So this is my 3rd KKM fic (I think...). This by far I believe ia the best one yet (I hope everyone that reads it likes it.) I really didn't edit this much but I read it, reread it so many times I almost memorized the whole thing and it's long. It's not a one-shot like I had planned... O-chan is the one to blame for that. There are parts that the characters are OC but not a lot and not often I think.

Dedication: I'm dedicating this fic to three people. My best friends YaoiOkami(O-chan and the one who came up with the title), Rabbit Usagi-chan and my little Neko(who I couldn't find anywhere in this site...). I love you guys and I miss you so much!! I'm dedicating this chapter to all of the people how reviewed this fic; AngelSachiya, eclst, and pikeebo.

Disclaimer: I do not and will probably never ever own KKM.

Okay so thanks for the reviews they helped a lot and I hope that my next fic (whenever that is) gets better.


Now that a few months have gone by, I know that I have to go back for Greta, for my brothers, for my mom, and for myself especially but that didn't matter at the moment. What mattered was that I am myself again and free even if I did and do still love Yuuri.

The Bielefelt army is doing an excellent job and has improved so much in the few months I was there. But now, my father thought it would be good that I return to my real home with my daughter and brothers. Somehow he had finally realized that, even if I did look so much like my mother, I was just as good of a soldier as he is or well was. I am once again at the gates of Blood Pledge with a whole different perspective of how I have changed.

Yuuri had been right. I had changed so much in my previous mission and I hadn't even realized it. It seemed that everyone else did. My brothers and Greta knew of my return and I had asked them not to tell Yuuri, it wasn't because I was afraid, but I was nervous at how he was going to react. I had left him crying, while screaming my name and for me to return. I had just left and didn't even spare him a second gaze. I felt bad for doing all of that and for that kiss he had given me in front of everyone. I knew that took a lot of courage… well at least from him since he had never given our relationship a second thought but at the same time I knew that I had to do it.

I entered the castle and to my surprise, there wasn't a lot of people like before. It confused me a little but I didn't think of it much. I kept going until out of nowhere he came. We stared at each other for a while. I did not know what to say and my throat seemed to have stopped working. He seemed as surprised to see me or more then me to see him. It seemed that my body had a mind of its own, since the next thing I knew I was standing on solid ground and someone was taking my horse to the stables. And still Yuuri just stood there looking at me. Finally my mind caught up to my body,

"Hello Heika"

"Wolfram?" he whispered

"Yes" I answered with a smile

He blinked a few times and a grin broke out in his face "You came back…"

"Yes I was not going to leave forever"

"That's good. So are you here for good or are you going to leave again?" He asked his smile disappearing

"I am going to leave when I am commanded too"

His face lit up. His eyes changed after I told him that.

"I really missed you"

"I missed you too and everyone in the castle." I stated walking away from him

"Where are you going Wolf?"

"I have to report to my brother Heika" I answered looking at him with a smile.

He smiled back. I gave a servant orders about my luggage and walked away towards Gwendal's office. The talk with Gwendal was uncomfortable. He looked like he wanted to cry in certain points of the conversation but I think that had to do with the weird noises coming from the office closet. I tried to ignore them but it was kind of hard. Gwendal looked relieved when I said that I was leaving. I walked away thinking that it was weird that Gunter's coat was in my brother's office but I could add two and two together and I smiled wishing my brother and Gunter good luck. I wondered how they had finally gotten together but did not reflect on it much since Yuuri appeared out of nowhere again.

"We should really stop meeting like this Heika." I said frowning as I caught him before he ran into the wall

"But it's fun!"

"You are going to get hurt"

"You still care about me that much Wolf?" He asked me taking a serious tone I rarely heard

"You are after all my king, and I your knight. My duty is to protect you and serve you until I die."

He frowned. "I don't want you to do it because it's your duty Wolf… I want you to protect me because you want to". He told me as he neared me. I blinked trying to step away from him.

"I-" I got cut off as I felt and saw the wall trap me in between itself and Yuuri.

"Wolfram…" he whispered making me look up at him.

Next thing I knew was that a pair of lips was on mine and I was pressed up against the wall delicately. I didn't react, I couldn't react. My body and mind were in shock and were paralyzed with surprise as I felt those lips move sinfully slow, taunting me as I felt my bottom lip being attacked with lips, teeth, and something very wet and somewhat hard. I heard a gasp leave my throat and felt arms wrap around my body. My mind and eyes seemed to register the black hair, and tan skin since a moment later my arms were working while my hands cupped Yuuri's cheeks pulling him closer to me. His eyes were closed yet they opened for a second allowing me to see them. They were so profound, so alluring, so ardent, so faithful, and so loving that I did not know what to do except push him away.

