A/N: I'm soooo sorry I don't feel great about my writing ability, like it seemed so much better in my head then in writing but here's another chapter, and ima try and update on this quickly. As well as on the other fanfics I've neglected for so long D:!


It had been four days since the brat came to be under my command and as much as it pained me to say, he wasn't as much of a brat as I thought he would be. I mean he was still fucking useless but not as useless. Sometimes he would have those moments where he wanted to talk to his friends what were their names? Micase and Admin? Whatever, as soon as he showed any type of weakness like that he was met with a brutal beating but lately…I didn't go as hard on him as I had with the first encounter. He had, ugh, grown on me. Like an annoying bug that I had no intention of swatting. He bid to my every command and he was always by my side, alert for anything that was thrown at him sadly Hanji was the exception to what he would never be able to expect.

"Hellloooo Ereeeeen~~" Hanji raised a hand in greeting and the boys bright green eyes widened in slight happiness. My eyes turned to slits at the action. The boy was happy to see shitty glasses but not with me? Not like I really even cared, the brat could hate me if so be it. She wrapped an arm around Eren's shoulder who only slightly flinched from the contact. With a slight grunt of annoyance I pulled the newest reports towards me and began skimming them though I was more into the conversation next to me than these damn parchments.

"Eren how about we do a full body examination today?" Hanji asked, taking Eren's hands into hers with mischievous sparkles swimming around her pupils. Eren gave her a slightly horrified look.

"F-full Examination?"

"Mhhm no poking or prodding just me taking a thorough check to see if your titan abilities hindered any parts of your body, also I want to ask a few questions if it's alright?"

"He has no choice but to go through with it shitty glasses. He'll do what I say and brat you're getting the exam. End of discussion." I cut in albeit a bit crude. His eyes down casted a tinge and he saluted me before passing Hanji and making his way down to her lab. Hanji gave me an angered expression which momentarily caught me off guard.

"Do you really have to be such an ass to the boy? He's a fucking human being last time I checked yet you're treating him like a fucking play thing!"

"Says the girl who plans to do weird experiments to him as if he is nothing more than an animal. So spare me the saint talk." I found myself spatting back at her. Her glare deepened and so did mine.

"I ask for his consent unlike you who tosses him around left and right and you even made his room the damn dungeons! I understand Rivaille really I do. You are helping the boy in your own way and don't give me that look you care about Eren—"

"That idiot is nothing to me! So don't get so far in your little fantasy that you start to lose touch with reality, now get out of my sight and attend to the examination now." I was cracking, my anger was getting the best of me but who the fuck was I kidding, she was right! If she wasn't I wouldn't be this upset over the situation. But…I cant get close to anyone…not with how things are. She saluted me stiffly and looked at me with pity making me feel like the brat in this situation and she quickly walked out of the office, slamming the door as a reminder of how much this brat was getting under my skin. The thing that was pissing me off was that he wasn't even technically doing anything to get to me he was just…just being himself! That damn drive he had to succeed! That fucking shitty smile he gave people! It made me sick! I pushed the reports to the side not even having the urge to look at any of that crap right now and I walked down the corridor to my room and with more force than necessary slammed the door shut.

"Being this way makes it much easier…" Why didn't they get the hint?

With Hanji and Eren

"Whelp Eren looks like everything is as normal as can be on a young boy." Hanji exclaimed with a soft sigh, snapping off her gloves and falling freely into the wooden chair beside the exam table. Eren quickly re-dressed finding it awkward to still be unclothed.

"There are a lot of bit marks on your hand though, are they from a titan?" Hanji asked curiously.

"Is this part of the questions you wanted to ask me?" Eren asked playfully. Hanji smiled and leaned back more in her chair.

"Nope just a question from a curious titan admirer~"

"Well in a way I suppose you could say they were made from a titan. To actually turn into my form I have to bite down on my hand, but not without anger or some kind of motive to get my blood pumping. Then smoke appears and after that…well I don't know things kinda black out at that point." He chuckled nervously scratching the back of his neck in a nervous habit. Hanji wrote furiously down on her notepad that mysteriously came out of no where. Sticking the pen a bit in her mouth she hummed in thought.

"By black out what exactly do you mean? While in the titan form are you able to see whats going on?" Hanji peered at Eren who was deep in thought. He fiddled with his fingers.

