First sorry about the delay, i considered changing chapter one to have Missy leave her fiancé at the altar, but my beta and couple readers thought it'd be too cliche and would take away from her character and she'd be hurting too many people, so I stuck with this one.

Also chapter one is beta approved so please re read it, I hope with a beta now that more reviews will come with it.

This is a shenny fic obiviously, but a major storyline or point of emphasis will feature Missy as she figures out her life, love life and job/career as well as her helping shenny.

If anyone has a idea for a chapter or storyline PM me and the same goes towards a character(s) and couples.

Not sure how often I will update, probably at least once a week if not more, depending on me and my beta.

Congrats to tbbt and Jim Parsons on the golden globe nominations, either Jim is really respected in the industry or he's really the only one who's talent can overcome the writing on the show or both.

If anyone hasn't watched last night's episode all I can say is WOW, Kaley look HOT and that might not even be enough to describe her and Melissa looked pretty good, oh yeah Amy "working" the grandma look, lol.

Disclaimer: yeah I don't own any of these, but just Bryan right now or Shenny would be together Right now.


Chapter 2

Penny was tired, mad, and so over this whole never ending rut she was in. A dead end job she hates but is too scared to leave, and a boyfriend who was just a little more appealing than her job situation. She stayed with both out of fear and necessity, fear that she won't get an acting job and a better boyfriend, and necessity being paying the pills.

But at least her face cleared up, she thought. It was getting awkward, explaining away the black eyes. No, it's not domestic violence, I just have a very odd friend. Amy certainly didn't mean to hurt her, and she would have been fine, it was just a purse to the face, except for the fact that Amy carries around a coffee can as her change purse. Who does that?

On the first floor landing, she pulled off her heels and continued trudging up the remaining three floors, exhausted. She knew she had a bottle of Tequila with her name on it and right now, it was singing it loud and clear. Thank goodness she had the day off tomorrow because she intended to get quite cosy with that bottle. She knew after the "situation" with Raj as she likes to call it, she knows shouldn't drink or as much, sure she cut back after that(with Sheldon's help) but every now and then she'd kick back and have one, heck how much trouble could she get in drinking alone anyways? She turned right and went directly for her door, not bothering to mollycoddle her insecure boyfriend right now. She had a bad enough day, all she wanted to do was soak in a bath then sleep.

A few hours later, she woke up to get a drink of water. From her kitchen, she hears a shuffling sound, and her mind immediately takes her back to the time the boys were robbed. She hopes that she isn't hearing burglars, as she doesn't want to relive another relocation to Montana that Sheldon was certain to reconsider. She goes to her door silently and looks through the peephole, and is startled to see a tall brunette standing in front of 4A, staring uncertainly, like she was hoping an answer would just appear of the woodwork.

As she opens her door, the woman turns around, surprised and on her guard.

"Missy?"

"Penny, right?" Missy spoke, her Texan drawl prominent.

Penny nodded and walked up to her. Missy looked upset. "Hey, it's good to see you again. The guys didn't tell me you were visiting."

Missy smiled ruefully. "They don't know yet." She took a deep breath and looked back at the door. "I kinda' just grabbed a flight, spur of the moment. I was just wonderin' if I should knock and wake 'em up or grab a hotel room for the night."

Penny looked at Missy closely. She knew that face. It was the same one that greeted her every morning. She walked over to her door and unlocked it. "Come on," she said to Missy. "Forget those guys for the night. Let's go talk to Jose Cuervo instead." Missy sighed with relief and followed Penny inside.

Penny was grateful her place wasn't too messy, as Sheldon had cleaned it a few days earlier. After much discussion, he and Penny had come to a tentative agreement, where he could clean while she was at work, and she would make spaghetti with little hot dogs every other Sunday. No longer would he sneak into her apartment while she slept, and if they were both honest with themselves, they enjoyed the other's company. It was the rare time they got spend with each other now.

Penny grabbed a carton of orange juice and the tequila and set them on the table. She also grabbed the last pack of chocolate chip cookies, and a tub of fudge brownie ice cream and two spoons. Missy sat down and reached for the glasses to begin pouring.

Missy hardly drank. After years of living with an alcoholic as a father, she had bad feelings surrounding alcohol. But, every once in a while she would give into social pressure and have a drink or two with her friends, but she made sure to never drink too much.

