"The unnecessary Guilt II"
Another chapter
Even when I'm w/ shizu-chan, I still can't sleep. And also when I'm alone.
Those things keep on bothering me.
"Zzzzz…"
I'm looking at shizu-chan right now, who's peacefully sleeping… he's really cute when sleeping, completely opposite when he's awake. Throwing vending machines, trash cans and etc. even though he always tells that 'he hates violence' and actually that is his quote… haha, he's a protozoan really.
"This really pisses the heck out of me…" I murmured to myself.
"I will definitely find out the who the 'mastermind' is"
MORNING…
I Left the house of shizu-chan early. And of course, I left him w/ a LOVELY NOTE~!~!~!
SHIZU-CHAN!
LOVE YOUR PUPPY FACE!
SEE YA LATER~!
Yep~ something like that.
Back to reality. I'm quite relaxed about this investigation. Well, I'm confident w/ my skills that's why.
And I'm really near on finding out who is it
"I see, thanks" I gathered lots of information from different people. Even yakuzas, old people, highschoolers and many beloved humans to mention.
Most of the informants pay other sources for their information. Well, I'm also doing that but, rarely.
Most of the time, I gather information on my own and I developed that skill for the sake of my beloved people of course.
Still, I can't believe that I Fucked up on that time. That was the shittest thing I did in my life. And that was the reason I was kidnapped by a certain group.
That guy. I don't even know him. But he was a good actor, he even pretended to be my 'old lover' or something.
"Orihara-san… I took this video on the day you were kidnapped."
"Good work… then? How much will that be?"
"About 30,000 yen"
"Here you go."
You think I depended on this man?
Nahh~ I just said earlier that I'm gathering information by myself right? So, even the taping was planned by me.
Except for that stupid trap I fell for.
Anyway, I predicted that myself.
The reason was simple, these past few weeks I was being followed by these suspicious looking men whenever I go. So, I hired a 'professional spy' to track them all. But, I never knew nor met anyone of them. They were all completely stranger to me.
If I will call the police I'll feel that I'm lost. This is a game for me, and for the sake of my pride, I will let them do what they want to do to me. But since I care for my life and all, I investigated if they are killers, but looks like not. So… that's it.
"Thank you, Mr."
The camera man left after I paid him. He was creepy to be honest, buut~ I'm pretty sure myself that … he will not tell it to anyone.
"Alrighty then~" I placed the cd on my DVD player and turned on my TV
"Show your face to me, Bastard"
I will really kill this guy if I can.
It played. Two men were seen to be going out in the building. And it was near my place. The first one who went out was the one who pretended to be my lover. Then… w/out a doubt the second guy will be… the Mastermind… I'm so sure of it.
It revealed… a young handsome man in dark glasses w/ a two body guards beside him…
"Heiwajima-san, I'll take care of the rest."
The old lover man in the video said, and the guy in front of him just nodded…
"Heiwajima.?"
"Let's go, kasuka." The other bodyguard ordered.
This is the most… Unpredictable information I've ever seen… really.
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When I woke up. The flea was not anymore in my side. And somehow, that annoys me.
"That bug. He didn't even-"
I saw a note in my table.
"T-the hell?"
That flea always annoys me. But he makes me happy sometimes. Only sometimes alright!
"I wonder where the hell he went? Don't tell me… that he's cheating on me?"
My phone rang suddenly.
I picked it and saw it was kasuka.
Very rare for him to call me though.
I answered.
"Kasuka? What's up?"
I waited 30 seconds before he answered.
"Hi brother. Are you doing well?"
"Yeah… I'm fully recovered now, thanks to my weird strength, haha"
"That's… fine…"
It wasn't his normal tone. I know he's always dull when it comes to talking. But, as his brother. I know him well.
"By the way… brother, are you w/ Orihara Izaya right now?"
Why… izaya's name suddenly… pops up…?
"N-no, why are you asking?"
"He left?"
When did kasuka asked me about izaya? Anyway, did he just?-
"Brother?"
"Uhh… yeah." I don't know what to say now.
"I see… do you have any idea where he went?"
"Not a clue." I can't find a question to ask him right now.
"Then, brother… I'll hang up for now."
What happened to that guy?
