Wow lol Ya'll are too smart for my writing. Anyways, I just wanna say something before somebody complains. I do not know the specifics on gay marriage. I don't know how the process of entering or ending it works. I know that gay marriage is allowed in Massachusetts and that's why I chose Boston. I've never been there but I've always wanted to go. The streets and places in the story will most likely be made up. I've seen some people get really touchy about the specifics on other stories and leave these crazy reviews so I just thought I'd get this out of the way now. This is fiction, the story is about Kurt and Dave. I'm in no way trying to influence you or educate you on gay marriage or the city of Boston, it's all just part of the story.
Another thing, someone left a review on the other story about how they don't like how Azimio is portrayed and I've seen the same review in other stories and since he might show up in this one I thought I would clear something up so that no one else gets upset about it. I like drama and someone has to cause it and the only reason that Azimio is the somewhat "bad guy" is because he's the only other bullying football player whose name I knew who wasn't in Glee club. This whole thing is fiction so regardless of whether Ryan Murphy portrays the characters this way or not, I'm writing them like this. I mean it's not like we've seen much of Azimio to know if he's evil or not but then again we also haven't seen too much of Karofsky to know if he's as dreamy as we make him seem either and yet so many of us write him as awesome and no one complains about it. So please don't get offended by how I describe them, I really don't mean anything bad by it.
Speaking of Karofsky…. Ahhhh!
OMG LOL He was so hot in the Superbowl episode. I'm beyond excited and bummed because I just found out he has a girlfriend in real life. Lucky bitch…she's really pretty though. Damn her…lol jk. Well let's just pretend he's single :]
Anyways so yeah, I don't hate Azimio, it's just that since we don't know much about him I took the liberty of playing around with his character. He was funny in this super bowl episode though, he was like " this is a crazy town!" lol I dk I just thought that was really funny. And Puck! Omg he was so hot too.
Also, the story is just beginning, so don't you Kurtofsky lovers get discouraged. Drama is just so much fun lol
Anyways, I hope you like it. Thanks to everyone who's reading and reviewing, you guys are awesome.
I look forward to hearing from you :]
"You look good," Dave says, his eyes studying Kurt's features as he waits for the familiar reaction. The bright pink cheeks, the soft full lips stretching into a modest smile and sometimes when he's lucky, the incredible sound of Kurt's shy laugh.
But that was before. Kurt ignores his comment. His cheeks remain a pale rose color, his lips pressed together in a tight line and the shy laugh never comes.
"Let's just get started alright?" Kurt says.
"What's the rush?"
Kurt stares at him, disbelief in his eyes. He begins to shake his head as he opens his mouth to speak but is cut off by the woman sitting next to him.
"Mr. Karofsky, I think it's best if we get right to the point, if not for the two of you then at least for Maddie's sake. She needs to feel secure and loved. She needs to know that…"
"Don't tell what my daughter needs," Dave says harshly shutting the woman up.
The woman looks a little startled at the tone but quickly regains her composure.
"Dave," Kurt says in a warning tone which Dave ignores.
"You're making things very difficult here. If you cared for her at all then…" the woman begins.
"Allison, stop it," Kurt says as he notices Dave's angry expression, "She didn't mean anything by it Dave, lets just move on."
Dave looks at him, his expression cold. Kurt feels something tighten in his stomach.
"Where's your lawyer?" Kurt asks.
"I don't need a lawyer to talk to my husband."
Kurt gives a frustrated sigh, "We're not here to talk Dave!"
"In that case, I'm leaving," Dave says getting up and heading for the door.
"Stop it!" Kurt yells angrily, getting to his feet as well, "Why are you acting like this?"
Dave turns back to face his husband.
"Why am I? Why are you?" Dave demands.
"For your sake, I'm not going to answer that question," Kurt says, his eyes getting glossy.
His words have the desired effect. Dave feels as if Kurt just stabbed him with a knife. He looks at the smaller man from across the room and it takes every ounce of will power he has to not climb over the table and kiss him senseless.
Kurt looks away as he pushes a set of papers in Dave's direction.
"Just this once, let me keep some of my dignity. Don't make me beg. Sign the papers," Kurt says but despite his words, there is a desperate plea in his voice.
Dave looks at him for what seems like an eternity before shaking his head.
"No."
Kurt collapses into the chair covering his face with his hands. He can feel the tears coming as he looks at the two women in the room. One is his secretary, Jenna and the other is his lawyer, Allison.
"Could you give us a minute?" he says to them, "I need to talk to Dave alone."
Six Months Ago
"Kurt, please look at me," Dave begs as he walks around the couch, "Please."
Kurt backs away, his hand on his stomach. He feels sick. He's crying hysterically now and he doesn't think he can stop. It's getting harder to breathe. Dave's hand reaches out to him but Kurt flinches in disgust.