"So, wanna tell me why you showed up in the middle of the night with just a carry on bag and a little black dress?" Penny asked with a gentle look, as she eyed the stunning tall brunette in the black dress that hit her mid thigh, that made it look shorter on her with Missy's long legs.

Missy felt the tears gathering in her eyes. "My boyfriend asked me to marry him tonight. She looked up at Penny with sadness and a hint of terror. "I was speechless and for some reason I nodded my head yes, and after going back to my apartment, all I could think about was if I love him enough to marry him, and would me being a stay at home mom and stayin' in that town be enough for me, because that's what my life would turn into, so I took the first flight out."

"Well at least he didn't propose during sex." Penny said.

"Huh?" Missy asked.

"Shortly after Leonard and I got back together he has the nerve to pop the question while we're having sex, and gives me some lame excuse about him just being caught up in the moment, what with Howard and Bernadette's upcoming wedding."

"Did he have a ring?"

"No, and I'm not sure if that was a good or bad thing." Penny answered.

"So what did ya' do then?" Missy asks, curious yet horrified for the other woman.

"I kicked him out and after I ran into him 2 days later he has the nerve to say I didn't give him an answer, like my reaction wasn't clear enough. So of course I told him no."

"Penny?"

"Yeah?"

"Don't take this the wrong way since I barely know the guy and have only met him briefly, but what do ya' see in Leonard?" She hesitated. "I mean he seems like a nice enough guy and all, maybe even a good guy, but to me he seems like he's nothing special either, ya' know? But what do I know, I hardly know him."

"I don't know. I mean, I dated nothing but jerks, and then Leonard comes along and is so nice and different from what I normally go for, plus he's safe and keeps me from being hurt. He's also a great boyfriend and devoted to me."

"Ya' know Penny you deserve a guy that's more than just a nice guy that's safe."

"I know but after dating Leonard, all the guys I used to date I can barely stand to be around, or listen to. And if any of the smart guys are interested in me, they only see me as a waitress, or they want me for my looks and sex appeal."

"So what's Leonard like?" Missy asks, suddenly changing the subject.

"What do you mean?"

"Ya' know in bed, I mean a woman like you and guy like him, either he's great in bed, hung or both, or rich. And I know it's not the last one, so tell me?"

"Right, well he's good at foreplay. Oral sex, he's not bad at, but isn't the best I ever had either. During sex, he tries really hard for what that's worth, as for his size he's more like average in size as for his length but is a little bigger in girth to make it a little more pleasureable. Now on his frame he probably does looks a little bigger than he actually is, I mean if he was a little taller he'd be like, well endowed or something, if he'd been proportionate, so yeah I guess that sums it up." Penny shifted awkwardly.

"I woulda' guessed he would be average at best in the bedroom and in size, not that I'd be interested in him or finding that info out or really any guy like that, no offense, i prefer my men tall or the very least my height, since I'm a tall girl." Missy contemplated out loud.

"Well he was at first. It took time, but once he got the hang of things, it wasn't so bad. He still is at times though, but most of the time lately I just make really loud sounds so it'll make him think he's doing really good so he'll hurry up and finish quicker, which I guess is sad, why do you ask?"

"Not surprised you'd want a tall guy, it's awkward enough with me, I couldn't picture your height with his."

"Just curious, like I said. A guy like that, with someone as pretty as you, he's gotta be good at something, so I was just wonderin', I couldn't either especially since I love to wear heels, I'm already a few inches taller than him and tack on a few more with the heels, so unless he's into feeling shorter, nope, imagine the looks in public me with heels standing next to him, so not into having my own TomKat relationship."

"Yeah I guess. He doesn't like it when i wear heels, i can only imagine if you wore them. That seems like all we do lately. I just wish we connected better and had some common interests, plus that seems like all I am to him at times, pretty girlfriend that he has sex with."

"So you don't have anything in common?" Missy was growing fascinated, happy to lose herself in Penny's problems, and Penny just relieved to have someone to vent to since all Bernadette and Amy who are supposed to be her friends try to push her towards Leonard more and more, instead of how she was actually feeling.

"Not really, mostly sex. I mean we hardly talk, he doesn't ask about my day and I don't ask him because I'll have no clue what he's talking about. We don't share any interests in each other's likes or hobbies much."

