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Chapter 2

Land of roses

My cold fingers shake as I push open the bathroom door, I take in a chilling breath, I barely have time to take in my surroundings when my mouth is overcome with the soft warm lips of Tyler Crowley. I let a moan slip from my lips as his hands roam up under my shirt. I can feel his breath against my teeth as he chuckles against my mouth. "You like that don't you?" Hmm I do like it, a lot but I don't want him in charge. I smile against his lips, putting my hands against his chest and pushing him back against the wall. Trailing my finger down his chest I feel him shiver beneath my touch. Yes. I slide my tongue over my lips moistening them as I whisper out "And you like this, don't you?" my voice a hint of a taunting laugh, I look up through my lashes at his 6 foot 2 frame, he takes in a sharp breath and I capture his encroaching chuckle with a smothering kiss.

Best first day ever, so I was a tad bit late for Biology. I don't think of myself as the best liar but I figure I don't really have to be when you live in Forks Washington. Mr Banner let it go with ease. I took my seat and pulled my cell out; of course Jessica wanted to know what happened. I look up she is only two seats away from me and I can tell she is anxious to know. I quickly send a reply a quick wink face ;) and watched her reply appear on my screen LMAO!

The class went by in a blur, when the bell rang I quickly grabbed my books and hooked up with Jess and Lauren, apparently we all had Gym together next and then cheer practice. Lauren quickly latched her manicured hand around my wrist in a firm grip pulling me to a stop in the hallway. "Ok omigod I can't wait any longer what happened?! Did you guys kiss? Did you guys more than kiss?" The sentence came out sounding as one whole word, but I understood her, I laugh out loud. "You guys are too much. But if you must know I never more than kiss and tell." They both suppressed gasps as we all giggled and head to gym class.

I was expecting gym to be a bore of only badminton games and volley ball but jess, Lauren and myself somehow convinced coach to let us get our credit through the weight room, which basically means we all lounge around our schools vacant weight room gossiping and sometimes running on the treadmill. We were all sitting in front of the wall made up of giant mirrors listening to my iphone playlist when Lauren cleared her lips. I glance over at her and find that she is giving Jess a strange glare. "What's going on?" I ask to both girls. "Fine if you won't say anything I will" Lauren huffs out while rolling her eyes. "So Bella did you notice anything strange in Bio today?" Lauren nudges my arm with a playful smile on her face. "Uh I'm not sure what?" I think back to Biology I don't recall anything so I listen to Lauren more intently. "One word Edward Cullen." Jessica laughs out loud "that's two words you idiot." Lauren slaps Jess in the arm. "Shut up!" I roll my eyes "sorry to disappoint you guys but that name has no meaning to me, do I know this person?"

Lauren laughs out loud "He was only staring at you the entire class, he's you biology partner duh." "Oh, he was probably pissed I didn't even glance at him." I reply. They both give each other a disbelieving look. "Uh sure hun, he was probably pissed." They both burst out laughing. "He's totally got a thing for you Bells!" "Whatever guys, let's go to cheer practice now ok?" I stand pulling my crazy friends up by the arms. All the while thinking now, who the hell is Edward Cullen?

One thing I'm glad I asked my mom for before I came to Forks was that she give me her old car, now that she had Phil, and they were constantly traveling for Phil's baseball games, so I convinced Renee what was the point of the car to just sit in the parking lot not being used. So Renee gave me her car. Well my car now; my beautiful Chevy Cruz, with cream leather interior that smelled like my strawberry shampoo. I pulled into my driveway at Charlie's. When I first moved here two years ago Charlie was still living in the same old run down house he and Renee bought when she was pregnant with me.

Now I'm not too demanding or whatever I did ask Charlie if he ever thought of moving. Of course he was reluctant at first but I changed his mind with the theory of our fresh start as a family, why spend our new allotted time together in this dingy old house that housed bad memories of stale arguments and divorce papers, I mean my old crib was pushed into a corner to make room for my new twin bed. This just would not do, for Charlie's sake. So we moved. Now we are situated in a two bedroom two story brick house with wait for it... two bathrooms. Yes, privacy! And thank god the driveway is paved because who wouldn't pave their driveways in a town that rains 90% of the time, hello it's called mud. I swapped the twin for a queen I managed to sway Renee's guilt of sending her only daughter away to pay for that one, thanks mommy!

