Chapter 2- The Struggle.

A/N So as you can tell in the first chapter, Im changing it to a step-father instead of a step-mother thats the bad guy, I know I know, we all like Shelia being that bad guy..well woman lol...but for what Im writing it has to be that way lol And OMG! thanks for the reviews...Ive never really been sure if I could write well. You guys totally made my day!

Now theres a slight trigger warning in this on for mention of self harm. I personally have been in that place and know how hard it is get out of and stay out of it. So if for any reason you feel the need to talk to some one, Im right here *points to self* and am more then happy to chat and make new friends. (Im totally a people person if you cant tell lol )

Ok ok..Chapter 2 here we go, enjoy and as alway please please please tell me what you think :D


"What the hell Beca?! What happened to you?!" Chloe shouted, causing a previously sleeping blonde to shoot up from the bed and Beca to groan in frustration as she realised she and CR had swapped rooms so she could spend alone time with Stacie. "fuck..." she muttered to herself as she dropped her head back down and put an arm over her eyes only to flich and hiss in pain, the two people she wanted to see the least of at that moment were staring at her.

"Nothing?" she replied, though it came out more as a question.

"Nothing?! That sure as fuck doesnt look like nothing" Aubrey yelled, walking closer to Beca.

"Im fine..." Beca said, not opening her eyes "Its not like I havent been through worse" she said so quietly she was sure no one else heard her.

"Well I can clearly see your nose is broken and needs to be reset" Chloe stated, moving to the other side of the bed and climbed up next to Beca. Only then did the small brunettes eyes open, well as much as they could do to the slight swelling that had occured while she slept. Looking at the clock she saw that it was just after ten in the morning. "And what do you mean you've been through worse" the red head continued, ignoring the look Aubrey shot at her.

Beca groaned and sat up against the head board. "Nothing...and Im not going to a hospital so just forget it"

"Im pre med, you dont need to go to the hospital...Ill fix it" Chloe said, placing a hand on Beca's arm, only to pull it back when the brunette hissed in pain. Looking from Beca's face which showed her trying to fight the pain, to the spot on Becas arm she had touch, Aubrey and Chloe both sucked a breath in. The girls wrists were covered in dark purple blueish bruises, that almost looked liked a hand mark.

"Seriosly, what the fuck happened Beca?!" It Chloe's turn to yell at Beca. Neither senior missed the unconsious flinch that Beca gave at the yelling. Sighing Chloe got of the bed. "Ill be right back...I need to get ice for after I reset your nose.." Chloe said as she walked towards the door. "Brey...can you come here for a sec" she called over her shoulder to her blonde girlfriend.

Aubrey had been lost in thought looking at the tiny brunette that was laying in the bed infront of her. She had been trying to keep her thoughts from jumping to conclusions to what had happened, and prayed she was wrong in what she thought. Beca had always been the strong one, the one to take care of everyone. Now she sat in the bed and Aubrey could tell she was fighting her conscious to stay in the room with them. The pain and torment that was fighting behind the dark blue eyes she loved so much was killing Aubrey. Who could have done something like this to their Beca. "Dont. Move." She said looking at the brunette thats was looking any where but her. Aubrey quickly followed Chloe to the door of their room.

"Oh my god Brey" Chloe said throwing herself into the blondes arms.

"I know babe." She replied sliding her arms around Chloe's waist, placing a soft kiss to her forehead and pulling her close. After a minute they released each other. "Go get the ice and tell the girls to go explore the city with out us today, that way we can take care of Beca and sort everything out."

With a quick kiss Chloe was out the door. Returning to the bedroom, Aubrey couldnt help but gasp a little at the sight she saw. Beca, the strong, smart mouthed, stubborn, little pain in her side, was curled up with her knees to her chest and tears rolling down her face. Without thinking Aubrey was in the bed pulling Beca into her arms, and it was just want Beca had wanted even if it emotional hurt to have the blondes arms around her. Beca tucked her face into the crook of her blonde captians neck and continued to cry quietly. After a few minutes Aubrey tightened her hold on the brunette as Beca relaxed against Aubrey. Aubrey's scent washed over her and slowly slid her arms to snake around the blondes waist.