"Well to me, and this is just my opinion, but it sounds like ya' either need to talk to Leonard and work on your problems, or break up with him."

"I know. I want to, but I know I'll end up looking like the bad guy again, and I promised your brother I wouldn't hurt his friend."

"What does my brother have ta' do with this?"

"Well he found out from Amy that I was thinking of breaking up with Leonard, and Sheldon was concerned about how Leonard would react, since he's always been emotional when a woman rejects him. Anyways, he comes into my room in the middle of the night; don't worry I talked I discussed with him how inappropriate it was, " Penny explained when she noticed Missy's reaction. "and I promised I wouldn't intentionally hurt Leonard. But I feel like, however I break up with him, he'll react the same."

"Penny if ya' feel this way you can't keep dating him, at some point he'll ask you to move in together or get married again. If ya' lead him on, with him thinking he has a future with you, then you'll really be the bad guy here, plus the longer you wait the more people will get hurt. I'm glad ya' set my brother straight, sometimes he doesn't realize what he's doing is inappropriate. Say tha' word, and I'll take care of Shelly."

"I know, I just have to find away to break up with him and still be friends and it not be awkward for us, don't worry I can deal with Sheldon."

"Seems to me he'll only mourn ya' until another pretty woman comes along." Missy shrugged.

"So back to your problem, according to what you've told me about your guy he sounds practically perfect and yet here you are, not that I'm not happy to see you again, If he's have as wonderful as you say he is i'd want that." Penny returned deciding to venture away from her and her problems with Leonard.

"I know right? And he is, or at least he is to me. I must be crazy, acting like this, right?"

Penny giggles at that.

"What's so funny?" Missy asked.

"Oh nothing it's just funny those words coming out your mouth and how similar you look to Sheldon." Penny assured her. "Anytime someone asks if Sheldon is crazy, he always says he's not, his mother had him tested, that's all." Penny laughs.

"Oh brother. Lord's truth, I'm surprised he passed that then. 'Course our parents were the most surprised, 'specially momma; she was certain there was something wrong with Shelly. She thought th' devil had taken over him, but when she found out how smart he was, she wasn't sure what to make of it, she goes back and forth between a gift from God or the devil has taken over her baby. Momma's family has the smarts, now no where Shelly, mind you, Still not sure where he got it from. So she only did what she could do, which was embrace it, but Meemaw was the one who really encouraged him especially when it came to his love of science, as did Pops, our late grandfather. But he passed when we were little." Missy replies, affection colouring her voice.

"So back to Mr. Wonderful, Do you love him?" Penny asked.

Missy nodded her head. "Yeah or at least I think I do. I'm not sure, maybe? He's kind, smart, successful. And I'd be stuck. Stuck living my life in a dull town, doing the same things each and every day, dying a bit inside with each passing moment." she felt guilty, listing all these mundane complaints alongside all the blessings. "I also feel like I'm not good enough for him, like I'd be holding him back or something. He may not be perfect, but he is to me and is the best thing that's happened to me."

"I feel like I'm not worthy of him, I didn't exactly come from a stable family, never got to witness two parents love each other unconditionally, so a part of me feels like I'd spend my whole life trying to deserve his love." She confessed. "I'm not saying I want my parents marriage, far from it, but maybe it'd be easier if he has some more faults or quirks, or had a couple rough edges instead of being the way he is, maybe that'd be easier for me. Although, he can be boring and dull at times. I'm not asking for a guy that goes out all the time or that I want that, or wants to go to party after party, but a guy that wants to have fun and take me out on a date from time to time, instead of just staying curled up on the couch with me like an old married couple. But I do love him."

"That makes sense. Have you talked to him about it? Missy, the way you described him, it sounds like he adores you, what's the problem then? He's not bad in bed is he?"

"No he's not bad in bed, quite the opposite, he's very skilled that leaves my body humming way after we're done and wanting more, plus he's very huuung, if you get my drift?" Missy explained drawing out the word hung to Penny.

"What do I say? 'Hey Bryan, think ya could be a little less...you? Maybe a little more exciting? Little less perfect? I know I said I love you and all, but I feel like I don't deserve you?"

"Well I'd word it differently."

"I mean its not like I don't want to marry him, ever, but I want to be more than just a wife and his children's mother. I want to do something that's worthwhile, I want something to talk to him about than the kids when he gets home from work, if we do get married."

