so this is my second chapter, please read and tell me what you think..
CHAPTER TWO: this mortality haunts me
Rin was having her second nightmare of that night sleeping next to Jaken, When Jaken woke up he saw a shadow, then WHACK Rins arm came down like a tone of bricks, he jumped back alarmed. "huh who's there" Jaken panicked for a second before realising what hit him. Lord Sesshoumaru looked at Jaken as if he really was a complete idiot "Rins dreaming again" Sesshoumaru explained. Jaken could see even in his lords emotionless face the amusement of it, but his attention was drawn away from his lord and to Rin when she started screaming...
"I WILL KILL YOU...leave Jaken alone" Rin growled in her sleep. Jaken and Lord Sesshoumaru looked on in astonishment "I never knew she cared about me that much" Jaken commented truly touched by her words but it all changed when the next few words came out of her mouth "what...no...please don't go, I just risked my life to save you and you are turning your back on me...Lord Sesshoumaru...Jaken...I never want to be alone..." Rin started crying "NO" she screeched at the top of her voice. Sesshoumaru had had enough no way would he ever leave her nor Jaken for that matter "RIN" Lord Sesshoumaru shook her gently but to see her in such pain was quite unbearable to the both of them, He shook her a little too hard and growled "RIN, WAKE UP NOW...DAMMIT" Rin woke up in a shock "thank you" she said looking at her lord with strangely emotionless eyes. Had he taught her that emotionless look without realising, he was slightly taken back by this. Rin just ignored it and turned over and went back to sleep. Sesshoumaru went back to his place under the tree and pondered on the look Rin had just given him
In the morning Rin was a little lethargic from the lack of sleep she had the night before.
"Jaken" she said his name with alot of depression in her voice that everyone noticed.
Sesshoumaru turned his head slightly to listen to what she was saying to Jaken why does it bother me sooo that she is confiding in Jaken and not myself, oh well I will hear what is to be said anyhow all thanks to demonic senses
Jaken at once noticed Rins Despair "yes Rin what is bothering you so much" Jaken asked looking at her with eyes that she had never seen before...sympathetic.
Sesshoumaru's ear twitched as he listened to Rin's sweet voice as she explained to Jaken what was causing her discomfort
"I'm very afraid Jaken, I can't hold it in any longer...I consider you and Lord Sesshoumaru the people who I hold close to my heart more than anything else you saved me all those years ago from lonliness and Lord Sesshoumaru saved me from lonliness and my life from those wolves and one day I am going to get old and you will have to leave me behind, I can't begin to imagine my life without the two of you and AhUn for that matter, I will be lost in loneliness for this mortality haunts my every move...I believe if I got old and had to be left behind, I - I would kill myself" Rin put her head down quickly as glistening tears hit the floor
Jaken had truly had been touched by Rin's words he didn't know how to reply in the end he managed to let out a whisper of "everyone grows old and dies someday you foolish girl"Jaken replied softly but hadn't finished his sentence when he sensed something wrong.
Meanwhile Sesshoumaru was sinking into depression. Rins words while talking to Jaken had really spooked him but as usual he refused to show any emotion on his face 'if only you knew Rin If only'... His thoughts trailed off when he smelt the strong smell of Rin's blood he turned around to Query her
"Rin are you alright" Lord Sesshoumaru asked firmly
Jaken had clearly noticed the colour drained from her cheeks at that moment also.
"L-Lord Sesss" Rin collapsed on the floor laying facedown before she could finish, with the bandit who had attacked Rin in the woods standing over her, yanking the sword out of her lifeless body. Sesshoumaru looked on in shock 'what's going on why didn't I sense him and why is he alive I killed him'
"hahaha, she is DEAD" Smugly the bandit stood staring at Rin, Jaken could see Sesshoumaru's eyes turn bright rouge red getting ready to transform although it took Sesshoumaru a moment to react proplerly he was still reeling from the sight of his beloved dead, even if he could bring her back to life, it still gave him goose pimples.
