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Chapter 2: Astonishment

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Today has been the best day in awhile. Yes you probably guessed it, he hasn't hit me all day, not that I have seen him. The one class we have together is right before lunch potions and he got called to Dumbledore's office. When Snape called him out, I was so relieved. I could finally able to actually work in potions without him breathing down my neck. My only wish, was that he wouldn't come back until after lunch, and here I am, writing while I eat so part of my wish came true, if only he was gone for the rest of the day, at the very least…

I nearly jumped a foot in the air when someone wrapped their arm around my waist and pulled me closer to them, while kissing my neck. "Hey." They whispered softly into my ear, and to my dismay I realized it was him.

"Hey! Harry! You can't just do that to my little sister right in front of me! Especially while I'm eating." My brother Ron exclaimed while bits of food flew out of his mouth. All in all it was quite a disgusting sight. And if I were my old self I would've laughed, but I didn't because I wasn't.

He laughed for the both of us and muttered a "sorry Ron, couldn't resist" while smiling innocently. Who would think that the boy next to me smiling so innocently like that could cause me so much sorrow?

"So Harry, what did Dumbledore wish to speak with you about?" Hermione was the first to ask about the office, just what I wanted to know.

He looked around quite obviously and leaned in, Ron and Hermione following in suit while I stayed where I was, "Well, Dumbledore wants to start training me for the big battle. He reckons it's quite soon..." he trailed off, as Hermione's eyes widened.

"But how does he know for certain? I mean – it can't be that soon. You're not prepared!" Hermione blabbered on and on about his safety, while I just sat there, staring at my uneaten food.

Did I even care about the safety of him? Not really, at least I shouldn't after all the misery he has put me through. I looked up and observed the Great Hall. I enjoy observing people, their actions when they think that no others are looking. My eyes paused on the Slytherin table. They hated the boy sitting right next to me, as did I, but they had no knowledge of that.

As I was scanning, I came to a pair of cyan colored eyes, staring right at me. When I realized this fact, my eyes widened in surprise, why would anyone would be staring at me? The boy, never taking his eyes off of mine, nudged the boy next to him. The other boy was Draco Malfoy, and he followed the boy's gaze until he came to me. He smirked expecting me to look down and probably blush, but I held my gaze steadily, and would have kept it, if it weren't for the fact that he interrupted me, oblivious to my eye competition with the Slytherins.

"Come on Ginny. Remember earlier, I told you I wanted to study in the library?"

He had never told me anything concerning the library earlier, and the last thing I wanted to do was to go anywhere alone with him, but I still nodded and began to gather my supplies.

As I stood up, I glanced back at the Slytherins. To my astonishment, I found an empty spot where the two boys had just been sitting moments ago.

He led me out of the Great Hall and I soon found where the two missing boys had gone.

"Where do you think you're going Potter?"

In front of us were Malfoy and the other boy, blocking the way to the library.

"What's it to you Malfoy? Come on Ginny." He replied back, while pulling me in the opposite direction of the library.

"But you said –"I quickly shut my mouth hoping I hadn't upset him, but I was too late.

"I DON'T CARE WHAT I FUCKING SAID BEFORE! WE ARE GOING THIS WAY RIGHT NOW!"

I was in shock; he had never blown up on me like that in front of others. I glanced at Malfoy and the other boy. They looked shocked, more shocked than me. It was as though they just couldn't believe that the "Golden Boy" had just yelled at his girlfriend, and quite frankly, I couldn't blame them.

But before any of us could speak however, He yanked me off down an empty corridor.

Once we were out of earshot he began to scream at me again, but I just blocked him out. That is until he slapped me and screamed, "Pay attention to me! Damn it!"

I fell to the floor, refusing to look up at him. That just made him angrier, so he kicked me, while I was lying there, while I was defenseless.

I tried to think of good things, happy, cheerful things. But I still felt the pain. He stopped, and walked away, leaving me to cry to myself.

I don't know how long I lay there, but I know it was quite awhile. Eventually I was able to drag myself up to the Gryffindor common room, and then to my dorm. I shut the curtains around my bed, pulled out my journal and wrote:

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I never let him see,

Everything he's done,

The pain, the sorrow,

I'm broken up inside,

I need to find someone,

To help me out of this hole,

He's helped me dig.

I never let him see,

The pain I have to bear,

The cuts, the bruises, scratches,

No one believes me.

Will the ever?

Until I die.

Once I loved you,

'til the death,

Now I can't stand

To see your face,

It haunts me everywhere I go,

The breathing on a cold night,

The footsteps in the snow.

I'll do anything to be free,

Of everything he does to me.

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A/N: My friend fireanddust wrote this poem. She rocks! Go and read her stories!

I burst out crying. How did my life become such a mess? What did I do to deserve this?

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