Unlocking the door I throw my bag down on the tiled floor and lay down on the white leather couch. Picking up my lap top I flip to my friend's page with one name in mind Edward Cullen. Nowhere, I cannot find him at all; does this dude not have a social life? Weird, I guess I'll just have to pay attention to biology class to see who he is.

I check the clock on the tv 5:37 Charlie will be home at 6, he's the chief of police in Forks and sometimes he works out of Port Angeles. I decide to get change out of my uniform, the girls and I decided that we had to make an impression on the freshmen , let them know just who is who, so we all wore our cheer uniforms to school for the first day, we don't usually have to wear them unless there is a game but I figured why not. In my closet I pull out a pair of yoga pants and a tank top, I walk over to the mirror at my desk/make up station and fix my hair pulling it into a high pony.

My room is amazing I love it back in phoenix my room was kind of small my bed taking up most of the room and the walls Renee wouldn't let me paint over because she like the colour yellow she said it made her feel like the sun was all around us, ya right. The first thing I did when we moved in was paint my room a pale purple, and put up long sheer white curtains. My phone ringing pulled me from my thoughts, falling back on my back l look up at my ceiling and answer without looking at the i.d."Hello?"

"Hi Honey."

"Dad? What's up? You on your way home?"

"Uh no I have stay for some over time, I just wanted to let you know you'll have to fend for yourself tonight for dinner. Ok?" He sounds disappointed.

"Yeah no problem dad, sorry don't work to hard though." Hanging up I think what am I going to do?

I quickly pick my phone back up and dial the most familiar number I used almost every day this summer...Jake.

He answered on the second ring, "Hey babe, what's up?" I can hear him yawn in the background.

"Awe Jake I'm sorry did I wake you?" I guess I can be a real bitch sometimes but with Jake he doesn't take my shit. He put me in my place two years ago, and we've been close ever since.

"Uh Bells don't worry ok, I'm up, so what's up?"

I guess I have a soft spot for Jake, I don't know what it is, but when I'm with him or talking to him it's like I'm another person, a fragile person. He knows all my weaknesses, he knows that secretly I really miss my mom, and just hope that Phil is treating her right, he knows that I'm secretly with all the guys that I'm with because I grew up without the love of my dad, I craved Peter because he was older and gave me a love I've never experienced before. He can see past all my problems and he likes me for me.

"Alright!" I chuckle, "So my dad is working late, I'm on my own for dinner wanna come over and order a pizza?" I can practically feel him smile; I feel like a weight has been lifted from my chest, I can't wait till he gets here.

I can hear Jake's little rabbit putter up my drive, I'm at the door before he can even knock (not that he would he usually just comes in) I jump into his arms wrapping my legs around his waist, I can feel him put his strong arms around my tiny waist, his warmth comforting me like I've been needing this all day and I didn't even know it. I can feel his nose in my hair as he inhales deeply, chuckling. "Hey Bells."

"Hey" I sigh. He lets me go and we go to couch to eat the pizza that arrived five minutes before he did. I snuggle up close to my best friend and throw my feet into his lap.

"So how was your first day of school?" he asks while grabbing one of my toes and making me squeal.

"uh it was good, you know whatever it's just school." I avert my gaze "what about you?" Jake tugs lightly on my foot. "Hey don't do that, what's wrong?" his big brown eyes are holding my gaze and he's so sweet, he knows all my secrets so why keep this from him. "Well apparently Tyler Crowley was all bent out of shape all summer raving about getting with me, so we hooked up in the girls washroom after lunch."

I can't gauge Jake's reaction, so I lightly kick him with my foot. "You ok?" I ask. He shakes his head slightly then looks up at me. "Why do you do this Bella?" he looks crushed, my heart plummets, mine and jakes relationship is special to me and yes we have hooked up many times, our relationship is more of a friends with benefits thing. I remove my legs from his lap and climb up into it instead so I'm straddling him. "I'm sorry" I say. I look down at my hands in his lap when I feel his warm fingers tilt my chin up to meet his gaze. "I know, Bella. I know how you are it's just what you do. But then you always feel like shit afterwards, which upsets me. I can't stand to see you do this to yourself Bells, you know I'm here for you right?" No I don't know, it's like his words never really sink in. I nod my head. I feel his hands slide down my waist and rest on my hips, I lean down and place a small kiss beside his mouth. I leans his forehead against my own and moves till his lips connect with my own. His kiss encompasses my mouth and he sucks my lower lip between his, I reach my tongue out and graze his bottom lip until he opens up and lets me in. He lets a soft moan of ecstasy escape from between our lips. I wiggle my hips into his core and his fingers press into my thighs. Urgently he lifts my shirt from my body and tosses it onto the floor, his fingers roaming over my braless form. My skin glistens with goose bumps wherever he trails his touch. I pull his shirt from over his head momentarily breaking our kiss, I toss it onto the floor beside my own, jakes mouth crashes into my neck enlisting a moan of pleasure from myself.