"AH, AH, AH I wouldn't do that if I were you Sesshoumaru" the Bandit began but Sesshoumaru ignored him and carried on his transformation. "FOOL, one more touch of my sword to that pretty young girls body and even your powerful tenseiga will not be able to bring her back" the bandit yelled he seemed almost anxious. At this announcement Sesshoumaru immediately stopped his transformation and calmly walked up to the bandit and grabbed him round the throat drawing blood from his sharp claws and lifting him off the ground
"have it your way then Sesshoumaru" the bandit struggled to get his words out and breathe in
Sesshoumaru clutched the bandits throat tighter, the bandit drew all the strength he had left and threw his sword directly at Rin, Sesshoumaru's eyes narrowed 'NOOOO don't die on me Rin I need you' Sesshoumaru thought as he dropped the bandit and raced towards her, he knew he wasn't going to make it, CRUNCH he was sure he heard the sword plunge straight into Rins limp and lifeless back 'I can't bare it to look' Sesshoumaru forced his head up to see AhUn had bitten into a tree and pulled it out the ground holding it over Rin as the sword was about to hit her, burrowing into the tree. A sigh of relief washed over Sesshoumaru's face. Jaken nearly had a heart attack mostly because Rin had nearly died and Lord Sesshoumaru's face, Calmly walking up to the sword Sesshoumaru pulled it out of the tree, he knew he had to move fast, or the keepers of the underworld would have Rin's soul and it would be too late to save her, Sesshoumaru could hear the screams of the pathetic bandit as he crushed the sword with his bare hands, with that the bandit exploded
"fool, how could he have thought that putting all his life source in one sword would save him, that sword was easy to crush" Sesshoumaru stated disgustedly before turned back to Rin
He didn't waste anymore time , he drew the pulsing Tenseiga from his side and swiped away those foul creatures from the underworld away and bent down to Rin.
After being brought back Rin was somewhat quieter than usual, in fact she was silent for most of the journey since and it had been five hours. Jaken was starting to get worried, he looked over at Rin curiously who had a blank expression on her face and had her head down so most of her hair was hanging over her faceeven the little pony tail on the side of her head was drooping.
"R..." Jaken's voice trailed off 'she didn't even thank Lord Sesshoumaru for saving her, I don't remember a time that she has ever not thanked him, there really must be something wrong, maybe only Lord Sesshoumaru can help but he hasn't been back since he revived Rin, I know as soon as he returns he will notice something is wrong.' Jaken turned away when he noticed the girl watching him stare at her as they walked, it was almost as if she was looking straight through him. AhUn was also concerned for Rins silence, he nudged her and rubbed his faces in her slightly, Rin just patted his heads and carried on walking trailing behind Jaken. Rin let her fringe fall over her face as tears pierced her eyes remembering what the bandit whispered to her as he stabbed her
FLASHBACK
"perish, young beauty just as your family did at my own hands"
"I want to hear you scream just as your pathetic mother did and feel your blood"
FLASHBACK OVER
Soon tears were streaming she couldn't stand the pain it was like a black hole eating at her heart.
Jaken didn't know what to do, Lord Sesshoumaru still hadn't returned but they were on their way to the meeting place. Rin was in such a state, She had finally calmed down when her, Jaken and AhUn reached the meeting place. Still refusing to speak, Jaken realised it was a more familiar situation with Rin than he had thought, he remembered back to when she had just started travelling with them when she didn't speak and Lord Sesshoumaru had been the one to get her out of it, 'how did Lord Sesshoumaru prize her out of the silence..I have to try.'
"So Rin, are you hungry?" Jaken enthusiastically asked cringing at the look she gave him
Rin just gave him that same emotionless look sitting still as possible she shook her head.
This caused Jaken to freak out, he flew at Rin grabbing her shoulders shaking her
"RIN, COME ON SNAP OUT OF IT!!"
