I took hold of her and we whisked her out of the room. I called for our ride, and we walked through the halls in silence.

When we got outside, our car had arrived.

"Hey!" Haruhi broke free of our grip in protest. "Are you guys just gonna kidnap me again? You can at least say something!"

"We're sorry, Haruhi, we just...can't talk about it here." I said quietly.

"Come with us. We'll tell you everything." Hikaru added. I resisted the urge to glare at him. We were most certainly not going to tell her "everything."

"Just hear us out and maybe you can understand." Hikaru muttered.

"Haruhi, you're probably the only person who could ever understand." I said, lightly touching her shoulder. She looked up at me with her big, chocolate eyes.

"I-I'm sorry. I have to...have to study tonight." She whipped around and took off running. Hikaru tried to grab her but I held him back.

"We'll try again on Friday, okay?" I reassured him. "She won't have an excuse then." Hika stuck his tongue out.

"Yeah, I guess. At least we talked to her. For about ten seconds." He threw up his hands in defeat and flopped into the car.

"It's really fine, Hika. She just needs time, okay?" I got in the car and ruffled my hand through his hair once. Just then my phone vibrated. "Probably Tama, huh?" Hikaru shrugged. When I opened the message I dearly wished it had been him.

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please take your revolting "love" somewhere else. i wasn't accepted to ouran for this. faggots.

5:13 P.M.