"Yuuri don't-"

"Why not Wolf?" He was too near; his lips hovering above mine a few centimeters away.

"You do not love me…"

"You don't believe I do there's a difference" he stated as his lips brushed against mine when he talked.

"No Yuuri I-" I said turning away from him.

"You called me by my name…"

For a second, I did not understand what he was implying. "Heika I am sorry I did not mean to. It was a mistake I-"

"Wolfram?"

"…" I looked up at him

"You're talking too much" He whispered before kissing me again.

This time I felt my knees get weak and if those arms wouldn't have been holding me up, I knew I would have ended on the floor from the intensity and feeling the kisses awoke in me.

"Please Wolfram forgive me. I know that I was wrong to treat you like that and I'm not asking you to forget how I treated you. I am asking you to give me another chance to show you that I can love you and that I can treat you like you deserve. Let my behavior from before show you how much I have changed please. I need you, Wolf. You have no idea how I felt after I found out you had left and after I found out how she treated you. That's when I started to realize how much you really meant and mean to me, Wolf. Then when you left after I gave you that kiss in front of everyone… Conrad had to stop me more than once from going after you. I know that you had to leave, you need it time to think about us but now I want an answer Wolf. Are you going to let me in to your life as you did before or not?" After that as if trying to prove his point, he kissed me once again making my mind race.

Suddenly, he stopped kissing me and he let my mind calm down yet he was looking at me with the same emotions in his eyes as before. I was still pressed up against the wall with his arms around me. I had no idea on what to do or say and just stared at him. He seemed to be getting impatient and whispered my name once again.

"Wolf… Please answer something…"

I looked into his eyes again and for a second I felt myself get lost. I knew my answer. "You are completely crazy Yuuri" I answered pushing him back and up against the other wall but not as gently as he had done to me. "I am not planning on getting hurt again by you".

"Wolfram-"

"No." I cut him off. "Just listen… I left because I had to. I was losing myself in you. I had to get away from you and I did. I came back because my family is here but if I did not I would not be here. Do you understand?"

He nodded

"Now I just got hurt over and over again because of you, it is always because of you. As much as I may love you, there is no way in this or any other world I am going through what you made me go through again."

"I told you Wolf, I have changed." He answered

"And how does that affect me?! Why am I to forgive and forget?! Why am I the one that always gets hurt?!"

He sighed then a pair of arms where pushing me up against him. "You fell in love Wolf and when you are in love… there isn't much you can do or change how you feel. I tried to make myself see you as a friend again but it's so hard. Knowing that you love me and that I hurt you, you have no idea how I feel knowing that. So you should know I am not planning on giving up on you anytime soon."

"What do you mean?" I said pushing myself away from him but still keeping him against the wall.

I blinked a few times to realize that my back was once again gently up against the wall. "I'm not letting you go without a fight. Now that I know how I feel, I am not going to give up just like you didn't give up in such a long time. I think it's only fair if I have to show you that I really do love you and that I have really changed." His lips covered mine once more. I pushed him away.

"You do not have to show me anything Heika. I told you once and I will tell you again since it seems you forgot; I want nothing to do with you, I do not care what you do, say, or think. I am tired of dealing with you. I already made my decision when I was far from here."

"And what is that decision Wolf?"

"My father is to choose my fiancé."

"What? Wolf you can't be serious I mean-" he said looking at me with huge eyes.

"I am serious Heika it will benefit my father's land"

"So what if you don't love that person Wolf?"

"I will learn in time."

"So your father has to decide who you are going to marry?"

"Yes. I have no saying over it"

"Wolf…" He looked away "Fine. I know how stubborn you are. I can't force you to do anything anyways."

"I'm glad you understand Heika" I said smirking as I thought of how I was finally going to stop loving Yuuri.

Yuuri left a day later to his world…

After Yuuri's leaving, everything went bad. Greta, my mother, and brothers tried to convince me that I was doing the wrong thing and to tell my father no for about three months. Greta had even gone to me one night crying asking me if I did not love Yuuri anymore. My heart had broken that night to see her crying because of Yuuri's and my mistakes. I tried to explain to her that I did love the wimp but that I could not be with him anymore since I did not trust him anymore and because he did not love me. After that, she fell asleep on my arms whispering that she believed that Yuuri did love me. A day later, I got a letter from my father telling me he had chosen my spouse. He also instructed me to return to the Bielefelt lands as soon as possible so I could meet my fiancé. I was not too thrilled about getting married but it was what I need it to do in order to forget Yuuri. I took my time in getting back to the Bielefelt lands and thought a lot about what I was going to do. I was pleased to find everything like I had left in my room on the Bielefelt lands. So I am here lying on my bed and thinking.

