Phew. Wipes brow. I have never ever had this much trouble writing a chapter. This is also probably the chapter I'm the most proud of. Because I have over come it. Go me go me. Now even though it looks like a lot of boring stuff it's very important to the story. It took me three hours just to decide what way I was going to go with It. I have written 5 versions of the same chapter. Three from Naruto's point of view and 2 from Sasuke's. This one won because….well quite frankly it's the one that leaves it the most open. I have so many choices from here. And only your reviews can shape it. How do you like them apples? So give me lots of love!!!! The more reviews the more I put into the story. Cause I really don't want it to die. But it's teetering on life and death here. So review!
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Chapter 2 unexpected visitors
It had been a whole year since he had left his reason for living behind. But one year felt like a hundred. Time passed ever so slowly now. Sitting here on the roof alone gave him time to think of just how much had changed in one year. The day he arrived in Suna Garra had greeted him with open arms not asking one question about why he was here or how long he would be staying. Just telling him that he was welcome here and always would be no matter what happened. Naruto was grateful to Garra for not turning him away. If he had… well there was no where left to go. He would have... ha now was not a time to think like that. He watched the clouds drift idly by. How he envied them, wished to be them. They had neither obligations nor limits. They were truly free. He sighed reaching for them even though he knew it was futile. Sure he had it good here, ha who was he kidding he had it great here. The kazakage spelt so wrong forgive me was on his side no matter what. The villagers were nice to him. And heck he even had the choice to come or go anytime he wanted. What more could a person ask for. In the back of his mind a little voice spoke out. "Love". He chuckled at it. Though Garra wouldn't admit it if asked Naruto knew he loved him. So he had love, but was it the same? no and yes.
This was a complicated thing for him. He cherished Garra very much. To him no one would ever be able to replace Garra. He was the only one who was like him in the whole world. Garra had saved him from himself so many times. Just by being by his side. He had accepted him without any pretence. He owed Garra so much more then he could ever hope to repay. But did he love him the way Garra loved him? Did he even deserve to have Garra's love? And even if he did love Garra, could he ever give him all the love he deserved. Naruto and Garra both knew that there was a huge part of Naruto missing. Neither would say it, but ever since he came to Suna a part of him seemed to have died. All such complicated thoughts that didn't seem to have a way out of. An ever downward spiral. He sighed again. That seemed to be all he did now a days. Sigh and sigh and sigh. But the life he led would only lead to sighing. He was never content. So what else was there to do in a situation like this?
But even though he had the chance at a new life and love here, he still didn't want to be here. There was always the feeling that this was not where he belonged. The villagers were all very nice to him. But there was an unsaid fear in the village. A rumor, that Naruto would bring the destruction of the village. But that was to be expected where ever he went. As long as people thought the fox was still inside him that would always be a common fear. But when he had heard that he laughed. He had forgotten that no one else knew the fox vanished besides him, Tsunade, and….
He paused at the last name. He hadn't allowed that name to leave his lips since he entered Suna. Partly for fear that if someone heard him they would put two and two together. But more so because it tore him apart on the inside every time he thought about him. His breath would hitch, eyes would tear, and pain. Such immense pain would fill his body. The pain was a million times worse then a real wound. Because he didn't know if this one would ever heal. It felt as though his chest was being torn open and would fall apart if he didn't hold it close. By far the worse time was when he dreamed though. Because he had no control to stop them from happening. He would awake screaming and crying. Garra was always by his side when this happened. At times like this his body betrayed him in so many ways. He would clutch to Garra as though his life depended on it. Crying and crying till he couldn't cry any more.
Complete and utter weakness was all it was. And he was powerless to change it. How he longed for it to be him who was beside him when he awoke. How he wised it was him who held him so tightly while he cried. How he still loved him.
Suddenly Naruto shook his head and tumbled onto his back to have a better look at the sky. He banished those horrible thoughts from his mind. Any time now Garra would be coming up to check on him. And if he looked distressed Garra would leave all his meeting for the day to spend time with him. And the council would have both there heads if Garra missed another meeting because of Naruto.
He felt the sun on his eyes they felt extremely warm and heavy. Bit by bit his eyes drifted closed. He grinned as a pleasant memory crossed his mind. Even though it was a memory of him it was one he was very fond of.
The night so very long ago from now when he lay next to him in the grass, waiting for the fireworks to shoot off. The warmth of his body against Naruto's. The feeling of him being so close and the comfort that went with it. The emotions that flew through his mind just from being close to him. static ran ramped through his body from just the simplest for touches. And then the many kisses they had shared in that field by the lake. Those sweet moment only made right now seem even colder. What a wonderful time that had been. Just him and his….