Anyway, I'll go for work…
I can't doze off here…
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"Oh, Shizuo!" my boss greeted me.
"Ah, tom-san… Good morning."
"Ohh? You look bad today, are you sure you're already ok?"
"Y-yes… don't mind me…"
How can I be fine? Kasuka's acting … strange.
"Ahh… so, were going to ask this guy to pay for a large dept of his. Be sure not to berserk when they're going to piss you off…"
"I'll try… my best…"
Even though I told that. I'm sure of it that I'll snap.
After our work. I went home afterwards. I'm really in a bad mood today, can't help the heck out of it.
But this time, I'll definitely snap because of-
"Shizu-chan! Where did you go! I was waiting for you!"
This flea… he went somewhere and didn't even tell it properly. And now he'll tell that to me…
"Shut up, flea."
"Oh? Looks like shizu-chan is in a bad mood today…"
He rose from my bed and pulled me close to him…
"Why? Did something happen? Tell me~"
"Not like you'll understand."
"Ehh~? Don't be like that…"
"You… where did you go?"
When I'm w/ this bug… I can't express in words how do I feel.
"I went to investigate regarding about my kidnapping… that's all~"
He then wrapped his hands around me …
"Shizu-chan…"
"O-oi!"
So… he wasn't cheating on me? Why am I so relief with this?
"Nee~ embrace me too~!"
He said while looking up to me.
As usual, he's cute today.
But not enough to make me melt.
I pushed him gently in his head.
"Not now… I've got a bunch of questions to ask you."
He pouted like a little kid.
Heh. Not cute at all…
I sat down and sipped my coffee.
"So? What are you gonna ask.?"
"I forgot…"
"Shizu-chan!"
Should I tell him about kasuka? Because if I will… I feel like…
I might… lose him.
"Che… then I'll just tell you something…"
"What?"
He suddenly opened a topic.
"It's about my kidnapping… I found out who the mastermind was."
His voice was serious this time.
"That was fast… you really are a flea."
"Stop insulting me, will you~"
"I'm not… that's a compliment."
I finished my coffee and went to the kitchen to wash it.
"So… who's it?"
The water was flowing, but that's ok since I can still hear him, if he'll talk.
"I don't want to explain it any further. So, I'll tell it directly…
I just nodded, telling him that I can hear him clearly…
"Your brother, Kasuka… he's the one who ordered them to kidnap me."
Huh? Wait… did I just heard
"Kasuka?" I closed the faucet.
"Yeah."
H-how come…?
I clenched my teeth after confirming.
"Flea… who do you think will believe you?"
"Shizu-chan."
"For all the people… why are you suspecting my brother? Huh!"
"I'm not suspecting him… because he really is the one who ordered to kidnap me."
I gripped my hands
"Stop fooling around you trash!"
"I'm not fooling around. Shizu-chan, don't you? Believe me?
"No one will Ever believe a Shit like you…" I said with a firm loud voice.
Izaya widened his eyes… and looked at me… w/ tears nearly falling to his eyes."
"I see… then, that makes me a worthless, liar flea for you."
He grabbed his jacket and went to the door…
"Sorry for deceiving you… Shizu-chan…"
He left, closing the door slowly…
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"Ahh… what a sunny day!"
"Yes… great… day…"
I said in a dull voice. Tom looked at me…
"Hayy! Shizuo! Get a hold of yourself…" he cheered.
But… how can I? I called izaya…
Trash… and a… shit…
"S-sorry… but really, I'm not in the mood to."
Tom sighed. And I continued to curse myself.
"Shizu-chan~ bad mood~?"
"Ah?"
"Shizuo?"
I thought I… heard him…
Calling my name.
"Eh? I-I'm fine…"
"No you're not… now go and get some rest… you might kill our customer if you will not."
I feel so… disappointed. Very.
I went back to my house and had a rest just like what my boss said…
But…
"Haha~ you look pathetic right now! Shizu-chan~"
I can hear his voice. And this makes me… can't sleep…
"Don't be like that~ you're a monster… it'll be fine…"
"Izaya…"
I gripped my pillow… shit…
This is just … unfair…
"Izaya…"
"Sorry for deceiving you… shizu-chan"
"Shit! How can I sleep!"
His voice continued to echo in my mind…
"I want to see you… izaya…"
I slapped my face at disappointment.
