HAha, edited version! Thank you to Psi! it really helped a lot so thanks and I hope this is better than the first one! Thank you to all others who reviewd and I apologize if this is not up to your standards. I am still new to writing so hopefully I will improve as I keep writing, Arigato! Well actually im Korean so Gamsahamnida! Personally, I really don't know what to think of this chapter, but ill update soon, I kind of want the story to get moving a bit forward. Please bear with me if this isn't very good. R&R
Hinata POV_-_
Im home again, why am I home? I thought I left? I was with Sasuke-kun wasn't I? Whose kimono is this? I don't wear red… I was in my room, lying on the floor in a fetal position. Déjà vu… NO! oh please no…
"Weak, Worthless, you bring our clan shame" he whispered and I shrunk away from his hateful disappointed gaze. Why was I so pathetic, that my own family scorned me?
"I'm- I'm sorry!" a sob tore itself from my throat and the familiar feeling of pain ripped through me as his chakra laden fist collided with my already bruised body.
"Stuttering is a sign of weakness you foolish girl." His snarl cracked another piece in my heart and I closed my eyes. I deserved this. It was my fault for tarnishing the family name. it was the least I could do. But I could not help screaming, the pain, oh the pain, was too overwhelming. Slice after slice carved my skin as I was held down by the weight of him on my legs. Kaa-san, I am sorry. I am so so sorry I failed you.
"If you had any sense you would give your title to your little sister" His hiss slithered up my ear and the tears I was desperately holding back flowed. I worked so hard, why was my bes t not enough? I am now jonin, I went above his expectations, yet.. I was still the weak one. My tears kept trickling down my cheeks. This infuriated him more.
"Ninja do not show emotions!" The kick left me moaning in agony. I think a rib cracked. It felt like fire burning in me. Kami, let me out of this misery! Kaa-san, may I come up and join you?
Blow after blow, cuts after cuts. It didn't stop. My body was covered in flames. Flames. It was burning me up. A crazed howl of terror filled the room. I was dying? No if I was, then the pain wouldn't be here any more. No, no more please… please stop.. I am so so sorry I have let you down, I will try harder. But the hits kept coming. The knuckles crashed into my face and my bloody body was flung to the wall. Why won't someone help me?
The crazy, angry eyes gleamed down at me and I panicked. OH no not this. The long fingers fumbled at the edge of my pants,
"NO! Please don't do this." I begged. Will this really happen again? Why didn't I just fight back? I could beat him…
"Disgrace," He shrieked and continued. The fingers against my skin were too much. So cruel and rough. I screamed. I couldn't take it anymore, it had to end.
"Sasuke-san" I saw his face two inches from mine, his dark eyes searing into my white ones. What had I done? I was covered in sweat and the lights hurt my eyes.
"Hyuga," He did not move, "Breathe Hyuga" he whispered and my eyes glanced at the rest of his team. They were looking at me with obvious concern. What had I done? A calloused finger brought my face toward his. "Breathe; you still haven't taken a breath yet,"
I obeyed, and the needed breath of oxygen cleared my head quickly.
"Again," He instructed. I did and I kept doing so. Why was he being so kind? What did I do, that was so worrying?
"Di-" I was about to ask but he cut me off. He turned toward Karin-san, that hovered close.
"Get her a glass of water," he ordered and she nodded. HE turned to the others, "Go sleep outside, it isn't that cold."
Jugo pulled Suigetsu out of the room, they both threw me concerned looks and it filled me with fear. What did I do?
"Here you go, Hinata-san," Karin returned and I whispered a thank you, as I sipped the water carefully. "Ill be in the kitchen Sasuke-kun, call if you need anything" Sasuke didn't answer and she left silently.
"i-I am sorry, im so sorry for waking all of you" I murmured and stared down at my hands. They trembled slightly and I clenched them angrily. I was so weak. Why? I trained so hard every day.
"Do you know what you tried to do?" He leaned back a little and looked at me, barely blinking.
"Ano.. did I scream?" I asked hesitantly, my nightmares usually caused me to yell in the night.
"Yeah" he said.