"Don't touch me!" he yells through the tears. His face feels so swollen and tired from the crying.
Dave doesn't listen, he launches himself at Kurt, enveloping him in his arms. He presses his forehead to Kurt's, they're tears blending together. Dave's never cried like this before. At times, his emotions had gotten the best of him but they had always been silent tears at the most. But right now, he's bawling to the point where he's on the verge of breaking into a hiccup fit. Who ever said grown men don't cry has never been faced with losing the one person they love the most in the world.
Kurt tries to break free but he's powerless against Dave's strength and at the moment, he's exhausted. It feels like the walls are closing in on him and there's nothing he can do about it. He continues to struggle because the only thing worse than falling to the ground pathetically is staying in Dave's arms.
"I'm so sorry Kurt. You have to believe me. Please… just oh god," Dave chokes out.
Kurt begins to shake violently as the sobs come harder and he buries his face in the familiar warmth of Dave's chest. They fall to the ground together.
"I don't …I don't understand…why? How could…why?" Kurt manages to get out.
The anguish in Kurt's voice makes Dave's heart break even more. His chest moves with every tear and he presses Kurt even tighter.
"Please stop crying Kurt. Please," Dave begs, but his pleads are futile because Kurt just cries harder.
"Just tell me why. Why?" Kurt lets out again, "I thought we were happy. I thought…"
"Oh god, I'm so sorry," Dave lets out. It's all he can say and he repeats it over and over again. In his mind he hopes that if he says it enough times it will make everything better.
Finally after what seems like an eternity, Kurt's violent sobs begin to subside. Dave doesn't let him go though, he holds him, burying his own face in Kurt's hair, taking in his scent and his feel. Kurt stays in his husband's arms, his body limp from exhaustion. Dave has never seen him like this, so fragile and broken, he looks like he'll never get up again. He did this and its killing him.
"I hate you," Kurt says. His voice is soft and weak, there's no anger in it, he just says it.
Dave's features display the agony that the words cause in him.
"I know," he says, tears flooding down his cheeks.
Present Day
Kurt finally meets Dave's gaze with his red rimmed eyes.
"It's been five months Dave," Kurt says, "Do you like seeing me like this?"
"It kills me and you know it but I'm not gonna do this."
"Why not? What do you think is gonna happen? Hmm?" Kurt lets out desperately, "Answer me! You think I'm gonna beg you to come back? You think I'm gonna give in to your bullshit about love once again? The whole I love you with all my heart, lets get married and live happily ever after crap?"
"That's enough, what we had was special and there's no need to trash it because you've changed your mind," Dave says harshly, "and yes, ok? Maybe I am hoping that that things get better. Maybe I do pray to God every night that you let me come home. Is that so wrong? To want to be there? To want to make love to my husband and say goodnight to my daughter?"
"You said it. It was special. Once upon a time, long ago, it used to be special but that ship has sailed David. We can make some kind of arrangement with Maddie so that you get to see her as much as you want. I would never deny you the rights to your own daughter."
"I would never let you," Dave replies.
"This is the fourth time we do this. You think this lawyer is cheap? She charges me every time you send those papers back, every time you refuse to show up…"
"You should have gotten the message by now," Dave says.
"I want this to be over Karofsky," Kurt says.
Dave stares at his husband trying to hide his surprise. Kurt hasn't called him that in over fifteen years and it makes him angry that he would go there.
"Then you're shit out of luck, Hummel," he replies.
"Sign the papers."
"No! Dammit Kurt! I love you," Dave says leaning across the table.
"No you don't" Kurt says back.
"Yes, I do. I took our vowels seriously when I said I would love you and be by you forever!"
"How convenient for you. What about the rest of those vowels? Hmm? What about the part where you promise to…"
"I'm not gonna divorce you because you're angry!" Dave yells before Kurt can finish the sentence.
Kurt gets up, simultaneously slapping his hands on the table.
"Then divorce me because I hate you! Divorce me because I can't look at you without wanting to cry!"
Dave shakes his head in desperate denial as he walks around the table to where the smaller man is standing.
"Divorce me because I'm begging you to! Please just ..divorce me!" Kurt continues to yell through angry sobs, "Please. I'll do whatever you ask, I'll get on my knees if that's what it takes."
Dave reaches Kurt as he starts to fall to his knees and he holds him up. Kurt inhales and holds his breath, he'd forgotten how strong Dave is.
"No," Dave whispers intensely, "You don't hate me and I'm not gonna divorce you."
Kurt shakes his head, "Please…" he says pushing against the other man's chest.
"No," Dave says a little more firmly, "You're gonna love me again, Kurt."