"N-not really, its like…going to sleep and dreaming and then waking up and you forget the dream. I have no idea whats going on while im in that form…one time I even tried to attack Mikasa…" He whispered with immense guilt. Hanji stopped her scribbling.

"Mikasa is your adopted sister I presume?" She asked without looking up from her paper. Eren nodded though hanji didn't see the action.

"I couldn't control the damn fucker! I went after her…who knows who else I would have went after! They would all be dead! And itd be my—"

"Eren. Calm down." Hanji snapped her eyes to Eren's frantic green ones. He was shaking violently and his breathing became more shallow. She sighed and placed all her things back on the table beside her.

"We can continue this later, losing control like this Eren is only going to make it harder to help you control it."

"Tch, oh you guys actually want to help, how kind" Eren mumbled sarcastically.

"We're not that heartless kid, but im going to take a guess and say you meant that more towards Levi then the rest of us." Hanji glanced at Eren who was busy re-strapping his uniform.

"I don't know what that guys problem is! Not only does his face just shout 'I fucking hate the world and all that inhabit it' but its like he thinks im taking all of this as a joke!" Eren shouted, his arms flying up in exasperation. Hanji stood there in her own thoughts.

"That's Levi's way of testing you. Its not that he doesn't care if I were to guess he cares a lot more than we all think. Look ive known Levi for a long while, he…well that's not my place to tell but really he's been through a lot. Youre mom was eaten by a titan right?" She asked carefully, this wasn't really a subject she wanted to get into but if anything was going to be settled it had to be talked of sooner or later. He clenched his fists, blood seeping through his fingers and dripping onto the white sheets as he nodded his head solemnly.

"Well Levi has experienced something similar but imagine that scene taking place over and over again. Watching trusted comrades die continuously. You shouldnt worry about him too much he may seem like an ass but really he's an ass that just needs to fart." Hanji explained happily. Eren smiled a little to himself, trying to cover up his laughter.

"Well he does look constipated maybe he really does just need a fart." Eren laughed with a slight snort to Hanji's amusement as she joined in on the laughter. They made their way back up to Levi's office but found that the shorter man wasn't in there anymore. Hanji scratched her head in confusion and then suddenly smacking her forehead in a facepalm.

"He's probably in his room, Eren could you go check for me? I need to go tell Erwin about the examination." Hanji pleaded using a puppy dog look.

"Sure,I dont mind..much" He added softly with a hint of sarcasm, walking away and down the hall where Levi's room was. He had never been in the room before so he had no idea for sure if this was really his superior's room or not but when his duties for the day were done with and he would order Eren to go back to the dungeons and rest, Levi would usually go into this room. He stood outside the door and gave three soft knocks. No answer.

"Heichou? Are you in here?" Still nothing. Eren sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. Should he enter? Well it wasnt any good standing outside of a door like a stalker so he figured a quick peek wouldnt hurt. Oh it hurt alright...hurt him right in the feels.

"Heichou...?" Eren whispered into the silent room that held none other than Levi sleeping on the couch in the corner of his room. Eyes widened and mouth agape Eren took a few cautious steps into the room towards the man. He actually sleeps? Levi was laying on the couch in a very laid back position which made Eren laugh because really because it was almost impossible to ever catch this man off guard and peaceful. His bang splayed across his forehead looking as soft as velvet. Eren tilted his head taking in the sight of this, it may never come again. Leaning in closer Eren was now towering over the sleeping figure. Wait..an idea struck him. Giggling mischievously to himself he poked his forehead, holding back laughter when Levi scrunched his face and swatted aimlessly at the air.

"He calls me a brat yet hes shorter than me-ACK!"

*ok now im going back into Levi's POV*

Really how stupid does this fucktard think I am? Feigning sleep sure did pull off though. I now had the brat by his throat cutting off anymore remarks (and probably any air) he had because he really needed a lesson right here and now.

"Jeager. Go get me a bar of soap." I had him locked onto my gaze with a calm expression oh but i hope he saw my aura of pure anger right now. I guess he did since when i let him go he quickly ran out of the room and returned back in mere seconds with a bar of soap. I sat up slowly, ignoring his protests and apologies. He was on his knees bowing his head over and over again, tears swelling up in his eyes. Tch groveling? And this is supposed to be our secret weapon to save humanity?