"Beca...sweetie..can you tell me what happened...cuz Im pretty sure it wasnt nothing." Brey asked quietly after another minute or two. Beca let out a small breath that Aubrey couldnt help but to shiver at as it went right across her skin into her soul, which Beca did notice but was to lost to wonder what it meant. With a sigh, Beca looked up into Breys green eyes.

"That guy I left with last night..." Was all she said before Chloe came walking back in. "The girls said they hope you two feel better as I told them you were both totes hungover and I was gonna pla-" she stopped talking at she took in the sight of the two girls in the bed. Before she could even think about how cute it was, Beca was out of Aubreys arms and across the room. "Im sorry..Chloe..Im so sorry..." was all they heard before the bathroom door was being slamed closed.

"Beca!" both seniors had called out to her as she ran to the bathroom. Sharing a look, the realization of what had upset thier tiny little brunette the night before hit them, and why she had just locked herself in the bathroom.

"Beca" Chloe said, moving closer to the door that seperated the two seniors from the girl the both loved. "Its okay...I swear"

"Okay?!" Beca asked, well more like screamed at the door infront of her. She stood with her head against it, her hands on either side, figthing to stay in the present again as her thoughts threatened to take her to her past. Always a fuck up, arnt you? Beca slammed her head against the door to get her mind to shut up. "How is it ok? I was just laying in bed, in your girlfriends arms...theres nothing ok with that" as much as I wish it was she finished in her head. Beca couldnt be here with them, not in the state she was it. Beca needed to get her shit together and the two people that filled her every thought being together and her being locked in a room with them wasnt helping. But she couldnt bring herself to shut them out completely, becasue after all they were her two best friends and she would rather be dead then not at least have that.

Chloe opened her mouth to try and sooth Beca, but before she could even take a breath in the door was being pulled open. The look on Beca's face broke both Aubrey's and Chloe's hearts simultaneously. She looked defeated and distant, but most of all she just looked broken.

"Becs" Chloe whispered as she moved a little closer to her, relieved when Beca didnt move away. Pushing a stray strand of Beca's hair behind the younger girls ear, Chloe stroked her cheek with the pad of her thumb. "Whats wrong?"

"Nothing" It was always her go to answer for that question. Her eyes were cast down to the floor and her arms wrapped around her sides like she would fall apart at any second.

"Wanna try again? And this time, lets keep the lying to a minimum please" Aubrey scoffed. She knew she shouldnt be getting mad, she wanted to help Beca but couldnt if the freshman if she refused to tell them what was wrong and what had happened.

Chloe and Beca eyes shot up to Aubrey. "Brey.." Chloe scolded her girlfriend. "Im sorry...I..I just want to help her and shes shutting us out like we dont care..." Aubrey said softly, looking ashamed.

Now it was Beca's turn to scoff, anger rising in her and pushing out everything else. Well thats one way to clear your mind.. She laughed softly to herself. "Well maybe thats because you don't care. Or at least you shouldn't" She said brushing past the two seniors that now stood there with their mouths hanging open. "Its not like you dont have each other to worry about let alone some poor excuse like me" she mumbled as she crawled back into the bed. When she took a deep breath, she wanted to scream all over again, the damn bed smelled like Aubrey now.

"Excuse me?" "Whats that supposed to mean" Both seniors said at the same time.

Beca laughed out loud this time, but it sound much darker then her laugh normally sounded. "Well lets see...You and Aubrey are a thing right?" Beca said looking at Chloe. Had she looked at Aubrey, she wouldnt have been able to stay as mad because being surrounded by her smell and the look on her face would have had Beca's resolve slipping again. When neither denied it she looked up to the ceiling laughing again. "Thats what I thought. So you two have your own things to worry about with each other. And none of that includes me. Not that I blame you, Id be with either of you too. Your both amazing." She sighed and looked back at them with a sad smile before rolling onto her side so all she could see was the city outside their window because she definately didnt want to look at them after she said the next part. "And I know that Im just some stupid, young, no good sorry excuse for a person, that doesnt even deserve your friendship."