Dave's lips graze Kurt's face softly, "I'm gonna romance you and you're gonna fall in love with me all over again."
Dave's lips trail down Kurt's cheek to his lips. Those lips. The ones that make his heart beat like crazy. He had them. For fifteen years they were his.
Kurt closes his eyes for a moment before pushing Dave away. He lifts his hand up and slaps him so hard across the face that his hand hurts
"Don't touch me again. You don't have that right anymore."
Dave reaches up to touch his flaming cheek but instead drops the hand again.
"I'll always have that right. You gave me your heart, remember?"
"Yes I did. And then you killed it," Kurt says reaching for the black leather messenger bag on the table, "You can pick up Maddie on Friday before seven. Bring those papers signed."
Kurt walks out, hiding the tear sliding down his cheek.
Dave runs his hand through his hair as he stands in the empty conference room. He looks at the papers for a moment and in a moment of anger he picks them up and throws them across the room before walking out as well.
Fifteen Years Ago
Karofsky makes his way down to the basement of the Hummel's home. He slows down halfway down the staircase, his gaze falling on the small figure on the bed. He can feel that familiar feeling creep it's way into his heart. It's an overwhelming mixture of need, fear, desire, possessiveness and love. He holds his breath as he makes his way down the rest of the steps slowly and as quietly as possible. He crosses the room and gently sits on the edge of the bed as he looks down at Kurt's sleeping body, he takes in the sight committing it to memory. Kurt's slightly mussed hair, his long dark lashes pressed softly against his pale soft skin, his rosy cheeks and his beautifully full lips. Karofsky looks at him and vows to himself to never let anybody or anything stand between them. He loves this boy and he's gonna keep him even if has to fight against the whole world. He gives a sigh as he gently slides the textbook resting on Kurt's stomach from underneath his grip, he places it on the nearby nightstand.
Kurt's chest rises softly, up and down and Karofsky presses his palm to Kurt's heart. Kurt stirs a little but doesn't wake up. Karofsky's lips turn into a smile as he leans down and kisses his forehead, ever so gently. Then he slides his lips downwards and places another soft kiss on Kurt's closed eyelids and his nose and his warm cheeks and finally his lips. Kurt's mouth lets escape a sweet little sound that makes Karofsky's stomach flutter as he meet his suddenly open blue eyes.
"Hey," Karofsky says in almost a whisper.
Kurt smiles up at him before sitting up, "Hey, yourself."
"I was thinking we could hang out tonight, maybe watch a movie or something but if you're tired…"
"No," Kurt says with a devious smile, "suddenly I'm not tired at all."
Kurt's arm wraps around the jock's stomach bringing him closer. He leans in and gives him a passionate kiss as he tries to ignore the bruises he knows are all over Karofsky's body. They break the kiss and Karofsky hugs him against his chest.
Kurt can't help himself, he knows Karofsky doesn't like to talk about it but it's not in Kurt's nature to stay quiet.
"You're hurt again," Kurt says.
Karofsky gives a deep sigh and lets go of the smaller boy. Kurt's gaze follows Karofsky as he walks over to the small sofa and throws himself on it lazily.
"Not tonight Kurt," Karofsky says, covering his face with his forearm.
"Then when? When is it appropriate for me to worry about you? When you're paralyzed and lying in some hospital?" Kurt says standing up.
Karofsky closes his eyes and pinches the bridge of his nose before looking at Kurt again.
"It's not that bad ok? It's hockey, this shit happens."
"You were never bruised before," Kurt says.
"Yes I was, you just never noticed or cared. The guys are lightening up. Azimio and I just don't see eye to eye sometimes but it's no big deal. Now stop bitching and get over here before I lose my goddamn mind," Karofsky say with a grin, trying to change the topic.
Kurt gives a frustrated sigh but does as he's told because he just can't resist that grin. He walks toward the couch and stands next to it.
"Are you gonna stand there pouting or are you gonna give me some love?" Karofsky asks.
Kurt crosses his arms, "I don't think we both fit there."
"What do you think all of this is for?" replies Karofsky looking down at his chest.
Kurt shakes his head, trying to hide his amusement, "My dad's upstairs and take your shoes off my couch."
Karofsky slips his shoes off mindlessly and he can't help but stare as Kurt bends down to pick up the remote for the TV. He smiles to himself before pulling Kurt by the shirt.
"Dave, stop it," Kurt says as he tries to pull himself off of Karofsky.
"Are you still mad? Because I can fix that," the bigger boy says.
It's no use fighting those strong arms, so Kurt settles in and rests his head on the jock's solid chest.
"I talk about things Dave. I understand you don't like to but I do. You say things are getting better but they're not and it's my fault. I know that but…"
"Shut up Kurt," Karofsky wraps his arms tighter around Kurt, "sometimes you're really stupid. You want to talk about stuff, that's fine. Just not tonight. Tonight I just wanna lay here with you and watch TV."