"Sasuke" barely above a whisper but still just loud enough for him to hear and regret saying. The word had leaked out of his mouth so easily even after a years time. he cocked back tears that threatened to return after so long. He would not cry… not after so long. He laid there and Sasuke's name rung over and over in his mind. And again his true feelings betrayed his actions.
"I miss you so much Sasuke. I wish I could see you again." Silence was all that responded to his quite pleas. Pleas that would never be heard by anyone else but him. sighing for the who knows how many time that day he rolled over onto his side. That's when Naruto heard someone approaching, nevertheless he didn't move. The person walked around trying to decide it Naruto was awake or not. Then finally the person spoke.
"Why were you crying? Did something bad happen?" Naruto's eyes shot open revealing Garra had sat down beside him quite close. Naruto blinked then Wiping his face he found he had in fact been crying. He hadn't even realized. He thought he had managed to fight them back. 'Damn it' Now he had to cover up for crying. What a troublesome day this was turning out to be.
"No, no I'm fine. It must be from looking into the sun for too long. Or maybe I got some sand in my eyes. I didn't even know they were watering." Naruto rubbed the back of his head and laughed in an attempt to distract Garra's persistent gaze. Garra raised a nonexistent eyebrow but didn't question further. He knew better then to push Naruto. When Naruto was ready he would tell him. Until then he would have to be patient and wait.
"Ok Naruto what ever you say. I came up here to tell you we have a visitor. Well you have a visitor. He got in saying he was here to visit me. I did invite him after all to come see you though. I figured it would be nice if you were able to see some of your old friends. And since you can't go to Konoha I figured I would bring them to you." Naruto tilted his head to show he was curious. He truly was this time. Who would come to visit him? Who would Garra invite? There were not many people Garra cared for there. And since Naruto's arrival his like for the village hidden in the leaves had only lessened. Never the less he had invited company for Naruto.
"Who did you invite?" Garra smiled. This was the first time in a long time Naruto had showed interest in something. And no matter what way you looked at it that was a good thing.
"A male friend of ours. You knew him quite well from what I heard. He insisted upon seeing you once I told him you were here. Apparently no one knew you were here." Naruto's smile vanished and his blood ran cold. He blanched as white as the first snow fall. 'There's no way. Is there? No stupid. Don't think that way. It's impossible. Stay calm or Garra will figure it out. Got to talk…talk damn it!'
With a smile to hide his concerns. "Really who came to see me?"
Immediately Garra knew something was off. Yet he was worried to question it because Naruto looked like he was deciding if he should use the fight or flight method in his mind right now. And that was the last thing he wanted right now.
"Neji Hyuga. You remember him correct? Well he said he was here to visit you. Did you know he's the new representative of Konoha's? He was appointed by Tsunade herself. He's the only one in the village with the power to take others with him without the hokage's permission. He takes responsibility for them and-" Naruto knew Garra was still talking but he didn't really hear any thing beyond Neji's name. Why was he here? Sure they were friends. But how did he find out he was here? Only he and Tsunade knew he was to come to Suna. So how did Neji find out? Garra said he had invited him once he found out Neji knew I was here. So that means Garra didn't tell him. But then who did? The pieces just didn't add up.
"And well it would be nice if-" Naruto suddenly jumped to his senses he cut Garra off midsentence.
"Where is here Garra?" Garra scowled at being cute off. But he continued.
"If you had been listening I all ready told you he's in the study. I advise you not to be so rude when talking to others though. It's not looked kindly upon you know." Naruto hopped to his feet beside Garra.
"Ya Ya what ever you say. I'm going to go find him. I'll see you later. So be a good boy and go to all you meeting today ok? I think the council will wring both our necks if you don't show up again." Smiling he waved as he ran towards the stairs. Garra watched him leave and once he vanished from sight Garra looked up at the same sky Naruto had been gazing at before. Then despite the fact that it was hot out Garra wrapped his arms around his chest as though cold. He shivered then looked off in the direction Naruto had run.
"Please forgive me Naruto. I only want what's best for you. And even though you might not see it that way, it is what's for the best. Just please don't hate me for ever." A light breeze blew through Garra's hair. "Ha-ha it must be about to rain. Cause I can feel a storm brewing." Garra stood and looked to the sky for answers that weren't there. "Will he ever forgive me?" Garra looked towards the edge of the village at his father's statue. "Will my plan even work? Did I do the right thing father?" the sun illuminated the silent statue as Garra headed off towards another village meeting. He threw his hands up to in the air. "Either way it's out of my hands now. Good luck Naruto. Good luck."
Going to end it here…I know I know… I'm evil! But for real, I got a great I idea as I sit here trying to do a great cliff hanger. Now challenges will a wait our two lovers well ex- lovers bah what ever they are right now. New villains are about to make there entrance soon too. I have finally figured it out all most all the way. So if you want to reach the next exciting chapter of WAY review. waywho are you?
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