Jake picks me up from his lap and lays me back on the couch where he starts to slide my yoga pants down, I reach up to unbutton his jeans. My fingers are shaking and I can't get the button undone, I suck in a breath when Jakes hand covers my own stilling them. I look into his eyes. "it's ok baby, breath." And just like that I'm relaxed, I didn't even know I had been holding my breath until that point. Jake unbuttons his jeans and slides them down, I gently push his boxer briefs down with them. Seeing his long member always make my heart stop and start again but one touch from Jakes soothing caress leaves me in awe. He lowers his hands and pushes my yoga's down, completely naked now, deciding to go commando coming in handy, Jake eyes rake over my body, I'm completely shaved but Jake knows that already.

I spread my legs for him as his eyes turn dark with desire, I tremble with anticipation as he glides his fingers down my inner thighs and back gently flicking my tender nub. I reach my hands into his hair as he lowers his lips gently to my sensitive clit, kissing it gently he begins to circle it with his tongue sending shivers through my body, I lower my hands from his hair and trail my fingers across his tan muscular body, I gently touch his shaft and I feel it twitch I grasp him in my hand and begin to stroke him stopping his movements on my own sex he comes up hovering over my tiny body and begins kissing me. I let go of him and move my hands back to his hair, Jake pushes up on his arms and gazes into my brown eyes I nod my head letting him know I'm alright and it's ok.

We keep our eyes on each other as he prepares to enter me his member fully erect slides down my stomach, to my inner thighs I can feel him hovering over my opening I take a deep breath in, looking into my best friends eyes as he pushes into my throbbing center, I close my eyes and arch my back up in pleasure. He begins to slowly slide in and out of me, as he leans his face into my neck peppering me with tiny kisses, gently sucking my neck. My hands In his soft hair just long enough to run my fingers through. I can feel a thin sheen of sweat start to coat my body. I bite my lip. And moan out Jake's name. I can't help but think how my afternoon shag with Tyler was nothing compared to this, almost as if I stole Tyler's virginity, it was clumsy and even when I positioned him for perfect entrance it was still uncomfortable. I hook my leg up over Jake's back as he pulls in and out of me, "faster, uh... Jake so close, puh...leasse." I manage out between ragged breaths, Jake complies and speeds up, slamming into me harder, the only sounds in the room is the faint tv our hard laboured breathing and flesh hitting flesh, Jake moves his hand down to my clit and starts rubbing me, sending me into a hard and fast orgasm, I shudder out, my walls quaking around his thickness as it slides in and out of me Jake stiffens and releases his load inside me with a few more thrust, I'm quaking again as he collapses on top of me.

"Bells..." I let out a faint hmm noise to let him know I heard him. He pulls out of me and lays beside me on the couch, throwing his arm across my stomach his head lightly resting above mine on the cushion. "You know I love you, I'm here for you, I know you get cravings Bella and I know you still keep some secrets from me about when you lived in Phoenix but I just want you to know that I can fulfill your cravings just like today, you didn't need Tyler, and I think you know that already."

I take in his words, "I love you too, Jake. I want you to know I'm not like this with anyone but you, ok? And if you were wondering, I think I might of stolen his virginity." My cheeks heat in embarrassment. Jake burst out laughing beside me. He stops suddenly becoming serious. "You know Bells if he was a virgin you do know why he went to you right?" I crinkle my eyebrows at him. "because you give it away without a fight, no questions asked, you rocked his world and what did you get in return an awkward if uncomfortable shag in the girls washroom, this is what I'm talking about."

He was absolutely right, he used me! He probably didn't even care about me at all. The heat started to swell behind my eyes. "awe Bells come her-" "no!" I push Jakes hand away and sit up as I grab my clothes to get changed. "Bella you know I care about you, this is what I knew would happen baby." I couldn't stop the tears that ripple through my body then, I feel Jake wrap his arms around me in a hug. I pull myself slightly together, clearing my throat, I straighten up a bit. "you know, it's late Jake you should go home." Jake went to reply but I shook my head and handed him his clothes. Gathering them Jake new better and left me to pick up the pieces of my fucked my life.