Penny nodded knowingly. "Then you're better off getting out while you can, if you decide to end it."

Missy felt a flare of anger. "What about you? You think your life is so great?"

Penny snorted, unladylike. "Are you kidding. My life sucks too. Crap job, boyfriend I don't really love and probably never will, at least not the way he wants, no acting jobs. I'm just as stuck as you."

Just as quickly, Missy's anger was gone. She dug her spoon into the ice cream. "Penny, how did we end up here? How did we end up stuck?"

Penny downed her second drink and grabbed a cookie. "I don't know about you, but I ignored reality. I suck at acting, but my stubborn refusal to give up has kept me in a crappy waitress job, going out with one loser after another, until I settled for a safe guy across the hall."

Missy nodded. "I did what was expected of me. Be the good girl who goes to church, finds the perfect guy, settles down and have a handful of kids."

Missy tried so hard to not become her momma, only to find herself repeating her momma's mistakes over and over.

It was funny she was saying these words that she couldn't say to her friends back in Texas, and certainly not her mother, but could so easily to Penny.

Penny sat up straighter. "It's the whole reason I moved out here. I wanted to be something more than my mom or the rest of the women in my family back home. I didn't want to waste away out there on the farm and not take any chances."

"So, how do we fix this?" Missy asked.

Penny smiled. "I don't know. But for tonight, let's just get to know Jose."

"Well I've always had a thing for Latin guys." Missed says.

"Me too." Penny giggled.

XXX

Sheldon was in the shower when Leonard knocked. He stuck his head out of the curtain and frowned. "Leonard, that's a strike! You know it is against the rules to interrupt me while in the shower. You can hardly afford to gain any more, and you just retook the class or do I need to remind you.?"

Leonard popped open the door, "Not unless it's an emergency, and this qualifies. Your mom is on the phone. Missy is missing."

Sheldon scrambled out of the shower and hastily threw on his robe. He rushed out to the living room and grabbed the phone. "Mother?"

Mary was almost screeching. "Shelly! Why isn't Missy there?! She left me a message she was coming to see you. No explanation, no details. And she isn't answering her phone. Where could she be?"

Sheldon was confused. "Mother, you say Missy told you she was coming here? I haven't heard from her in 3 weeks. Why would she come here?"

The front door opened and Penny slowly walked in. Leonard could tell she'd been drinking, not just by the way she was holding her head, but because it was only 6am and she was awake.

Sheldon ignored Penny and grabbed his cell phone to check for missed calls or messages. "Mother, please calm down. We'll find Missy. Being emotional….."

Penny snatched the phone from Sheldon and put it to her ear. "Mrs. Cooper? Hi, it's Penny, from across the hall. Listen, don't worry. Missy is here. She got in really late and stayed with me, rather than wake up Sheldon." Penny nodded and made a few noises of agreement. "Yes, ma'am. I'll have her call you as soon as she wakes up. Yes, ma'am. I promise. Okay. Goodbye."

She handed the phone back to Sheldon and turned to leave.

Sheldon reached out and grabbed her elbow. "Wait! Why is Missy with you, and why didn't you tell me she was here?"

Penny yawned widely. "She got in a short while ago, Sheldon. I deliberately woke up at 6 in the damn morning just to let you know she was here. How was I to know your mom would call this early?"

Sheldon started to follow her out the door. Penny turned, and quirked one eyebrow at him. "Where are you going?"

He narrowed his eyes at her. "I'm going to speak to my sister."

Penny shook her head. "One, she's asleep. You can see her later when she's felling better. Two, you have to get ready for work. Three, I can see your, uh, body, Sheldon. You might want to either close the robe, or put on clothes."

Sheldon turned a deep red as he wrapped his robe around him securely. He gaped at her for a moment. Penny smiled wickedly. "Nice to know what they say about tall guys is true."

With a loud squeak, Sheldon rushed back to his room and slammed the door, while Penny walked back into her apartment and closed the door. Wow. That was a sight to sober up any woman, she thought to herself. After a moment Penny shook herself and headed for the shower. Maybe a cold one, she thought. She was wide awake now, might as well get dressed.

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Also if you have a idea as what job you'd like for Missy in California or Texas pm me and the same for Penny. Also if anyone has a last name they think Penny should instead of the one that'll be revealed soon than PM me and I'll see if yours is better.

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