Rin just sat there looking straight on forward
"RIN...YOU ARE OKAY"
He carried on shaking her violently.
"uuughh" Rin looked terrified putting her arms up to protect her
Having a series of flashbacks
FLASHBACK
The girl looked down upon her dying brother, covered in his blood,
"Rin, save yourself..Run!" the boy had cried before taking in his final breath
Rin a young girl knelt down beside her brother, weeping in sorrow
"no,not without you, brother Rinoku? RINOKU please wake up" the girl laid beside her brother holding his hand
FLASHBACK OVER
FLASHBACK
"mummy, mummy where are you? Rin was running through the rooms of the house
She stopped seeing a bandit holding her mother in the air by her throat,
"mummy" Rin whispered. Before witnessing the bandit stab her mum over and over.
Crying and running over to her lifeless mother, Howling in agony from the hurt of her families death
Rin got up and hid as she heard footsteps
FLASHBACK OVER
Rin braced herself, crying for another shake from Jaken "please stop...Jaken" Rin cried shakily
Grabbing Rin again and shaking her harder this time Jaken starting crying himself.
"JAKEN" Lord Sesshoumaru called he sounded furious furious
Jaken quickly let his grip of Rin go who collapsed to her knees tears and violent sobs raking her body
"would you like to explain to me what is going on" Lord Sesshoumaru ordered beckoning Jaken away from Rin
"well since you left straight after reviving Rin she hasn't said one word, it's like she was when Rin first started travelling with us almost 10 years ago now except her expression has changed to sad and blank and a little while ago even AhUn noticed and nuzzled her she just patted him and then stopped looking frightened...carried on a little way only to put her head down and start sobbing, she has only just stopped" Jaken was breathless from chattering on so fast
"hnnnn, why did you grab her JAKEN, don't think I didn't hear her ask you to stop" his voice raised
"I..I..was scared she was cursed, please forgive me my lord" Jaken groveled bowing at Sesshoumaru's feet
"don't be ridiculous" Lord Sesshoumaru snarled, smacking Jaken over the head and walking away towards Rin who was sat crying quietly holding a flower
'sometimes I wish to be a flower, they are beautiful, peaceful and happy looking all through their life and I'm filled with sorrow and fear... now the only thing keeping me in this world is being with Lord Sesshoumaru all my life...yet will I ever have him or am I blind to the fact that I will be the only one to love, he couldn't love me even if he told me I am his something to protect, I'm only that, not his love.'
Rins thoughts drained her happiness even further all she could think of was Lord Sesshoumaru and that stupid bandits words that had scared her so.. Wondering if he really was the same guy who killed her parents he sure looked like it. A shadow appeared above her and Rin jumped backwards and winced. Embarrassed to see it was only Sesshoumaru. Rin couldn't bring herself to say anything, she really did want to apologize though, so she just stared up at him.
"Rin, what is it that makes you so depressed" Lord Sesshoumaru asked softly cringing at her blank eyes usually full of life her tear stained face was making him a little restless
'It pains me to see you like this...I need you to talk for me' Sesshoumaru thought as a ache started in his heart
Rin managed to murmur out "flashbacks" only to start crying again she sat with her arms tightly wrapped around her kness
Sesshoumaru knew this was the only thing that he would be able to do, show a little comfort towards her even if it was completely out of character
Sesshoumaru quietly knelt in front of Rin and grabbed her wrist away from her knee and yanked her into his chest. Holding her in an embrace, he stroked her hair and told her she had nothing to be afraid of. For a moment Rin was to shocked to even move but then she relaxed and returned the embrace, wrapping her arms around him so tightly and burying her face in his fur as she sobbed her heart out finally responding with words
"b-b-b-but I am afraid" she whispered so softly that if Sesshoumaru wasn't a demon he wouldn't have heard her.
"trust me Rin I will protect you" he whispered back letting her go abruptly and walking away, missing the smile that appeared on Rin's face.