"H-heichou really im sorry sir! I was just playing and ah..." His eyes widened and he knew he had said the wrong word.

"Playing? You were just playing? You want to play? Theres a nice amount of titans right outside the wall who would kill to play with you because you will get no playtime here brat. Open your mouth." My glare intensified as he slowly but unsurely opened his mouth. And thus is where the soap comes into play. I shoved it into his mouth scrubbing away at the disgusting vile of words he's spilled.

"Dont ever think id let my guard down you piece of shit! You really need to watch the way you talk to the people above you, remember your life is not your own anymore! Your an object of ours and a pawn of the military. You have no freedom to anything anymore dont you get it!" At this point I had no idea if i was describing him or...myself. He gagged and choked on his own soapy saliva and i threw him back in disgust when some of his saliva dribbled to my hand. He tried to regain his breath and rubbed at his throat, spitting up foam and spit.

"You will be cleaning the castle tonight, you get no rest, and i want you at the maneuvering practice at 6 a.m sharp. If you are late, if there's even one spec of dirt left than you will be punished as fit. Understood." My eyes bore into the boy quivering on the floor.

"Understood sir." He didn't look up when he said that and for reasons unknown it pissed me off even more. Swiftly I kicked him in the chin and feeling a bit of guilt when i saw blood seep through the side of his mouth indicating he had bit his tongue deep.

"When you are being addressed to you will look the person in their eye shitty brat!" This got his attention and he looked up and i felt all the breath leave me in that single moment. The once vibrant emerald eyes now seemed dull and...lifeless. With robotic movements he saluted me and though he was looking at me he wasnt actually seeing me.

"Understood sir." Even his voice sounded dead. Looking away I turned my back to him and shooed him away like an annoyance. But really...I couldnt look at him..not with him looking like that. Oh god...oh fucking god was i actually feeling bad for what i did?

"Go attend to your duties." He saluted me once more and walked briskly out of my room, passing Hanji on the way out. She truly had the most worst timings for popping up. I sank into the couch, shakily staring at my hands. I didn't even notice Hanji coming into the room but i most definitely felt the slight sting when she slapped me. not from the actual slap but more so in my heart. My heart ive been trying so hard to close off.

"Well, you broke him. Congratu-fucking-lations. You took away his innocence alright, leaving nothing but a hollow in its wake. Hope it was fucking worth it. And I don't care if you want to punish me for assaulting a higher up. You definitely don't deserve the title of corporal at this moment in time." No..no it most definitely wasnt worth it and for fucks sake everything she was saying was fucking true!

"Shit!" I punched the wall next to me, catching Hanji off guard a bit. I continued to punch and kick the wall like a...like a brat!

"Why am i caring!? I don't care I don't! Why is this boy getting under my fucking skin!?" I was so heated, yet all i saw was Eren broken, I broke him...dammit i was a more horrible monstrosity than the damn titans! Hanji placed a firm hand on my shoulder, breaking me out of my tantrum.

"I haven't seen you this riled up since that time I took the last cookie from your moms bake sale." Hanji smiled softly. I inhaled a deep breath, exhaling it slowly in a soft chuckle. Brushing her hand off and straightening myself out, I placed my usual stoic expression back into place.

"We were like six at the time dumbass." Though he saw where she was going with this. He had too much bottled up.

"Hanji...Im terrified of whats going on right now.." I closed my eyes but the green-eyed boy would always come back to haunt me.

"Dont be, im glad he's here, he may be humanity's trump card but maybe he's your savior as well dontcha think~?" She poked my cheek and i bent her finger back painfully.

"Stop saying weird stuff. Clean this room up im heading out." Letting go of her abused finger I quickly walked to the door but before leaving it seems titan lover over there couldn't keep her thoughts to herself.

"If you open up to him he'll open up to you."

"But why is it him..." I questioned quietly into the empty corridor. I heard her laugh softly, sitting herself on the couch.

"Would you believe in fate Raviolli?" she questioned with a smile and a tilt of her head. I rolled my eyes.

"I'll believe in that when I see Erwin kiss Petra." I smirked slightly at the over dramatic gagging sounds of Hanji, and finally closed the door behind me. I hated dirt. It contaminated everything. Hiding things with its imperfection. This feeling of guilt made me feel dirty, what else to do but clean it up whether Eren liked it or not.