"Gomen" I shook my head regretfully. "I am very sorry for-"
"You tried to strangle yourself too." he informed me, never once taking his mesmerizing eyes off my face. No, I couldn't have. Did my dream hold that much power over me? Did he hold that much power over me? Why couldn't I be stronger ?
"Im sorry, I haven't even been here two days and I am a burden," despair shook me and I bit my lips so hard, I tasted blood. He was right, I was brought everyone down. Everything was my fault. No matter how much I tried to change, my weakness never left me.
"You're father tell you that?" he asked softly. It was the truth, so I nodded. My soul felt drained. My nightmares were never that bad to cause such a reaction from me.
"So what will you do?" How was I to answer that?
"I will go back," I smiled. I did not want him to pity me. "My family is there, my friends are there, it is my home. I do not even know how I got here" Family.. family died with Kaa-san. Shino- kun, Kiba-kun and Kurenai-sensei were my family now, I at least had them to live for.
"He beats you" Sasuke glared accusingly and I felt hurt. Why? I did not know.
"That is not your business," I murmured. "You have no right to interfere in my life after you cut your ties with me Uchiha-san" If he hadn't, maybe all of this could have been different.
"Don't be foolish," HE snapped harshly. I flinched. It reminded me of Him. He used that word a lot: Foolish. Everything I did was always foolish to him. "What use would that be? I thought you were smarter than that."
"I am sorry," I forced out. I wanted to cry. Sasuke Uchiha, I don't know you anymore. What happened to the friend that would comfort me?
_.
Why would she go back to a family that did not love her? A family that abused her and did not realize what a kind person she was. She was just as kindhearted and pure as when I left her. Those large, white eyes of hers, they held no ill will. Just pain. If I knew her at all, she didn't feel any resentment toward him, She probably blamed herself.
"How is she Sasuke-kun?" Karin asked, eyes wide. She was sitting at the kitchen table, her hair messy and face drawn and tired.
"She'll be fine, but keep an eye on her," I told her.
"Okay, I will." She handed me some water and I took it without a word. "Sleep, Sasuke-kun, I promise I'll keep watch"
"Hn" I leaned against the counter and took a sip of icy water. It felt cold as it slid down my throat and I closed my eyes wearily. Itachi, my life sucks. You should have just told everything to me from the start, or I wouldn't be in this mess. Remember Hinata? We went to a couple of her birthday parties together, you know the shy one? The one you said would be really pretty some day? She's the same as always. Even with being beaten, she can still smile. Why can't I smile anymore? I know it wasn't your fault, forgive me for killing you and hating you. I was so blind. I left everything behind to hunt you down. My anger was so strong and now I regret it all. I regret all of it. Especially her… remember when Hinata and I would play together every single day?
-_Flash back_-
"Aniki!" I Smiled and laughed when My older brother ruffled my hair.
"Hello Sasuke-kun" He smiled back. "Where's Hinata-chan?"
"He-he-hello Itachi-kun" She smiled at him as she stepped out of the bushes with a few flowers in her small petit hands. "Do you-you like my-my fl-flowers?"
"They're beautiful," and she blushed. Her blushes always made me smile. It was always funny to me for some reason.
"You guys, are pretty attached huh?" He patted Hinata's short hair and she blushed deeply.
"Hai! Sasu-chan, is my best friend!" Hinata glowed with happiness as she said this and for the first time, I blushed.
"Watch out Hinata-chan, I think Sasuke likes you" Itachi teased before going into the house.
"Want t-to go play ninja?" she held out her hand to me hopefully and I nodded.
"Yeah," her hand was cool and warm in my hand at the same time. "Let's go play, Hina-chan"
_End Flashback Still Sasuke-POV_-
Those were the good times. She still had her mother then, and she was my best friend. My only best friend. I regret what I did, but it's too late. She hated me, I could tell, her eyes were blank with a hint of anger as she looked at me. I thought cutting ties with her would be the best, I didn't know it would cause her pain. I can't believe I forgot how shy she was, I was basically her only friend and I left her alone. How could she forgive me for that?
I can't let her go back. I've never talked to Hiashi much but the times I did I knew automatically he was a very cold man. Colder than my own. Last night, I wanted her to leave as soon as she became strong enough, but I couldn't force myself to let her go back to a place where people did not realize what a good person she was.
