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September 15th (Night)
Dear Diary
So today was another busy day with homework and prefects duty which includes going around school with the other prefect of our house but I am so use to doing it on my own because Remus is always either sick or gone. I wish that there was some way that I could figure out what was wrong with him but that's ok. I am just looking forward to the weekend, where I can hang out with my friends and maybe relax because I am so tired because I hardly sleep anymore. When I do sleep I have awful nightmares and then I am awake for the rest of the night or I sleep so fitfully that I wake up feeling tired than I have ever felt.
I haven't seen James this week but that's ok because I don't really mind. I haven't really seen Remus either so I have been doing my prefect duties on my own but that's ok because its given me a chance to think and I guess I needed that because now I feel better about myself and how I am planning on dealing with this year and next because this is a big deal I mean I am not going to be able to come back after next year so that's a big deal and also I am going to work hard this year to make head girl and be able to have my own room away from the tower and be able to study away from the loudness of the common room. I hate that common room because its always so loud and everyone is either talking or having a party and you can also see all the couples making out and that gets old after awhile so I have learned to ignore everything but its going to be nice after awhile to have my own room and everything. I would assume that I would share a common room with the head boy but I don't know I have never seen the head rooms and I guess I COULD ask but I would rather find out next year.
I have a lot of homework to do so I am going to go because I should do that and get some sleep because I have charms in the morning then transfiguration.
Night
Lily
September 20th (Morning)
Dear Diary
The day has just started for me and I am already ready for it to end…I had an awful dream and these are the times I could still go to James's room and fall asleep next to him but now I have to be strong and find a way to go back to sleep on my own. I guess I can be glad that today is Saturday and not a day that I would have to go to class and be tired and not do my best but I am just going to write in you for a bit because I need to think some happy thoughts and clear my mind before I decide to try and sleep again because I might sleep better if my mind is clear and calm and not all hyped up or thinking about a lot of things like it has these past few nights where I have these dreams, but if I go to sleep calm and not thinking about anything I don't have them which is weird but I am not going to go and talk with the Headmaster or anyone else because I don't want them to think that I am crazy because it seems that anything that you talk about gets spread around school and the last thing I need spread around school is that I am nuts and can't handle the least amount of pressure when I can because that's just what I do on a daily basis because I am a prefect and I work on a lot of homework and stuff like that. I guess I also don't want the whole staff to know about these dreams because then they will worry about me and keep a closer eye on me then they already do and it drives me insane because I hate it when they don't let me do my own thing and how I can never be a real teenager like Marah and Isabella and break the rules but I guess that's a good thing and really they are acting better now that I am a prefect and Remus is the other prefect even though he hardly does his patrolling around the school.
Well I think I am going to try and sleep some more because I need to catch up on my sleep
Bye
Lily
October 14th (Night)
Dear Diary
I have been so busy with school that I forgot to write in you and I am really sorry about that. I guess that 6th year really has been harder for me this past month and I am wishing that I didn't have to worry about it and that it could be the next break but I know that that is far off and I guess I am going to have to put up with this and study long and hard and get through this. I know that I can because I am smart and know how to make it through these kinds of things. But with Remus not helping with prefect duties and having so much work that I have been stressed out and everything, I can hardly sleep anymore because I have to stay up late doing homework and studying when I should be either relaxing or sleeping. I guess I should tell Remus to start helping me when he is trying to catch up on his school work because I can't do this on my own anymore and I can't handle this anymore. I guess I have finally gotten so stressed out and everything that I am going to ask for help.
So far I haven't seen any pranks and I am kind of glad because I don't want to put up with that this term. I have too much to do then to have to deal with James and his friends pranks and I know that they are very childish to do when you are 16 so I am going to hope that this term that James lays off the pranks and jokes and gets into his books and Quidditch but I guess that might be too much to ask for because I am going to bet that James is planning a prank because he always does and I know that its either going to be aimed at me or Severus so I am going to hope that he doesn't do anything at all but I don't know. I am going to also hope that he gets caught by someone before he does anything totally stupid because that would be really funny. I just don't want to get pranked this term and I would rather not see anyone get that.
Well it's late and I am tired so I am going to get some sleep because I have to be up early to go and study.
Night
Lily
November 1st (Night)
Dear Diary
Sorry that I haven't written but I got kind of busy with all my school work and I guess I got caught up in everything that was going on around here seeing as 6th year has been pretty busy and its not even close to being done. I still have to get ready for tests that lead up to finals and everything else that we have to do. I am just wishing that it was Christmas because then I would be going home for the holidays and seeing my family again. I would say that getting to spend the whole Summer holidays with them was just odd because I had spent the summer before with the Potters, I wonder if I will ever get to do that again…..I wish I could but once James decides to act his age which I doubt will happen I mean he wasn't bad until after we broke up and everything but I would say that I have handled it pretty well and I have stayed strong like I knew I could, with the help of Marah and Isabella of coarse. They kept me sane and from crying and told me to get myself back to work and act as normal as possible and that would help my broken heart and cause time to go by faster than I would ever think that it could. I would love to say that my James free life has been great but I miss him badly and wish he would take time to grow up and ask me out in any way that's not a joke like he's been.
Well I better go because I am tired and need some sleep for classes tomorrow.
Night
Lily
Authors Note: Sorry for the delay I have been busy with life and college, the bf and joining the Navy…. I should have chapter 3 up ASAP.