'Am I doing the right thing?' I sighed and rolled over on the bed 'Why am I thinking about this? I mean there is nothing I can do now. Father choose my fiancé and-' A knock interrupted my thinking.

"Come in" To my surprise it was my father. "Father what are you-"

"I came to tell you that your fiancé is waiting for you in the entrance of the palace."

"Yes. Do you want me to meet-?"

"Him, Do not make him wait."

"Yes. Of course father." I said getting up and going towards my future husband.

"Wolfram."

"Yes?"

"I hope you are happy. You are after all my son and I want you to be happy no matter what. I choose him because I strongly believe he is the person you need in your life."

"I understand father."

"If he ever hurts you, let me know. I do not want to regret my choice but there are conditions to this marriage and I will dissolve it if I must."

'What happened to my father? I mean he never seemed to care… And he chose to marry me with a man? Since when did he change his mind about that?'

I looked at him and nodded not trusting my voice as I stated to walk away again. The walk was not very lengthy but I was not sure what to expect. I was a little anxious but I knew what I had gotten myself into when I had determined to this, when I had told my father I would do it. I looked up when I exited the castle and saw the outline of someone but it was too far to make anything out. I kept walking and approaching that outline. He was the only person near the gate. I stopped a few feet away from him. His outline, posture, and everything about him screamed at me making me feel like I knew him. His back was facing me but still he looked so familiar. He finally turned.

"Yuuri? What are you doing here?"

"Hey Wolf! Not much you know just waiting…"

"Waiting on what?"

"You"

"What are you talking about?"

"I already talked to your father he is okay with our marriage"

I realized what he meant "Oh no! No, no, no, no. You are joking right?"

"No. Why would I joke about that?"

"Are you crazy Yuuri? I wanted to get away and forget you not marry you!"

"Well you did say that your father was going to choose your fiancé and that you didn't have much choice so I came to talk to him a few weeks ago."

"You were not supposed to do this!"

"It seemed like the only option Wolf. I mean you wouldn't give me another chance even thought you love me and to tell you the truth I didn't know what else to do." He said scratching the back of his neck nervously and as he shifted on his feet.

"It is okay Yuuri…"

"Really?"

"Yes. My father told me he would dissolve the engagement if I asked him to."

"That's not what I want and I hope that's not what you want."

"It does not matter what I want Yuuri, what matters is what I need."

"And what do you need?"

"What I need is to forget you"

"Why Wolf? Now we can be happy, even with everything that has happened before. Just imagine how happy everyone, you, and I would be!"

"You really believe that Heika?"

"Don't start with the title and yeah I believe that"

"Why not? You're still so naïve…"

"I'm not naïve I'm just hopeful"

"Well then do not be"

"I talked with your mom, with your dad, with your brothers and heck I even talked with Greta about this Wolf. Everyone wants to see us happy."

"And?"

"What do you mean and?"

"Just give up Heika"

"No! I don't care how long it takes and what I have to do Wolf but please I beg you don't tell me to give up, don't let me give up on us" he whispered to me with the saddest expression I had ever seen touch his features. His eyes were pleading with me and his hand was pulling me closer to him.

"There is no us"

"There can be!"

"It is a little too late for that"

"No"

"Yes Yuuri"

"That's not true" he stared at me for a few seconds "Please Wolf give me another chance…"

He was literally dragging himself through the hallways. His body felt heavy yet his eyelids even heavier. His feet were on auto pilot as they lead him through the castle. His body finally stopped in front of his room. He walked in slowly and looked towards the bed. The blankets were a mess, pillows and clothes were everywhere but that wasn't what called his attention. The bundle of pink, blond, and fair skin was what his eyes focused on. The body was spread out in the bed with a beautiful grace and contrasted with everything else in the room. He changed his clothes, moved closer and sat on the bed.

Slowly he slipped into the bed and covers trying to not wake up the stubborn fiery prince that was next to him. He laid his head on a nearby pillow and was about to slip into unconsciousness, when he felt two arms pulling him from the warmness of the covers and into the comfort and warmness of two arms. A soft voice was whispering in his ear some things about work, about wimps, about time, and about love. He slipped closer to the warmness, heard an "I love you" before whispering it back along with the name Wolf and finally losing consciousness.

THE END


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