"I want to…"
"Nee~ embrace me too~"
"Hug you right now…"
Really. What have I done? I'm such a failure!
I heard a sudden noise coming to my leaving room
"Izaya…?" I stood up and walked.
I opened the lights and a man w/ a gun pointed it to me.
"Heiwajima Shizuo… you're going to die right now…"
"Fuck… this."
Without thinking… I nearly killed this man w/ my full strength. I snapped.
"Oi… don't sleep yet and answer my fucking question."
I kicked him.
"Ahh!"
"Now… who's the bastard who ordered you to kill me?"
"Huh! Like I'll tell you! Just kill me!"
"Son of A!"
I chocked him to death. And finally, when he can't anymore breathe… he started talking…
"Ggg…hhh…iii"
I released him…
"Now… will you tell me? Shithead!"
"Y-yes… *cough* the one who ordered me is my boss, hanejima yuuhei"
"Yuuhei…?"
"Y-yes! His real name is Heiwajima kasuka *cough*."
Just… did he just…?
"He's the one who ordered them to kidnap me."
So… what Izaya told me… is, true…
"Are you… sure…?"
"Yes! I can't believe I told you… ahh! I'm gonna be so dead!"
Kasuka… he wanted to kill me…
But… why…?
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"Kill him…"
"What kind of death, kasuka-san?"
"Burn him to ashes"
"N-no! stop! I! I didn't want to-
Ahhh!"
The man was in fire. And slowly, he was turned into ashes, just like what the young man said.
"Whoa… you really are a devil, kasuka-san!"
The young man remained cool w/ no emotion…
"But still… what made you do that? He's your brother right?"
The young man turned around and said in a chilling voice.
"If I can make Orihara Izaya mine…
I will do anything even it kills my brother."
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"Damn it… damn…damn…damn…damn…damn…damn…damn…damn"
"Looks like you're in a bad mood today"
I can't accept the day offs anymore…
It just pisses me off…
"Damn…damn…damn…damn…"
"SHI-ZU-O-SAN!"
A cheerful voice suddenly shouted my name. And it was, Mairu… the little sister of Izaya.
"Whooo~! Looking gloomy as ever! You'll become an old man in no time~!~!~! ya know~"
Darned… noisy as ever… just like his… brother.
"Nee~ let's play!"
"Go away! I'm not in the mood. I might kill you if I'll play w/ you anyway…"
"How~ scary~!"
Instead of doing this… I need too apologize to him… to izaya…
"Boring~ YOU ARE BORING!~!"
"Shut up ant… by the way, where is your other twin sister?"
"Ahh… he's w/ iza-nii… coz he's a bit lonely these days. He even cried-
Oops! Oh my! I'm such a dork!
Iza-nii told us to keep it as a secret. Ahh! Careless me!
Izaya… cried…?
I know I'm the reason…
"Shizuo-san?"
I can't stay here…
I need to go to him.
"Tom-san! I need a day off today! See you!"
"Ahh, go ahead"
He waved to me
"Izaya… I'm the shit…"
I said as I ran as fast as I could…
At last it's his apartment.
I took a deep breath before knocking… so, I knocked…
I waited then I heard a voice.
"If you are Shizuo-san, go away.
Iza-nii doesn't want to see your shit face"
"k-kururi?"
"Kururi? Who's it?"
"Ah… iza-nii… it's just a delivery shit man. Don't mind it."
I sighed.
"I-izaya… it's me…"
The door opened… and izaya was the one who opened it…
"What are you doing here?"
He said seriously, looking at me…
His eyes were red like he just cried.
"I'm here to apologize on what happened…"
"No need to apologize… come in…"
"Iza-nii!"
"Kururi, go to your sister now… me and shizuo needs to talk…"
"O-ok…"
Kururi left but before that she acted like a kid and
"Blee!"
"What do you mean no need to apologize? It's my fault."
"No, it's not…"
"Izaya…"
"I'm lying. Don't believe me."
I stood up. "I'm sorry Izaya… I'm the trash… I'm the shit… and…"
I hugged him
"You're my cute flea…"
"Shi-shizu-chan! Let go…"
"I will not… you told me I need to embrace you back right?"
"Idiot"
"Yeah… I'm your idiot…"