Kurt bites his lip but says nothing. They stay like that for a while switching the TV back and forth between ESPN and American Idol. Neither of them really paying attention. Karofsky's hand begins to gently caress the back of Kurt's neck and Kurt closes his eyes as he feels the bigger boy's chest rise up and down with every breath. As a young blonde begins to sing in the TV screen, Karofsky finally breaks the silence.
"That's a good wedding song," he blurts out without knowing why.
Kurt's eyes snap open.
"Uh…yeah. I guess it is," Kurt says cautiously.
"I mean I personally wouldn't choose it but…whatever."
Kurt stays silent.
"I like For You I Will," Karofsky continues, "I mean it's kinda cheesy but I think it suits us. Do you know it?"
Kurt swallows and he's glad Karofsky can't see the look of confusion on his face.
"Uh… I don't think I've heard it," Kurt replies and his eyes grow wide as Karofsky begins to sing.
For you I will…err
I'm gonna muster every…uh…
For you I will….
Blah blah…
Cannon ball into the water….err…
Kurt can't hold it any longer and he burst into laughter, he buries his face in Karofsky's shirt, as the latter continues his attempt to sing. Kurt continues to listen through hysterical giggles.
"Stop it, Dave. Stop," Kurt blurts out covering Karofsky's mouth with his hand, "Oh my god, I can't breath."
Karofsky chuckles, "What? You don't like it?"
"Uh…I can't even tell what it is," Kurt replies with a laugh, "You know you wouldn't be too bad if you actually tried to sing the song and learned the lyrics but for now I'm just gonna beg you to shut up."
They continue to laugh as Kurt settles back into Karofsky's chest.
"Maybe you can find a song," Karofsky says as he switches the channel.
"A song for what?"
"For when we get married." Karofsky begins.
"FOR WHEN WE WHAT?" Kurt yelps, hastily pushing himself off and accidentally kneeing the jock in the groin.
"SONOF….what the hell?" Karofsky screams sitting up, his hand covering his crotch.
"Married?" Kurt says loudly, "Are you crazy?"
"Yes married. Dammit Kurt…" Karofsky lets out through clenched teeth.
"Uh it's a little early for that, don't you think?" Kurt says, a little flustered.
"Well…I didn't mean right now genius."
"Oh…uh…ok" Kurt says taking a seat next to Karofsky, completely oblivious to the other boy's pain.
After a few minutes Karofsky finally begins to feel like a man again and sends a glance in Kurt's direction. He has no idea why he said that out loud but he sure as hell didn't think Kurt would take it like this.
"So…what is it? You waiting for someone better to come along?" Karofsky ventures.
Kurt turns to look at him, "Maybe."
Karofsky raises an eyebrow at the smaller boy, "That so? Well in that case I guess I better go," he says, angrily reaching for his shoes.
He feels Kurt's slender arms slide around his waist from behind.
"You really are stupid sometimes," Kurt says, pressing his head to Karofsky's back and giving it a kiss, "Better than you is impossible."
Karofsky breathes out like he'd been holding it in and smiles before turning around and embracing Kurt.
"Then why don't you want to marry me?" he asks.
"I never said I didn't want to," Kurt replies, "I just…we're in High School and it seems a little early, don't you think?"
"No. I already know I wanna spend the rest of my life with you but I didn't mean right now," Karofsky says as they lean back on the couch.
"I know but maybe we shouldn't plan that far ahead. You might change your mind, you never know. We're gonna go off to college and you're gonna meet more people. There's gonna be hot gay guys in abundance who know the difference between a homerun and a touchdown…"
Karofsky chuckles as he listens to Kurt rant. How could he ever love or want anyone else? How could he ever feel good with his arms wrapped around someone who isn't Kurt?
"I'm gonna propose to you one day," he says, "You just wait and see. We're gonna get married and we're gonna have a dog and a nice place somewhere. Maybe kids. I'm not so sure cause you know they poop and…talk and stuff but we'll see."Kurt leans in closer wanting to melt into Karofsky. His lips stretch into a goofy smile because he hasn't even slept with this boy and he's already proposing.
"As creepy as it may sound, you're never getting rid of me," Karofsky says hugging Kurt tighter.
"Really? Because I was just thinking that you should go, my other lover will be here soon," Kurt says with a grin.
"You're evil," Karofsky says before catching Kurt's lips in a passionate kiss.
"My dad's upstairs," Kurt manages.
Karofsky gives a slight groan as he kisses Kurt's neck, "I'm sure he won't mind."
Hope you liked it :]
The song that Dave tries to sing is For You I Will by Teddy Geiger and I don't own it obviously.
