You were the one mum always told me about. You were the one that I always wanted to touch but you were forbidden. How come good and innocent things are always the ones I couldn't touch? You were the light to my darkness; we balance each other.

Clary, you once told me that you loved me but I have always seen you with that guy of yours. I thought I was your only one but you smile more tenderly and your smiles reach your eyes when you're with him.

You're the one I want but you're out of my limit; I try to catch you every time I can but every time I do, you fade away quicker than the last time you did.

When I'm with you, I feel like my head is on clouds and I want to stop time and stay like that forever.

You tried to kiss me but I moved my face away from yours, telling you that it was wrong. I shouldn't have done that for the day after the incident you said that you didn't mean to do it.

You don't know how much it pains me to ruffle your hair without having the slightest reverie to grab and kiss you.

You're a bitch, Clary. I'm lusting over you; I'm loving you like how a brother shouldn't love his sister. I love you more than anything. You make me feel human.

I know I shouldn't be like this yet I am being like it.

I'm a grave that holds on to tombstones and skeletons.

I'm a mirror that has shattered into a thousand pieces.

My hopes are only my lucid dreaming.

I will never be able to tell these things to you for these are forbidden, for I have always shunned you away from me.

Make it stop, Clary.

I love you.


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