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Dimitri's POV

I could smell her blood. I was at least a mile away, yet I could still smell her rich blood pouring from somewhere on her body. My mouth watered at the thought of tasting it. The monster inside of me roared for it. I gripped the tree beside me to restrain myself from running over to her hotel room and killing her at that very moment.

'How could you even think of doing that Dimitri? She is still Rose. You love her.' But I knew I wasn't the same anymore. I was a monster, and I couldn't change that, but she could. I wanted her to kill me, but I needed to let her know how much I loved her still.

That's why I have been following her for the past two years. I always stayed in the shadows with at least a mile between us, for I did not want her to be able to sense me. It was only a year ago when I first smelt her blood. At first, I though she was hurt. I panicked then, but after the same thing happened continuously over the nights, I figured it out. The collected side of my mind wanted to run up to her and hold her close, but the rational part realized that that could never be.

I could never rid her of her pain as I once did, like in the cabin.

She was so upset. She was afraid that she would turn out like Anna. I was trying to convince her that she wouldn't, but she didn't listen. I wrapped my arms around her and tried to convince her that she would be strong and she would be able to overcome this. "You can," I said. "You're strong- you're so, so strong. It's why I love you." It was the truth. For once, I was not afraid to share it with her.

Roza was not convinced. She was so stubborn. "You shouldn't. I'm going to become something terrible. I might already be something terrible." I wanted to scream at her. I wanted to tell her that she could never be anything close to terrible.

"You aren't. You won't. I won't let you. No matter what, I won't let you." Without saying anything else, I kissed her. I kissed her so deeply that love burst from every part of my being. I wanted more. I hungered for her love.

As I laid her on the bed, my conscience chimed in telling me to stop. "We can't..." I mumbled to her.

She looked at me saying, "I know." Just the sound of her voice made me lose myself again, and this time, I knew there was no going back from it. I tore at her clothes quickly, as she did mine. The rush of heat and passion swarmed over us in such a fashion, that I was intoxicated by it. I wanted to touch and kiss every single inch of her beautiful body.

In no time at all, we were both completely bare from clothing, yet sweating from the intense heat. Looking into her eyes, our love was never so obvious. I told her it would hurt, but only for a quick moment. She said she trusted me and gave me permission to move on. She winced in pain at first, but she soon was pouring with pleasure. I let her take control when she wanted to. I remember thinking that she never ceased to amaze me. Every movement screamed bliss as we synchronized our motions.

When we were done, she leaned against my chest. I kissed her forehead and ran my fingers through her silky hair. "I love you, Roza." I said, kissing her again. "I'll always be here for you. I'm not going to let anything happen to you."

And I meant it. I was always going to protect her, monster or not. Opening my eyes, I realized that daybreak wasn't that far away. I had to go back to my home, if you could call that. I started running. Running was the only time when I didn't feel like a disgusting demon. I felt graceful. I could feel the wind rushing against every part of my body. I wasn't hurting anyone; I was just there. As I neared the house, I slowed down and walked at a normal rate to the front door. As I walked in, two pairs of red eyes landed on me.

"You saw her again didn't you?" Mia asked with disgust in her tone. She did not approve of me watching Rose. Like I cared. She took my silence as a yes and let out a frustrated sigh. She always tried to be in control of everything. I guess it was because she cared about me. I looked up at her and gave her an apologetic look. Her face softened. She was quite beautiful, nothing compared to Roza, but still beautiful. Her hair was made of blonde and brown strands that laid in gentle curls on her shoulders, and her body was petite yet strong. Her red eyes were the one thing that would of kept men away from her.

She was the most civil Strogoi I had ever met though, if it was possible to use both those words in the same sentence. She always brought Damien and me humans to feed on. They were usually homeless people or something of that stature. Humans were the only thing we fed on. We kept our distance from Moroi and Dhampirs so we wouldn't make any mistakes.

Damien was Mia's younger brother. Three years ago, their family was invaded by two Strogoi while they were on vacation together. Mia's daughter was killed as well as Max's wife. They were the only ones left behind. They were turned and left. That was when they vowed to not be malicious and kill everything in their path. It took them a year to fulfill that goal, but they did it.

They were the ones that found me. I was sitting in the woods watching Rose as I had been doing for months, when they happened upon me. At first I snarled at them and tried to fight, but after I realized they wanted no part of that, I calmed down. After a while of talking, I ended up here, in their home. They helped me become partially civilized. Well, as civilized as a monster could be. I slipped up sometimes. I have killed many Dhampirs over these past two years. Every time I do, I think of how it could be Rose, but the monster inside me doesn't let me quit. Mia doesn't know this.

Damien locked eyes with me. "You have to let her go, man. Either that, or just let her kill you."

"Damien! Don't even say that shit!" Mia hissed.

I just ignored them both and went to my room. Although I couldn't sleep, I enjoyed laying on my bed. It gave me time to contemplate my options. Did I really want to die? Yes. Did I want to die right now? No.

My better half knew that I could never be with Roza again, and wanted me to leave her alone, but the other half wanted me to kill her soul and turn her into my kind. I could imagine the entire process in my head. I would go for her at night and grab her from behind. Then, I would bite into her flesh harshly, while laying her on the ground. Finally, I would let her drink from me. That would seal the deal. But I had an alternate ending. 'Maybe,' I thought. 'I could just kill her right there. I can just imagine how good she'd taste.' I quicklypulled my demon half back under control. Closing my eyes and breathing deeply, I murmured, "God, Dimitri. Who are you?"