As the words that Beca said sunk in, both Chloe and Aubrey couldnt help the gasp that came. "Why would you even think those things about yourself let alone say them to us?" Chloe scolded as she moved to kneel in front of Beca, wiping away the tear that was escaping from the younger girls eye. "Its the truth, thats why" Beca whispered as she closed her eyes tight. She couldnt bear to look at the love and sympythy that was in Chloes eyes.

Chloe looked at Aubrey, their mouths open in shock once again. The were having a silent conversation about how to go about this. After Aubrey nodded Chloe placed her hand on Beca's face to get the girl to look at her again. "Dont you dare say things like that about yourself infront of us ever again, because they are most certainly not true" Chloe said when Beca had finally opened her eyes. "We both love you Becs, of course we worry about you and care."

"Shes right you know...and thats why I snapped at you earlier, because you were being such a brat about things,and we just want to help and Im sorry." Aubrey said, crawling up the bed to lay on her side behind Beca,placing an arm around the small girls waist, smiling a little when she didnt pull away. "And if you ever say things like that, Ill sick the wolves on you"

Beca laughed, geninuely laughed for the first time since this all started (which may have only been a day, but in her mind had been forever). "Yea, cuz we all know the wolves in the oath was 'Dixie Chicks serious' " She said when she found her breath again. Ok, so maybe they did love her. It just wasnt the kind of love she had hoped for from them. But she could live with that she guessed, so long as it meant she could keep her two best friends.

"Ok lets get you fixed up, because we totes are gonna have a movie day today seeing as its just us" Chloe smiled as Beca's smirk grew a little at the sound of "just us". Nodding, Beca sat up against the back board once more, Aubrey doing the same next to her. "This is probably gonna really hurt, but it should pass and I have some asprin that will help with the pain." Beca nodded again and because all of a sudden shes a total pussy, she laces her fingers with Aubreys in a death grip. She knows why she scared but she'd never say anything to them, because she didnt want them to know how true her earlier words really were.

"Ok ok just do it already" Beca said finally, sub conciously jerking away from Chloe's hands that hadnt even moved towards her face yet causing her head to hit the wall. "ow...damn it" she growled.

The two senoirs couldnt help themselves as the broke into laughter. They had never seen Beca so jumpy and scared at the thought of pain. "Fir- First of all I didnt even move" Chloe started between laughes "And second, your acting like a baby it will be over before you know it" she said when she and Aubrey finally composed themselves.

"First of all, Im not a baby, Im a bad ass. And secondly I..I..Well I have no secondly I just wanted to mock you and tell you Im a bad ass" Beca said, smirking at the red head ignoring her comment about the flinch. "but seriously, get it over with already"

Chloe just smirked back at the brunette,something that she had picked up from spend so much time with the DJ, and moved to place her figers on the sides of Beca's nose. "Ok on the count of three...One..." CRACK!. And then scream. The two sounds both coming from Beca, the crack being her nose sliding into place.

After a few minutes of cursing and whining Beca finally opened her eyes. "What the fuck Chlo? What happened to on three?"

Chloe just shrugged with a smile, while Aubrey was chuckling next to Beca. Aubrey brought their intertwined hands to rest on her knee. As she was looking over the brusies she noticed a few scars that she had never seen before,due to the fact that this was the first time either senior had seen her wrists without the shit load of bracelettes she normal wore. "Beca? What are these?" Aubrey asked looking closer at them, almost sure she already knew answer, and no, their Beca wouldnt do that to herself. She hoped.

Oh shit..oh shit...shit shit shit started playing through Beca's mind as she yanked her arm from Aurbeys grip and wrapped both arms around her stomache. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out. Really not wanting to go down that road with them right now she opted for a compromise in the "deep talk and feelings bullshit" department. "If you leave that alone for another day...Ill tell you what happened last night" She said softly, looking at her lap.


A/N And there you have it...Chapter 2 bitches! Considering the high the reviews left me on, I could seem to end the chapter once I started fixing and adding things, I think I ended up changing most of it lol Let me know what you thought :D Do not despair though, Ive already started chapter 3 which will either be up tonight as well or tomorrow when I get home from work, and seeing as I have the following day off there will be even more to come soon :D Thanks again guys, Im glad you enjoyed! Review!